The Confused One

Episode 4

Charlotte’s POV

I tried to get up off the bed but being under Lucas made it quite difficult, the pain between my legs didn’t help either.

I had to ask Lucas to move and when I did it got awkward.

He felt awkward I felt awkward.

Being completely naked before each other might have just been a big factor for all the awkwardness.

I got dressed pretty quickly and after saying some sort of goodbye thing I left Lucas lying on the bed.

You have to understand this was one of my lowest moments.

Not only did I give my virginity to a guy who always hates my guts but that guy also happens to be my brothers best friend.

And who knows I could get pregnant or maybe not who knows, I however do know that if it happened that I had to sleep with Lucas again it was be pretty strange.

I got to my apartment and went straight into my shower.

I had a quick shower and then put some of my most comfy pyjamas because i need it.

I wanted some coffee but ended up deciding to go with some healthy tea.

I then walked to the spare bedroom.

The room use to be for when Charlie stayed over but after his life went it’s way and he didn’t have much time the room turned into a storage room.

I took out all the old unnecessary things in the room and gave them all away.

I haven’t bought anything for a baby because I wasn’t going to buy things for a baby I still didn’t know I would have.

However the room has all been cleaned and painted which a white paint.

I went back into my own room.

I didn’t really walk there I kinda waddled.

I lied down in bed and put up the show Brooklyn 99, I know the irony, it’s all about cops and s**t and here is a f*****g criminal watching, you can’t blame me though it’s funny s**t.

It’s so late, actually it’s so early, it’s maybe like 6 am, I know this because the sun is starting to rise.

I use the remote near my bed to close the blinds.

My sleep schedule is gonna be f****d but it’s fine.

I close my eyes and as soon as I do I have the images of what happened with Lucas cross my mind.

After that happened a couple of times I came to the conclusion I wouldn’t be having too much sleep.

I hope Lucas has better luck sleeping than I do because I need him to do some gang related work tomorrow, I mean today, it’s today now.

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7 hours later.

I woke up and checked my phone for the time and it was already 1 pm.

I really want to stay in bed but unlucky I have a lot of work to do.

I also promised my mum to visit.

I have to visit all my brothers soon too.

I got up and got dressed.

As I was getting dressed I look at my stomach, it’s so flat, I can see all my abs perfectly.

I can’t stop to imagine that if I am pregnant my stomach will grow in the next couple of months and that there would be a life growing inside me.

However there’s no point in over thinking it now.

I still have a while before I find out if I am pregnant or not so for now I have to concentrate on the things I need to get done.

There’s gonna be a lot of work and if I am pregnant I won’t be able to do it when the baby is born so I better get advanced in the next few months.

However I cannot over work myself because that would be so unhealthy and I wouldn’t want to hurt my baby by being a workaholic.

And the stress my job brings is overwhelming.

I just have to try be calm and hope for the best.

I hope that I am pregnant.

I hope that the gang doesn’t have any serious problems that would cause lots of stress.

And I hope that my family accepts the fact that I might have a baby.

I went out shopping and bought a dozen pregnancy tests so when I’m allowed to take them I can just take them straight away no delay.