I want to be loved

confused

NIK/POV/

I went inside after Dylan drove me home. and here is Jake, standing there looking at my face. I walk pass him but he grabs my hand.

where the f**k do you think you are going? . Jake, please let me go. your mom is home and I don't want her to find us like this. ohh really? okay, then let's go to my room. He didn't let me talk then he pull me to the stairs and to his room and slammed me on his bed. He lays on top of me.

Jake, what the f**k is this? get off from me, you crazy bastard.

I won't baby. What do you want Jake?. I want you baby. I want you to stay away from him. Who? Are you telling me you don't know the person am talking about Nik?. No. Okay, then am talking about your Dylan that fool. I can't stay away from him Jake. and for God sake, please leave me and Dylan alone.

Hahaha! that will never happen. from the day you saw me naked was the day you became mine, Nik. So get used to it love.

You are crazy Jake, very crazy. yeah, am crazy but crazy for you . Don't tell me you don't like me because you do. everything is written in your face. don't tell me you don't feel it when I touch you baby. look, even now you are blushing. Because you are poking me with your big d**k. See it affects you baby. you like me just admit it, Nik. I don't like you and get off from me now. Oops, not so soon sweetie.

And that is it, he kissed me. at first I was trying to push him but when we kiss for some minutes, I loose myself to him. He took over and bit my lip. He took advantage of it and shove her tongue inside my mouth. He kissed me passionately and I was feeling it. He made me feel like am been loved.

but I know he is lying but what if is true.

As I was enjoying the kiss, he stopped all of a sudden. I frown my face , not liking what he did.

Why have you frown your face? do you want us to continue baby. A..m am, no get off from me baby. baby? asked by Jake. sorry I mean Jake. He got off from me and I also stood up.

tell me baby, do you like me or not. this is the last time I will ask. I don't like you Jake. can't you get it. okay, as you say so. I won't bother you again baby, ohh sorry, I mean Nik.

Then he storm out of my room. I felt hurt but I don't know why.

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it was morning and am in the kitchen cooking. It was Jake favorite food pasta. I don't know why I cooked it but I did.

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breakfast is ready everyone. Mrs Monica came out and sat down. I served her. where is Jake? Monica asked. He hasn't come out of his room yet. Then go and call him. okay .

Am standing in his door knocking but he's not minding me.

Jake!

hey, why the f**k are you shouting. because you weren't answering me. what do you want?. breakfast is ready. I won't eat today. but I cooked your favorite. why did you cooked it. you don't like me so why are you making it hard for me. but that doesn't matter. it matters Nik. am having breakfast at Lily's place.

she also cooked pasta for me. so you are choosing her over mine. yes. are you guys back together? no but we are friends.

okay fine! you go to her. I went back to eat my breakfast. where is Jake?

mom I will not eat with you today. and why?. because am eating with Lily . wait, are you guys back together?. No mom, we are just friends.

okay go, don't let her wait. bye mom . bye darling.

Then he left looking more handsome. and all for that stupid Lily. wait, why am I even angry, what the f**k wrong with me.

I don't like him but why am I angry. well I don't but am pissed off because I bet my food is sweet than her.

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Am in school infront of my locker taking out my books. I saw Jake and Lily talking at his locker. I felt angry and went out of there to my class.

is lunch time and I was going to eat. I heard a voice coming from one of the empty rooms. and since i was curious, I went there to check who was there.

the site infront of me was really bad that i was angry. it was Jake and Lily kissing and touching their bodies. I felt disgusted that I was touched by him some days ago. I thoughthe said he loves me. what happen to that love. did he get over it so soon. I was having alot of questions in my mind that I forgot where i was standing. I came back to reality when I was yelled by Lily.

am sorry, am going out. you don't have to yelled. I went out from there feeling hurt and been used by Jake.

/ead episode 8 to know what is next//