Realization 3
1200 Words
All the feels, made time go by really fast and in the blink of my eye, weeks had gone by and I was free. Five weeks later into the school session, closer to vacation. Exams have started so has preparations for them which caused me to sleep late and face what I was afraid of, uncertainty loomed as I was in no control of what was going to happen next, all I could do was go through it and hope it would end soon enough. Unfortunately that was not the case, this time, it was different. My curtain which was originally light green, with leaf petals, the curtain covering my window had turned to something else it looked like a portal to the world of darkness but around this anomaly, there weren't any borders it blended well with my dark room inside I see ” dry dark colored leafless trees on the side, in between is a dark and dusty path as well as bats and spiders”. from my point of view, it looked a bit smaller than the portals I see in films but something was similar and that was the fact that I saw the bats flying. This time I was also paralyzed but I was not distressed like the other times I was somewhat fascinated at this sight but puzzled as well. In my head I wondering to myself, ” Is this sight a hallucination ? Am I just dreaming about all this ? Am I really awake ? The only thing that answer to my question is the opposite, I am not dreaming, I am not hallucinating, I am wide awake, difference this time fear was not the main feeling at that moment but surely I hate paralysis. Unfortunately it happens against my will. At the end, I get out of it awake not asleep, AWAKE. Narrating something like this to those inexperienced could make them look at me like an insane person, knowing that I kept this to myself. I did not believe it to be a hallucination but my friends are not believers of the spiritual world like I am and I did not want anyone to mock me because of that and make my experience feel insignificant and manic. As usual it's another time to be in school. After examinations there is always a party to commence the end of the current session. All I wanted was to kill with my looks and serve something unforgettable. I was not going to let the demons hinder my day life, I was going to do my very best to have fun, until the time to face them comes. The day of the party has arrived, I dress casual in high fashion jeans and a white top, my shoes are Nike air forces, which are my favorite. In school everyone admires the outfit I put together and my jewelry, I wore multiple rings and had on a necklace and earrings. I meet up with Carnation, Aliya, Eria Z and Eria S we take pictures, drinks and have a chat. Towards the end of the party I meet up with one of the seniors, his name is Yuno. Yuno was handsome, Tall, good in basketball, really smart and most of all weird which I liked about him, as I am the same although for his looks, his personality was unusual. Yuno pulls me to the side to have a conversation with me, he tells me he sees stuff around like spirits or figurines which other people can not seem to see at times he closes his eyes and sees them and other times he doesn't have to. He believed we were similar and that we were, only difference is that I did not see them when my eyes were open. I did not let him know too much about my experience and how they made me feel because I did not trust anyone and I did not want any information to be weaponized against me, be it spiritually physically. For me, I did not if Yuno he was spiritually Godly or if he was like the demons, a lot of times I am told of familiar spirits who are familiar to a person and shammans communicate or hear from them some personal things that occur either spiritually or physically, what Yuno told me made me wonder which he was working with and again, Yuno was not someone I would think believed in the spiritual beings or those type of anomalies but he did and asked me if the atmosphere of my dreams and he was told about some dark dreams I had and the darkness in them. One thing I remember was most times the clouds were unusually dark and I was being chased by a Tiger. When he closely got it I wondered if God was going to use him to solve my issues but he said that was all he had known for that time. Hearing that took me aback on my way back home. I was unsure whether to confide in my Nana or just keep it to myself but I knew one thing I had to do was pray and hope for my prayers to be answered. I was honestly scared to fall asleep but it was not possible to avoid it, sleep is inevitable eventually it will come to me and I would fall victim to it. Facing my fears and tackling it is the only option for me at this point. I try not to think about them and distract myself before going to bed, but I can not help but feel them lurking in the shadows. One thing I found solace in was the fact that I did not see them and they did not slam me or harm me in and obvious manner, this is contrary and opposite to other people's situations that I read about online sadly some people had some horrific experiences that I would not even want to fathom. All these were my pill to swallow and my situation to deal with, I did wish I could confide in some people and some friends to get to the bottom of it and find a solution but the experiences were not the same, they were different the only thing they each had in common was the paralysis that they all happened with. Each time that it has occurred, it has occurred with paralysis but the demons had different faces hypothetically they have been experimenting with me, try different methods to see which was the most horrific for me and to me the most horrific was the one that felt so real I could not tell it from reality, that was the one that I felt its touch on my feet, feeling it also walk around me, then having a dream after that insinuating what that ugly menace sleep demon could look like it's not quite close to anything I have seen, I would liken it to a mad man enderman looking kind of figure, that is exactly what I could like it to. Sadly in the dream it took something of mine that was significant
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