The struggle within me

It was a good and pleasant day. There was a boy named John Pat. He is studying at a university, taking up a bachelor of science major in mathematics. He is now a 3rd year college student. He was a shy and silent type of person. He didn't like to always talk much and wanted to be always be alone. 1 day he was so uncomfortable and scared when he saw people. He didn't understand why he felt that way. He felt so paranoid. He really struggles a lot because he needs to control his feelings. Everytime he saw a person, his body froze and a feeling of too much uneasiness. It really affects his studies and personal life. Whenever he attends his class, he cannot focus on the lesson because of his fear of people. It was really hard in the beginning, because he didn't know how to control his feelings. He did have friends and they had a deep conversation about it and they helped him with how to overcome this, but still the fear didn't disappear. He didn't know if his friends were reliable and trusted, but he still shared it because he couldn't carry it all alone. It was so unbearable to the point that he wanted to kill himself. He is so depressed that he always locks himself in his boarding house. He doesn't want to talk to anyone. His happiness disappears and his life becomes miserable. A feeling that he never expected he always feels. He knows that no one will understand him and they think that he is crazy. He really needs help and he is always sad. He seeks happiness.