4 Leaf Clover

Chapter 21 Recovery

Ember's POV

I feel myself coming back to consciousness slowly as my eyes flutter open but blinking multiple times to try to adjust to the bright lights around me.

Where am I? What going on? Why am I here? I flop my arms on my legs, sending a shooting pain through my body from the straight abrupt contact. This gains my full attention as I groan then lift the blanket to see my blood soaked bandaged up leg, causing concern in my mind.. Until the memories flood my mind automatically as if the dam in my mind just broke. "Ro." I say to myself wondering what's happening with him.. is he ok? Does he need me? Is he even alive?

I start to panic as I rip the IV's and monitors out and off of my arms, trying to stand up quickly groaning in pain from the pressure now being put on my leg since I'm standing.

"Ember no you have to rest." Enya and Margaret say to me at my side as they try to get me to sit down. "No Ronan.. I have to get to Ronan." I say to them as they keep teaming up against me trying to hold me back.. The drugs Starr to hit me slightly making me feel light headed at the sudden movement. So I don't fight back because I don't want to hurt them or myself.

I just push past them until I see a big frame stand before me.

"Ember you need to rest." I look up to see it's Brendan looking down at me and being the road block obstacle that's blocking my way out of the hospital room.

"I need to get to Ronan that's what I need to do." I say knowingly to him as he quickly flips me up and into his arms before he sets me back down on the bed behind me.

"Ronan is in emergency surgery it has been going on for a while now and hopefully will be out soon but we still don't know what's happening. There is nothing you can do right now but rest and they will update us on Da and Ro as soon as they can." Brendan says to me making me groan. reluctantly submitting as I nod at him. I guess there is nothing I can do right now.. No matter how stubborn i am I will just have to try to wait as patiently as possible.

"I'm so sorry about the King and Ronan.. I tried to get them out I'm so sorry I failed you all.. I tried doing the best that I could and I guess it just wasn't good enough." I say so sadly as I feel the tears building up in my eyes at that realization.. and partially the drugs in my system as well.

"You took on a room of men by yourself and saving the majority of us from any type of hurt.. you should be proud." Brendan says to me as I shake my head vigorously.

"There's a reason I left that side of me in the past.. that person is a horrible person.. I just thought I could avoid being her ever again by hiding her in the depths of the shadows.. but I guess no one can avoid the spot light that shined on me from my enemies. I hate that you all had to see that side of me.. right front and center.. or even that Ronan had to see that side of me.. he won't even want me after this if he survives.. who could want a person who is so damaged that they can cause that much damage to others around.. To kill is second nature to me and that's not right that I can cause that much blood shed in such a small span of time. I don't deserve Ronan anyways." I retort as I feel the silent tears leaving my eyes and pouring like a waterfall down my cheeks.

I feel a hand gently touch my arm gaining my attention and it's Ronan's mother.. I look away from her feeling ashamed to even be in her presence after all the damage I have caused her and her family.. especially after she was so kind and accepting of me last night.. but that was before she knew the monster I really was.

I feel her other hand gently touch my chin as she slowly lifts it up making sure I'm looking into her eyes.. the one place I am trying to avoid.

"Ember.. you look at me right now.." She demands from me in a tone that I'm not going to argue with. I reluctantly look up locking my gaze with hers.

"You're not a monster.. you have been trying to avoid your past, leaving it all behind like we have all done at some point.. yes yours is a little more tainted then ours, but doesn't make you not worthy. Whether you agree with it or not, you saved us from that man, and what could have been a horrible torture or death.. you took on more men then I ever thought was possible, astounding me completely.. showing me that size really doesn't matter when I always thought it did.. I know you never meant for my husband and son to get hurt and you had no control over that toxic vampire's actions. I also watched you try to prevent it but we have found out that you can't stop everything.. You should be happy though by the fact that you successfully stopped him.. that's all that should matter. I know that Ronan doesn't think any less of you so why should we.. but his opinion is all that really matters anyways right?" She explains to me as I reluctantly nod at her.

"I just want it to be known that Ronan loves the fact that you can fight and take care of yourself. Your first fight with Bullseye that we witnessed he thought was so sexy the whole time. So I'm sure he was just as mesmerized by your moves today..he has never once thought any less of you because of the person you are now or were in your past.Those situations made you into the person he loves. so don't think like that.. lots of words have come out of his mouth when talking about you but none of them consisted of hate or monster. Ronan knows you did the best that you could and it's not your fault so stop beating yourself up and try to stay positive.. Not just for yourself but for Ronan." Brendan says to me as I nod back at him but not saying a word in response, just soaking in all he had to say.

A nurse comes into the room gaining our full attention. She checks my vitals and rehooks me back up to the IV's and monitors but doesn't say too much more to us before she leaves again. In the next available moment we hear a knock on the door as Roary and Sean enter.

"Ember how are you?" They inquire as I just shrug my shoulders not answering them and looking away.

"She thinks this is her fault and is blaming herself for Da and Ro's injuries." Enya explains to them as they scoff. Roary is the one to talk first. "No way.. you were a complete badass saving us like that. I couldn't thank you more for risking your life for me or even us."

"I'm the reason your King and Ronan are in emergency surgeries fighting for their lives.. if my mate doesn't make it out, I won't ever forgive myself.. I wasn't quick enough to save them.. so there is nothing about this that I'm happy for." I say as we hear the door open once more and the woman looks like a doctor this time.

She turns and bows to the Queen and once she gives her a small bow back the doctor starts. "So both of the surgeries have been very touch and go.. it's been hours of this but both are done and once their wolves enhanced healing kicks in then I think everything is going to be fine. They are both stable and asleep and won't be up for a while. So just breathe and try to relax as much as you can.." She turns Way from the Queen who is nodding happily hugging her kids as she silently cries from relief.

The doctor looks straight at me so I know she isn't talking to anyone else. "and miss.. I'm sorry I don't know what your name is.. but I just wanted to say thank you for saving my son Sean. I'm forever greatful for you and couldn't thank you enough.. if you need anything then you need only ask.. thank you." She says to me shocking me completely.

"Please don't thank me for the chaos I've caused." I tell her looking away ashamed still. She shakes her head as she responds without hesitation. "You would have caused the chaos if you didn't save any of them.. but you took care of the chaos. As wolves we have seen a lot of blood shed and are not as shocked as you may think to see it.. but we saw the predicament he put you in and you solved it without a moment to lose and I couldn't be more greatful for you stepping up when we all know you're not a wolf, apart of our pack and had no obligation to do so. Please don't beat yourself up about this.. you did the right thing.. you took care of the threat to our families and our way of life because that was our Queen and King as well.. Get some rest miss.. with you being human this wound will take a while to heal but suprisingly to me I noticed your healing has increased and I think it's because of being marked.. so it might not take as long as we think." She says bowing to me and I don't know to adjust to that type of formality.

She wraps her arm around Sean's shoulder before pulling him in and kissing his temple. He looks embaressrd as he sheepishly says, "mama I'm fine.. thanks to Ember.. but I am fine." I smile at that as he hugs her back and sends her on her way out the door.

"I need to see my Ro." I say to them as they shake their heads. "You need to rest." Sean says to me as I shake my head retorting, "No I have a leg injury nothing more please stop babying me because I'm human. I'll be fine.. but I just can't help to need and crave to be by my mate's side. I need him right now please."

They look back and forth between each other as if they are having a conversation but no words have left their lips.. That is until the Queen huffs and in comes a nurse again. "Please get her set up to move to my son's room so she can still relax, but still be by him please." She Instructs as the nurse hops to it helping me gather my things as does everyone else taking me to the next floor up.

We enter his room and it's dark but I can smell his amazing woodsey scent that almost instantly starts to calm my senses. They get me set up as I take a chair and set it next to his bed. I carefully sit myself down trying to get comfortable because I know I'm going to be here for a while.

"OK the assistance button is right here.. let us know if you need anything." the nurse says to me as they all send a small smile my way before leaving us alone with nothing but the sounds of the beeps of the machines and monitors which are suprisingly comforting, because they tell me Ronan is fine.. so I'll just relish in that thought until I can talk to him again.

I take his hand into mine gently as if he is made of glass. I caress circles on the back of his hand and all over his strong arms that somehow seem to feel so weak in my hold.

"I'm so sorry my amazing mate Ro.. I told you this is what happens to people that come around me and I tried to warn you multiple times.. but you wouldn't listen to me just insisting on being with me.. giving me some of the best moments of my life.. ugh.. you didn't deserve any of this and I couldn't feel any worse than I do.. but the one good thing that has come from this is I took care of Archer, for not only us but to just stop the chaos he causes wherever he goes.. I ended this just like I wanted so hopefully we can just be together now.. I'm sorry for ruining your wedding day and if we ever get the chance to have one of our own I hope the same thing doesn't happen in ours.. I'm sure you probably can't even hear me but somehow this is actually making me feel better.. like it should even matter what I want.. all that should matter is you and your pack and I hope I can be apart of it some day.. but after today I think that's just some unrealistic wish.. but I guess a girl can dream. I'm so sorry Ro.. I really am." I spill every last bit of my feelings not knowing what else to do right now as I put my head into my hands cradling it gently just thinking about everything that happened today.

I don't know when they started to fall but my tears have started to shed once again as I quickly wipe them away.

"You should feel bad about ruining everything today.. and just saying, that's a stupid wish because who the hell would ever put a disgusting human like you as Queen especially after all the bloodshed you have caused sending not only our King but also our Prince and your mate to the hospital to fight for their lives." I hear from besides me, catching me completely off guard as I turn to see the woman he was suppose to marry still in her wedding dress that has some blood splatters on it and looking livid beyond belief at me. But honestly who could really blame her.

"Don't you make her feel bad for what YOUR father caused.. if he wouldn't have insisted on hiring Bullseye then none of this would have happened in the first place.. he is the one that invited him in and if anyone should be blamed for the repercussions it's HIM.. Ember defended us all and saved so many lives that he could have taken.. if anyone is being disgusting it's you in this sensitive situation." Enya says in the doorway, in my defense and I don't know who's side to take.. I understand why they both feel the way they do but no matter how you spin the situation I was still at the center if it.

"Uh.. is that how you talk to your future Queen?" The girl spitefully demands from Enya as she says, "No that's how I defend my future Queen and I promise if I have anything to say about it.. I will make sure it's not you.. Ember deserves that title more than you ever will.. Your daddy won't always be able to buy you what you want." She spats back at her with so much determination in her words making the other girl scoff and glare at me.

"We will see about that.." She retorts then quickly leaving the room.

"Don't let her get to you.. she is just a b***h, she has been since day one.. I hope you become Queen because if I have to deal with that b***h I will assassinate her myself." She says groaning as she brings a tray of food and drinks to me setting them at the table at my side before adding."You need to eat something Ember.. please.. I will be back in a little bit to check up on you but I was headed to visit my Da and wanted to bring you something.. eat please and I'll see you soon." She says giving me a side hug and leaving the room for me to be alone with my mate once more.

I do as she asked eating the food she has brought because I am hungry, but also because she just showed me a great respect right now defending me.. so I want to respect her actions. I eat the food pretty quickly as I set the tray to the side on the small table.

I take Ronan's hand into mine once again laying my head at his side and just enjoying the sounds of his heartbeat along with the machines together lulling me to a more relaxing sleep than before knowing he is ok and at my side just where I want him to be.