My choice

Episode one Walking, I kept walking, without knowing were exactly I am, my head spinning, the walls of my world came crashing down right before my eyes and the words were gone. fear, was all I felt. There and then, I saw those pair of eyes staring back at me again and this time, pity was all I could see. Wakeup!! I heard mum's voice saying.. I just woke up that instant, sweating profusely, fear was evident in my features …thank God it was all a dream. Relief washed through me when I heard mum's voice. Are you okay dear? I just hugged mum as if my life depends on it. I love you mum, I love you too baby girl. Are you okay? The same nightmare isn’t it? I nodded. Mum sighed and turned to leave with a worried look on her face… “Honey, breakfast is ready.. Go get prepared for school and come down for breakfast” was all she said to me. I nodded. Getting out of bed wasn’t really easy for me but I have to anyway. I shrugged off all the pains and focus on getting prepared for the tedious of the day. Slowly pulled my pajamas and walked into the bathroom to do my business. Brushing my teeth, I Stared at myself in the mirror while my image stared right back at me as I brush my teeth…. I held back the tears threatening to fall… oh, God take control. After that, I put on my shower cap, bath and headed out of the bathroom to get myself prepared for school. Finding a dress is quite easy, since we were hardly sourcing for a means of survival. I searched through my wardrobe, I slid on a pair of jeans, which is faded, a long sleeve shirt, I then pulled up my hair into loose bun and lastly, I applied lip gloss. Guess am perfectly okay for the day!! If you are good at judging people then go f**k yourself. Walking down the stairs, mum was sipping coffee… she raised her worried face to look at my now pale features. Jesy, “come have your sit dear”. Eat okay? Honey, I know….. Here she goes again. Mum, can we just not talk about this till when I get back from school? I couldn’t eat, I lost my appetite. I just left. I know mum is definitely hiding something from me. I hope it doesn’t break me when I get to know. The walk to school is no joke at all. We really can’t afford to get a car. Did I tell you? Yeah, I work extra hours after school. It haven’t been so easy, but I have to assist mum. She can’t do it all alone. My school has been a pain in the neck growing up. All I see everyday is that terrible place for learning, School. Mine is not just terrible but worst!! Every single day, I got beaten, bullied, things thrown at me…. Ahhhh it got to a point that I decided to quit going to school but mama would try as far as convincing me to go. Okay, here we go again... Walking into school, ignoring the jelly bitches whispering to themselves, making jest of me and laughing… who cares anyway!. I walked straight into the locker room, from afar I could see a paper sticking out of my locker… shocked; who could have dropped that there? taking the note,’ WHEN WILL YOU STOP WEARING THOSE FADED JEAN? These w****s are on it again. What have I done to deserve this unending humiliation from them? I just throw it into the trash and got my notes then left. from the corner of my eyes, I knew someone was watching me. I just ignored the feeling. Nothing has ever changed over time, I have got nobody to defend me but one thing I never did was never to give them the satisfaction of hurting me. It was the school's popular spoilt brat, Madison, that did it.. but what can I say? I checked my timetable and I groaned inwardly. I hate maths!!! And having prof. Trevor take us maths is a lot more worst! I walked into the class, every sit has already been occupied. Nadia, sighting me, just called out to me.. Oh Nadia, “you are so sweet but annoyingly stubborn most times though”. She ignored my words and smiled. Nadia has been a friend at school, meaning, We are not that close to visiting each other just school. When everybody sees me as a contagious disease, she saw otherwise… so, we good. Prof. Trevor came in some mins later. Throughout his class, didn’t really get all he was saying. All I was thinking of was those eyes watching me. Who could that be? The bell just rang for lunch!! Whoooo.. I walked out not even spearing anyone any look. Getting into the dinning hall, quickly joined the queue. It got to my turn and I was given pancakes and yoghurt!! My favorite!! I was about searching for a table to sit, when Madison and her skinny dummies brushed Past me.. My lunch poured on my dress. They just kept walking without sympathy. Like seriously? I was about walking away when someone nudged me…. I was a little taken aback cause who am I for someone to acknowledge my existence? I suddenly turned to see who it was and it is none other than the school's bully and popular, spoilt kid, Hardin. As if am not used to him bullying me already!! Hi, I said. Jesy yeah? Take my lunch and just go. No thanks… I will be fine on my own. I left the Dinning hall without looking back.