Torn between two ruthless lords

Chapter 5

Alexander's Pov

I woke up 33 minutes past 10, it was a Saturday. I could sleep from then to the next day and no one would question it. Everyone I worked with knew that Saturday was my day of rest, no calls or business deals on Saturday. The only person who would dare disrupt that was my P.A and I would only allow it because I knew Ethan would not bring up something that was not important.

“Whatever happens today, I have to employ a nanny” I had promised myself looking at the mirror. It was more like I was telling my inner self what to do. I had to lower my expectations and be “flexible” as Willa would put it. One time she had said to me, “daddy, you are too tight” I had wondered what she meant and asked. She replied, “you always look angry and frown all the time”. I had just shook my head and kept silent, if only she knew.

Of course I look angry all the time. My entire life I've been fighting a war. I am soaked in pain and sadness. The irony however, is that I'm not actually angry, I'm trying to learn how to be happy. And that in itself is a war... there was no need telling her all that. Perhaps when she is of age, she would understand.

“I would get Willa a nanny today” I promised myself to make sure that I did it. I just had to trust something or someone.

As I was taking my bath, I thought of Willa and how great a body was. Her hug came as a surprise and I liked it. It has been a long time since a woman hugged me or since I touched a woman. A sudden want, lust and desire came over me. I wanted to touch and feel all the “hazard areas” in her body. She seemed selfish, I have seen the threatening looks she gave female workers who have tried to make a pass at me.

I like my lover's selfishness. Do you know how sexy it is when someone only wants you? I wanted her to make love to me and me, her.

Last week when I addressed the staff, I had said something about how I know I am hard but track and a very hard-to-handle kind of person. She had followed me to my office and said, “no darling, you are not hard to handle. All you need are the right hands, handling you” since Olivia , no woman has this come close to keeping me on my toes. I wished she would have kissed me at that instant and showed me she could handle me, I needed her fingerprints all over me.

"Chemistry and timing have always been little bitches. They need to step up their game and learn how to work together... for the sake of our aching hearts." I thought to myself. Look at all the thoughts a grown ass man was thinking about when I had to go out there to employ a nanny!

“No harm in wanting a little sometimes” I had said in defense to my inner self's outburst. Taylor seemed to know I picked interest in her and she exploited it every opportunity she got. I liked it too, it was nice to do something for a change.

“How long have you been in this nanny thing?” I asked, exhausted. This was the 7th person I was interviewing today.

The last one had looked so scared she feared I was going to harm her. I mean, why apply to work for me if you are so scared to even look me in the eye?

On a normal day, I would not be bothered. But today, I was just trying to be a normal man, just hire a nanny and these people make it look like I am recruiting saints to work in the vineyard of the Lord

So, here I was trying my luck with the next one hoping she would be the last

“5 years, Sir,” she answered. I liked this woman, she was composed, looked me in the eye and answered all my questions with as much as having to think about it.

“You are hired” I said relieved I had at least found someone to my taste

“You mean it, Sir?” Now, I hated questions like this.

“I do not say what I do not mean” I replied hoarsely.

“When do I start?”

“Goddamnit dumbo, immediately” I cursed in my mind.

“You can start tomorrow, be here as early as possible. You would be moving in with us for the time you would be working”

“Thank you, Sir,” she said excitedly. It meant so much to low class families here to get a job and I paid well

I remembered when my mom got a job to work as a nanny for a big household. She had come home so happy and told all her friends. It was something you know, to be able to help the family.

It was one of the reasons I went into drugs, what we had was not enough for me. I do not understand how my parents do not see it, I wanted more out of life, I deserved it..

* * * *

But everything changed as I stepped into the tech world and

met Samantha Loomis.

It's a whole new story all together