I wanted to tell him that it wasn't the truth. I wanted to tell him that I only love him, but even as I opened my mouth to say it, my voice couldn't be found.
Jason sat, waiting for an answer.
I had to lie. I couldn't believe what was going through my mind. The lie I have been protecting. I've been lying about it so much I had actually believed it. The lie that started thousands of years ago became clear in my head.
I had to lie. If Jason knew the truth, it would kill him. Of course I began believing my own lie-what a liar I turned out to be-so what could I do? I didn't even remember when I was lying. I thought for sure it was the truth. If Jason knew…he would kill me. I lied to myself for years about this, but I couldn't start telling the truth now. I have to hide it from him.
"Jason,
