4 Leaf Clover

Chapter 22 Conscious Dream

Ronan's POV

It's complete darkness around me with no light in sight.. I don't know where I'm at but suprisingly enough I don't feel lost. I feel comfortable as if I know this place or have been here before, no matter how unfamiliar everything looks since I can't see much at all.. I keep looking around for any sign of light or any life at all.. nothing.. even with my nightvision being so amazing because of being part wolf I still can't make out anything in the darkness.

Cormac do you see or hear anything that could help get us out of here? Wherever here is?

I ask my wolf.. with a long silence following close behind my questions.. crazy thing I get no response what's so ever.. I don't even feel like he is there at all. I never NOT get a response.. even when he is mad at me. I can always tell he is mad at me but still there.. I can't feel him nor hear him.

Cormac are you ok man?

I ask just wanting some type of response but of course nothing back. This starts to really freak me out, making me panic because I don't know how to fix that.. it's been so long since I haven't had my wolf with me that it's honestly scaring the hell out of me.

Cormac? You're scaring the hell out of me.. talk to me man.

I beg for some type of response but nothing still. What do I do? I have never felt more alone than I do in this moment in time.. No matter how much I want to panic and completely freak out at this realization.. I can't seem to get myself to.. I feel completely at home for some odd reason.

Before I even know what's happening I can see something moving in the darkness that gets my heart racing.. because I can't tell what it is as it inches closer and closer to me.

I can see it closing the distance between us until complete and utter shock his me like a brick wall.. It's Cormac.. my wolf standing before me staring at me. I squat down in front of him, hesitantly reaching out until my hand makes contact with his fur reassuring me that I'm not just imagining s**t in my head no matter how crazy this all may seem.

How is this even possible to be separated from my wolf? We have always been one as long as we have known each other.. I don't understand how this is possible.. I feel like I'm going crazy right now.

I stare into his eyes for a moment and I can't help but continue to pet him. He puts his head under my chin and bumps it over and over again.. Since I obviously can't talk with him, this is hard to try to figure out what's going on.

He looks at me nudging my face, then hand with his face again, until he turns and starts to walk away.

I'm confused at this as I watch him walk, stop then turn and stare at me.. I think he wants me to follow him. So I stand up and slowly follow him mostly because I don't want to be left alone again in this darkness. Especially when I finally just found some life in it.. or I should say, it found me.

I follow his dark shadow matter through the darkness just wondering where he is leading me. I follow aimlessly just looking around but not too far because I don't want to lose Cormac when I only just found him. He is plain black so this is harder than you would think to not lose him. I keep following until I start to see a light before us.

The closer we get the bigger it gets. I don't know how far we have traveled but this is the first sign of anything besides darkness.. so I couldn't be happier to see something.

We keep walking towards the light and it fills up more and more of the surrounding area.. until I can see the rocks and mountain top I have known with Ember, surrounding me. It's the place we have gone to multiple times and I honestly can't feel anymore relieved to have something to see for one but also something I recognize that I feel comfortable and familure with.

Cormac leads me to the spot we have sat with our mate and plopping his butt down. I take his lead and just take a seat from the long trekk.

I find myself petting his fur trying to comfort my nerves since petting him seems to do that for me suprisongly enough.. I have never had the chance to pet him because I am him.. so this is a nice change of pace for sure. I never thought in my life I would ever be able to experience anything like this. This is all so mind blowing to say the least I just hope I'm ok.

"Oh honey you're fine.. just in a subconscious state." I hear from behind me making me flip around instantly. I see a stunning older woman who is the reimbodiment of stunning beauty.. One of the most beautiful women I have ever seen besides my Ember of course.. She had dark long black hair, stunning bright purple eyes, pale almost glowing skin along with white dress that flowing efforlessly with her curves.

I can feel Cormac stand up and walk to her side. She squats down and petting his body but mostly his face just staring into his eyes for a moment as she let's out a beautiful laugh and staring over at me.

"He is worried about you and him.. but I have reassured him your both fine." She responds to the confused look upon my face.

"I don't understand what's happening at all.. who are you?" I ask with so much confusion laced in every single word. She looks at Cormac and laughs at whatever he said to her I guess.

"Give him a chance Cormac he is not as quick as you are to the situation.. Doesn't mean he isn't smart." She says to my wolf as she stares back at me, with Cormac doing the same waiting for me to figure this all out.. She is talking to him just by staring.. so mindlink is being used.. she is almost glowing.. and everything in description that we have been told about the Moon Goddess.

"Moon Goddess?" I ask hesitantly as she turns back to Cormac and says, "See I told you he could figure it out pretty quickly.. that's why I paired you with him."

Without hesitation I bow to be respectful as I hear her laughing again. "Oh my child no need to be so formal.. we are in your consciousness after all." She says to me as I slowly lift my head.

"Why are we in my consciousness? Why are we here? Am I dying is that why your here?" I inquire so rapidly to her as she smiles and laughs once more.

"You're not dying.. you have been injured and are drugged so your wolf healing can take over and start getting you better.. but you did almost die from where the bullet hit.. but they can't lose you now.. So I made sure they didnt." She says crypticly to me.

"Who doesn't lose me?.. and why would you save me?" I ask in total shock now knowing I almost died.

"Oh honey I can't tell you the details of what's to happen.. but I can't tell you this.. You're very important to many many people.. you will have an incredible impact amongst your kingdom. I need you to pave the way to an unjudgemental life amongst the old fashioned wolves that surround you.. mostly your father.." She says suspiciously as I hold on to one thing she said out of everything.

"I won't have a kingdom because I won't marry anyone else but Ember.. So you already have that wrong." I tell her knowingly making sure she knows my boundaries.

She laughs at my comment as she stares at Cormac I guess talking to him again.. this is annoying not knowing what they are saying, when it's obviously about me.

"Oh Ronan you don't have to tell me I already know that.... Oh and Cormac give him time he will figure this out and if it takes longer than planned then you're here... that's why he has you.." She says to me then my wolf still petting him gently.

"I dont understand what's happening? What do you want from me Moon Goddess?" I ask abruptly just getting straight to the point.

"Oh honey I can't tell you that either.. But what I can tell you is that all things will work out the way they should.. in time.. but I need to make sure you take care of your family because it will be the first step to something amazing.. There always had to be the first person to break the normal standards just to create their own and you need to be that with your mate.. but soon enough your family will be in danger and I need you to do everything in your power to protect them.. no matter how hard or stressing that may be." She tries to explain without giving me too much to go off of.

"How am I suppose to take care of my family when my brother has left the pack and my sister wants to leave to find her mate and my father hates me right now.. I think the only one I could successfully take care of right now is my mother.." I try to explain to her that this is harder than she is expecting.

"No not that family.." She says shaking her head at me. I'm completely baffled at this point because that's my only family that I have I don't understand what she means.. maybe the kingdom..

"Not the Kingdom either.. I mean your family with your mate." She jumps straight to the part I'm trying to figure out.

"My mate is my everything, but we have only been together for a very short period of time we haven't had the chance to make a family.. yet.. but when we do I'll make sure to take good care of them." I say reasurringly to her as she laughs with Cormac again. Why do they just keep laughing at me?

"I'm sorry I don't mean to keep laughing at you but that's hilarious even Cormac is laughing right now.. sorry to break this to you because she doesn't even know yet.. but yes you have already started a family with your mate.. when you marked her in that beautiful moment just the two of you.. you created that life... so it's not just two anymore.. You're three." She states as if it's just obvious.

My mouth drops open as my heart races at that realization but it's not fear.. it's happiness.. feeling complete and just what I have been wanting. I wonder if it's true.. it has to be because she is the Moon Goddess right?

"Yes it's true my child.. but her life, their lives are in danger now more than ever." She says to me gaining all my attention.

"What do I need to do? I will do anything.. but I need to get out of my own head is that possible?" I rant to her as she smiles nodding her head at me.

"Yes that's possible but first I have to tell you.. you need to go to the forest beyond your pack lands to a cabin deep into the woods.. I know you have been warned of this place.." She says to me as I confirm what she is saying.

"Why would I need to go to see the fae? They cannot be trusted." I retort without hesitation as she let's out a deep breath.

"They have been known to trick or lie.. but SHE is a good fae.. a fae of the light.. you still need to be careful around her because the company she keeps isn't always the best.. but she is a good person and your mates only chance at survival." She explains to me as my eyebrows scrunch in confusion.

"Did Bullseye do something to my mate? Is he going to attack again?" I ask with panic in my voice.

"No.. Ember has taken care of that loose end herself.. so you don't have to deal with him anymore.. but he did start something that cannot be stopped.." She says vaguely to me. As I give her another confused look waiting for more of an explanation but nothing comes.

"This fae is the only way to help them?" I clarify as she nods at me before I add. "Ember killed Bullseye?" I ask as she nods at me as I can't help but feel a wave of relief hit my mind just knowing that realization.

"Yes you should be proud of your little mate she kicked ass.. and got rid of the biggest obstacle she had, keeping her from the happy life she deserves." She says to me as I nod then stop before asking. "But I thought you said something has been started that can't be stopped because she is in danger?"

"She got rid of HER biggest obstacle but YOU didn't get rid of yours.." She says to me as I nod in kind of understanding in what she is trying to say.

"Ok this is where I take my leave my child.. take care of your family and everything will work out as it should.. just relax at this place in time and you will wake up soon enough don't worry." She says softly to me as she stands and pats Cormac's head. She turns to leave as she stops and turns back around partially and commenting over her shoulder to me, "Oh and Ronan I know you may not understand this now.. but you have done all that you can do and sometimes all you can do after, is just wait and let time take it's course.. it's a hard fact of realization but it's something you will need to remember in those tough times you will face."

I step forward because I want to ask.. but I don't know if I should ask about the one thing weighing on my mind since I met Ember.

She turns around and says without hesitation. "A she wolf would not have been able to satisfy the urge that you have inside of you for something new and adventurous. Ember is the only human that I thought to be equally strong and amazing in her own way.. oh and her father was werewolf anyways.. she just gained her mother's human side of things but her father's healing and speed.. that strength you have seen time and time again.. is just her. Also she is the only woman I could come up with that could handle you and keep you in your place where you sometimes need to be..That's why I chose her for you.. besides I know you're greatful and you know I'm right about her, it's just others you will have to try to convince.. good luck." She says completely disappearing and taking the bright light she was illuminating in, with her.. like shutting off the light with the light switch.

I sit back down at the spot I have come to love that relaxes me on another level. I feel Cormac lay down at my side.

I lay back looking up at the dark sky speckled with twinkling stars in the cloudless sky. I find myself petting Cormac's fur while just trying I relax as much as I can before I wake up. But everything the Moon Goddess has told me is shocking in the least.. but makes me so happy.. I have a child with my mate.. she doesn't know yet but I do. I wonder if I should tell her or let her figure it out on her own.. I wonder what I will need to do to protect her.. them.. but I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will do anything and everything I can to protect them.

"Cormac can you believe how lucky we are? we have our mate, we have survived this bullet from the suprise attack and we are now dad's.. I don't think anything can bring me down after that news." I say to him knowing he can't respond back like he would like but he grunts and nudges my hand making me smile. I let out a deep breath just trying to relax thinking about everything we have come to find out. It scares me that there might be a possibility of this not being true, but it was just too vivid.. too real for it to not be real.. my dreams don't feel like this.. So I'm just going to accept the fact that I'm going to have to face something that maybe hard but so worth it if I get my mate and child in the end.

I lay under the stars just enjoying the view and silence around me. That is until I hear a voice in the distance. I sit up but I can't see anything. The voice gets more distinct.. that's the voice of my mate. "I'm so sorry my amazing mate Ro.. I told you this is what happens to people that come around me and I tried to warn you multiple times.. but you wouldn't listen to me just insisting on being with me.. giving me some of the best moments of my life.. ugh.. you didn't deserve any of this and I couldn't feel any worse than I do.. but the one good thing that has come from this is I took care of Archer, for not only us but to just stop the chaos he causes wherever he goes.. I ended this just like I wanted so hopefully we can just be together now.. I'm sorry for ruining your wedding day and if we ever get the chance to have one of our own I hope the same thing doesn't happen in ours.. I'm sure you probably can't even hear me but somehow this is actually making me feel better.. like it should even matter what I want.. all that should matter is you and your pack and I hope I can be apart of it some day.. but after today I think that's just some unrealistic wish.. but I guess a girl can dream. I'm so sorry Ro.. I really am."

I hear in a light tone fading away the farther through her explanation she gets.

"She wants to be apart of my pack and get married to me that's amazing.. I can't believe she is blaming me for what that psycho vampire ex if hers did. This isn't her fault I can't wait ri be the one to tell her.. I know I can't tell her anything right now but this may sound stupid but I think I can feel her. I feel my hand get warm and feel as if it's being held without anything in or on my hand. I think it's Ember or I should say I feel like it's Ember, in my body and I can feel the sparks run through my arm. If that realization isn't comforting knowing she is with me then I don't know what is.