4 Leaf Clover

Chapter 13 Biting That Bullet

Ember's POV

We lay for who knows how long on our mountain top.. It's been mine for a while now but he is the only person or I guess werewolf, I have ever shared this place with so I guess it's ours now. We lay in a very comfortable silence because of course Cormac can't talk to me but it's ok.. I don't need him to talk, he just curls his body around mine and I can't help but love his comforting furry embrace. His body is so huge that he completely surrounds me. So I just lay on him relaxing completely, running my hands through his amazingly soft dark furr. I can feel a purring around me and I think that means he likes my gentle touch.

It's been hours of this so it's half way into the night and I think I could fall asleep any second. That is until I see his ears perk up to alert and then his head looking around the area, accompanied by a low growl in his chest. I sit up looking around but see nothing. He stands, almost over me with how huge he is, still growling out into the dark night. His growl gets louder as I wait in anticipation of whats to come.

I see 3 wolves slowly approach us and bow in front of Cormac. He nods and sits besides me as they do the same. I can hear grunts and huffs between the 4 of them but of course can't understand what they are saying. One of the wolves drops a phone from his mouth onto the ground in front of us, as I hear Cormac huff again until he changes back into his handsome naked self.

Ronan grabs for the phone as the other 3 change back into their naked selves too. It's as you would suspect, it's Roary, Sean and Brendan. I look away to not stare at their huge junk and amazing bodies that I guess is a werewolf thing.

"Yaya called me and said she tried to distract him but that he is getting pissed at your absence now, even ma called me with concern. So I'm very sorry to disturb you both but you know this could be bad if you don't try to figure this out now Ro." Brendan says to Ronan with concern in his voice but I have no idea what they are talking about but what I can put together is that some guy is pissed, I'm assuming at Ronan.

"Ok thanks guys, thanks for that, I knew I was going to have to bite this bullet and tell him.

He takes the phone, dialing some number and putting the phone to his ear.

"He doesn't even have to say anything before I can hear yelling on the other end of the call. Whoever it is, is really livid by the sounds of it. "Yes sir I came here to find Brenden in hopes he would take the title back... Yes I know he already told me no because he found his mate..... I will take the title willingly no issue, just as you want but, being here finding Brendan I also found something of my own, I found my mate and I won't do this without her. So you take my with my mate or I'm leaving our pack to be with her.. your choice but I'm not doing anything without her..... No I haven't marked her yet... it doesn't matter what you say I'm not doing this without her. No if's, and's or but's about it... Why would you want to talk to her.. I don't trust you with her.. No I don't like that at all.." I walk up to him taking the phone out of his hand as his face goes to shock. I put my hand to his chest stopping him as I put the phone to my ear.

"Yes sir this is Ember, I'm Ronan's mate.." I say nervously to him. "Oh aren't you something else.. what are you?" He asks me as I don't exactly understand what he is asking, but I'll tell him what I think he needs to know.

"I'm an orphan human girl who has fought her whole life to get to where she is and would do anything to take care of my own and as of right now that's Ronan." I explain with so much confidence that I don't know where I got it.

"Well Ember, I just want to know what you know.. has he told you about himself?" He asks me as I swallow the lump in my throat and reply. "He has told me that he is a soon to be werewolf Alpha of his pack."

"Hmmm and nothing else about him.. did you know he is engaged to another shewolf?" He asks as my mouth drops open. "No he didn't tell me that.. thank you." I say and I feel my heart stop and my breath catch in my throat. I feel the one thing that I had for motivation crumble before me, as I just feel my eyes well up.. turning around and handing him the phone so I start walking away from all four of them.

"Ember? Da what did you say to her? Da? Ember wait." Ronan yells at me from behind as he catches up to me, but I just keep walking not looking at him. "Ember what's going on? What did he tell you?" He asks me as I just ignore him and keep walking. I feel his hand grab my arm turning me around and I can feel the silent tears falling. "What did he say to you Ember?"

I shove him away from me as I spat back. "So when were you planning on telling me your engaged? You cheated on her with me?! How could you Ro? I thought you were better than that!" I tell at him as his eyes go wide in shock.

"No its not like that Ember.. I don't even want her." He says to me and this pisses me off beyond belief.

"If you don't want her have the decency to leave her before you involve me into your lies. I can't believe you." I say to him as I turn and keep walking away.

"It's not like that Ember.. ugh can you please just listen to me?" He yells from behind me as I turn and look at him with my hands on my hips. "What could you tell me to make this any better? Was she your fiancé when you came here?" I ask him as he looks guilty and nods so I continue. "And you never once mentioned her with me did you? When you had plenty of opportunity right?" I ask as he nods at that as well. "You still slept with me knowing you had a fiancé at your home waiting for you.. that's cheating.. there is no other way to look at it I don't know what you could say that would change my mind. You're here talking about being with me because I'm your mate when you already have a mate at home waiting for you.. have a good life with your other mate. Just leave me out of this." I say to him as I turn and walk away.

"But I'm not going to just be Alpha but also King and my father was trying to marry me off to make our pack bigger that's all." He yells at me as I keep walking.

"You tell yourself all you want Ronan, you had a fiancé you didn't tell me about and became a cheater at mine and her expense.. I'm not ok being here right now. I have been cheated on I know how much it hurts especially from someone you think you can trust. This isn't ok Ronan you should have told me about her. I thought I could trust you but I guess not.. just leave me alone and go marry your fiance becoming king." I say to him as I turn and walk away. He grabs my arm again spinning me around as he wraps his arms around me and crashing his lips to mine igniting those all so amazing sparks between us taking my breath away. But I have to resist how good this feels. So I push back on him until we seperate as I slap him across the cheek.

"Don't you dare use me anymore. I'm not going to be the person you continue to cheat on that poor girl with. I don't care how you make me feel it's not right Ronan." I spat back at him in warning. He swallows big as I see his eyes water up just like mine. "I never wanted her, My da was forcing me to marry her since I couldn't find you.. but I found you and I was hoping he would let me cancel this marriage I never wanted and get the marriage I do want with you my one and only mate Ember." I feel the tears start to fall at that intoxicating thought. No one has wanted to commit to me like that ever. I don't know what to think I'm so confused right now.

"I will testify that I swear on my life that he never wanted that marriage and did everything he could to try to get it canceled. Before he even met you." Roary says to me as Brendan adds, "It's all my fault Ember, I was suppose to marry her but I left all my titles behind to find Nikki and now Ronan is being forced to marry her." He says in Ronan's defense. They are all nodding about the explanation to me.

"But every single one of you knew he had a fiancé and not one told me. I slept with him and I know all of you found out about that and you still didn't tell me.. It's not right for me to be lied to like this. Thank you all for your input.. I'm sorry you're being forced into this Ro but it doesn't cover up the fact that you lied to me about something as big as this. I just need sometime to figure out what I really want in life and obviously you need to do the same. Goodbye Ronan I hope you figure out what you really want because if I am it, I'm not going to be some side chick.. it's only me or nothing from me at all." I say turning on my heels as I continue my trekk back into town on my own crying silent tears and thinking about what I want in life.

I walk for a very long time because of how far out we actually are, but at least I'm alone the whole time giving myself some time to think.

"Man guys can really suck sometimes huh?" I hear from besides me and it's Archer looking better than ever.. as usual. "Archer you need to leave me alone.. I'm Ember now not Firecracker." I say rolling my eyes ar him as he hands me my knife that I stabbed him with earlier. "Thought you might want this back Ember.. and I just wanted to say I'm sorry for earlier." He says a little quietly as I swipe my knife from his hand, putting it back into my pocket.

"What's wrong with you? I have never heard you apologize ever.. to anyone.. What's the catch? Are you going to kill me and just trying to trick me into it? Because right now I could care less if you killed me." I spat back at him as I continue my walking but so does he right besides me.

"I just missed you My Fire.. I mean Ember.. I just went crazy and I shouldn't have done that I just want you back in my life and if you don't want to fight for me anymore that's ok.. but I just can't do this without you and you know it but I would understand." He says to me as I laugh at him and say, "I know you can't do it without me.. doesn't mean I want to do it."

"Come on Ember, it's not like I'm lying to you, you have known who I am since day one, I just lied to you about that one girl and I payed dearly for it 4 times already." He says to me as if he is begging and that's not right he doesn't do that. I don't know what he is playing at right now but I don't trust it one bit.

He never stops thinking about what he wants and needs and there is no way in hell he is doing it right now. I watch him step in front of me trying to block me as I quickly turn slightly but he stays in front of me then steps closer to me and I step back as he steps forward, closer again to me. I step out and around him as he trails behind.

"That guy was lying and cheating on both of you girls. He doesn't appriciate you like you deserve to be appreciated my little fire. I appriciate you and the person you are deep inside." He says as he circles me and stopping right in front of me, gently touching my jawline with the tip of his finger.

"It's Ember.. But what I did or do with my personal life in none of your business anymore and I know I don't deserve that hence why I left the situation.. don't act like you're telling me something I didn't already know." I spat at him as I hit his hand away from my chin, then push past him.

"God I love that fire that's just naturally within you.. Are you really going to make me beg for you Ember?" He says from right behind me and almost in my ear I never knew he stayed that close especially since I'm still walking. "I'm not making you do anything Archer.. You're doing it all on your own free will." I say back to him.

"Come on Ember." He says circling around in front of me again with his hands up in surrender, trying to get me to stop so I finally do. I cross my arms across my chest looking up at him as I tap my foot telling him I'm impatient with this already.

"Ok I don't just want you, I need you in my life Ember.. there is no way I can run this business without you, I need you by my side to be my queen. Please just be with me again, I need the one person who always keeps me on my toes and will always challenge me when I need to be challenged. I need you, you're the only person who can do this with me." He says to me as I shake my head, "See that whole explanation was just about what you want and need Archer and had nothing to do with what I wanted." I say pushing past him until he grabs my waist pulling me back into him then pressing his lips to mine and yes he is a great kisser but I don't feel anything between us at all.. not like I do with Ronan.

What Ronan and I really have is electric and obviously nothing can compare, no matter who it is because I still have feelings for Archer no matter how bad of a person he is, he was with me the longest through so many hard times that those feelings won't ever fully go away... because no matter how many bad toxic times there was.. there was also a lot of good with him as crazy as that may sound.

I put my hands to his chest pushing myself away from him as I quickly slap his cheek. "You can't just grab me and kissing me.. There you go again just getting what only you want and not caring about what I want." I say to him as he smirks a malicious smirk at me. "How could you not want that, I know every little spot on your body to make you scream my name and you're saying you don't want that? Is it because of that damn pup?" He spitefully asks me as I roll my eyes and say, "Of course it's because of him Archer.. Ronan is my mate.. I didn't feel anything with you when you kissed me just now but with Ronan I feel every little spark between us.. I'm not going to lie to you Archer, I want him and only him and since I can't have that.. I would just rather be alone." I explain to him as nicely as possible.

I watch his jaw clench as be spats back at me. "This isn't over. You're mine I can do what I want. I was trying to give you the chance to make that decision for yourself so it wouldn't be forced but if I have to force it I will. You can't resist becoming Firecracker again I guarantee it. That fire still burns within you and it will never go away."

"This is over, I'm not yours and I won't tell you that again! That fire is dead!" I yell at him as we hear growling besides us. We both quickly look to the side to see the 4 wolves at my side. I groan and roll my eyes. "Were you guys following me? Even listening to our personal conversation?" I ask putting my hands on my hips glaring at Cormac.

He has a guilty look on his face as he nods. Archer scoffs at him making fun so I put my hands up at both the guys as they are now snarling at each other. "Ok We are not going to have another brawl here.. Archer I'm not yours and I won't be.. you and I both know there is no way you're forcing me into anything so don't even try and you can do everything I did for you on your own you need to take care of yourself for once.. and Ronan, Cormac you need to figure out what you're going to do plus what you really want and maybe I'll be around when you do that. but for now I just want to be left alone. Please respect that." I say to them as I turn around and walk away.

"This isn't over Fire." He says to me as I turn back around and flip him off then keep walking backwards. I hear a frustrated grunt from Archer as I watch him practically dissappear in front of my eyes and zip past me as just a shadow. I see Cormac looking so sad as he hangs his head low until the other wolves come up and nudge him away.

I turn back around and keep walking all the way back to my work, grabbing my motorcycle then driving back to my place by myself. I lay down on my bed as the tears still continue to fall. Why when I think I finally find something good in my life does something have to go wrong with it? I just don't understand why I can't just have something good with no bad strings attached to some kind of happiness trap.