4 Leaf Clover

Chapter 10 Unwanted News

Ember's POV

After a very relaxing time of just hanging out and casually talking with Ronan all night at my spot on the small mountain top.. we found out we have way more in common than I ever thought we would and I feel like I could just talk to him forever. He seems so easy to talk to about anything and everything and makes me feel so comfortable just being around him.

I just wish I could be like this with him until the day I die because I would die a very happy woman that way. I have never had this type of relationship with a man, my past relationships were all about s*x or killing and that's it nothing inbetween except for my ex Archer he is known as the Bullseye by anyone in this killing, hunter, gangster business..

But Archer was the only one I thought I had more of a connection with and I talked with him about everything from my childhood to killing and everything in between but he threw that back in my face when I found out he was cheating on me every single time he sent me out for a mission..

I got one mission done way earlier than he expected I guess because I came back to our room to find him f*#king another girl.. that's when I said I was done being his weapon of choice and I wouldn't ever let a man use me again the way he did because I can do this on my own.

So I turned him in to the police with literally stacks of information on him so there is no way he can weasel his way out of this because there are a million accounts against him with the evidence to help. But he has escaped multiple times because of his dedicated followers, then finding me.. So I had to turn him back in to be arrested again and again because I just couldn't get myself to kill him.. I do love him still and I couldn't just kill him.

Archer was there for me for some really hard times, he picked me up off the streets at a young age doing whatever I could to get money and food. He took care of me and taught me how to take care of myself and I really depended on him for a very long time.. he was my everything.

My first love, my first time for everything from s*x to killing.. and I can't forgive him but I also can't get rid of him.. it's a hard situation.. It's like we can't be together but we are still drawn to each other like a moth to a flame.. that being to close is going to get us killed and I'm damned and determined to be done with that life..

But I do feel deep in my heart that for the first time in my life I might actually be able to be happy with Ronan even if it's just for a little bit.. because the couple of days I have spent with him have given me feelings for a man I have never felt before and if I had to pick one man to be with forever it would be him.

He makes me feel amazing, complete, not afraid just genuinely happy, it's so strange to me.. So I did something I never normally do..I invited him back to my place which I have never done before with any man.. we normally do anything at their place so I can't ditch them when they aren't expecting it.. but I wanted to stay with him and just be with him in more ways then just sex..

Don't get me wrong the s*x is amazing but I feel a deeper connection than just s*x with him.. I feel this connection deep in the depths of my heart and I never even knew these feelings even existed let alone feeling them ever.. So this is a step out if my boundaries and I warned him that even with it being my day off tomorrow I will have to get up and help a little around the farm. He said he didn't mind one bit so I'll have to hold him to that if anything.

When we get back to my place we fill the rest of the night with incredible heated s*x, moans and groans of pleasure.. I couldn't be more relaxed as I just pass out in his arms once more, getting the best sleep of my life.

I love how he makes me feel and I wish I could just hold on to him and these feelings forever but I don't think I can.

Banging on my door is all I hear to wake me up. I groan as I reluctantly peel myself away from Ronan's sexy body, slowly getting up out of bed and slipping Ronan's shirt on over my naked body to answer the door.

I open the door to see a concerned looking Sharen at the door. "Hey sharen what's going on?" I ask in a groggy tone still trying to slowly wake up on my own as I rub my eyes and yawning.

"Um I was worried about you Ember.. Peter called me and said he has been trying to get hold if you all morning and you haven't picked up the phone." She explains to me as I ask. "Good or bad call?" she shrugs and states, "I have no idea he just told me to have you call him now.. I was worried something must have happened to you...." She says staring into my place, to see a half way awake, practically naked Ronan with just the blanket over his lower half.

"Well it looks like I was partially right and something happened to you but it looks very very good.. good for you Ember.. just call Peter he sounded very concerned." She explains smirking at me as I smile and reply. "Ok Sharen thank you." Shutting the door as I look around trying to find my phone.

"Who is Peter?" I hear from Ronan. "Oh gosh don't start getting suspicious on me at all Ro, you're the only man I have brought back home be happy with that.. but.. um.. Peter is the lead officer of my.. past dealing with my ex." I say vaguely still looking around for my phone. It must have got thrown in the heat of the moment last night with the invigorating fun we had. I hear vibrating under my bed as I bend down and see my phone lighting up and vibrating as it moves across the wooden floor under my bed.

I reach out and grab it to see Peter's name lit up across my phone screen. I answer the call asking, "Peter? What's going on? I'm sorry I was distracted and.." I say as he interrupts saying, "Yes distracted with the same guy as yesterday and the day before. Oh I know."

"Of course you would know I'm here with him.. His name is Ronan but I'm sure you already know that too huh? Do you have to watch every single move I make?" I ask sarcastically as he retorts. "Yea of course."

I groan as I run my hand through my hair before asking, "ugh.. why would I ever expect anything less of you Peter.. so now why have you been calling non stop?" He groans louder than myself really gaining my attention.

"You're going to be mad.." He says as he pauses and I look over at Ronan who has a look of curiosity on his face. "Why what happened?" I let out a deep breathe then ask reluctantly.

"He got out." Is all he needs to say to suck the oxygen right out of my lungs. "What?!" I yell as I run my hand through my hair before adding. "How?! You guys have 6 cars on him in the front and back you doubled up your guards inside! You said you wouldn't stop in the tunnels like I warned! So what the f*#k happened?! You should have just let me take care of it and this would be taken care of! Peter F*#K!" I yell as I start pacing around the room. What in the living hell, am I going to do now? I'm going to have to leave.. what if he finds me?

"He bought some guys off and they helped him escape in transition." He says sounding so guilty. I groan, "Would any of these guys that he paid off know my location or have access to the paperwork with my information on it for him?" I ask him as he doesn't answer.

"Peter you better answer me right now!" I demand from him as he groans then answering me, "We got rid of their information from the system very quickly so they can't access it now without alarming the system.. but there is no way to determine if he got access to your information before this.. but he can't access it now."

"So what are you telling me Peter? Are you going to make up some bullshit lie about how you did all that you could when you could have let me just take care of this myself?!" I yell as he says "No Ember if you step foot in this state.." He says as I interrupt and finish for him. "I know if I step foot in that state you're kicking me right back out. I know Peter."

"I'm so sorry Ember.. keep your guard up, pack everything and we will send you to another place far away from there." He Instructs.

"You're f*#king kidding me right?! There is no way in hell that I'm trusting you guys again! This had happened 4 times now.. 4! No I can take care of myself way better than you guys obviously can.. just leave me the f*#k alone and I mean that Peter.. no more spies no more anything. I'm done with you guys. I'm done putting my life in the hands of others when obviously I could do a better job.. You f*#ked up Peter." I lecture him as I feel the tears building up in my eyes as I gasp for air trying to figure out what I'm going to do now.

My hand goes to my forehead as I continue to pace not knowing what I'm going to do now.

"I won't promise that Ember but you need to leave there.. there is no way for us to determine if he has your location or not.. You're not safe there. You know he will come for you." Peter says sounding very concerned for my well being.

"Don't you think I know that?! Don't worry about me I'll be fine.. you worry about yourself and stay away from me." I spat back at him.

"Take care of yourself Ember. I'm so sorry." He says so sadly to me. I let out a deep breathe as I say. "I know you are, but your sorrys don't help me now.. you take care of yourself too." I hang up the call.

I had to say that all in front of Ronan.. how am I going to explain or not explain this? I sit down on the bed just not even wanting to look at Ronan so I won't have to try to figure out how I'm going to explain this. I don't want to tell him who I am.. everyone knows who I am once they hear my nickname and I don't want him to know the awful monster that I truly am.

I feel hands on my shoulders massaging them, trying to help me relax. "Is there anything I can help you with?" He asks in his husky soothing voice.

"No.. um.. everything's fine.. I'll be fine." I say to him as he continues to massage my shoulders relaxing me as my eyes closed just trying to soak this in as much as I can right now because I won't have this for much longer.

I can feel his breath lightly fanning my neck as he says in a whisper into my ear. "What do you need? You're not fine and I'm not an i***t Ember.. what do you need? I can help however you need me to."

I shake my head. "No one can help me except myself.. I think I need to finally take this situation into my own hands and end this once and for all." I say to him as he replies. "You're not alone, I can help more than you would think."

I shake my head again. "No way am I endangering your life for mine.. no way in hell. You can't stop him Ronan I think I'm the only one who can.. if I can." I say to him as I stand but he quickly stands with me.

"What are you going to do?" He asks me as I take off his shirt to get dressed. "What I need to do.. but I have some time so I'm going to try to mentally prepare, make some extra cash at work tonight and figure it out from there." I say to him.

"Can you just tell me please?" He begs as I turn around shaking my head at him. I step closer until there is no space between us with my naked body pressed to his. "I can't.. I don't want you to know." I tell him honestly. "Why?" He asks with so much sadness in his eyes. " Because I love this.. what we have I love it.. and I don't want you to hate me, or this to end" I say so honestly to him. He scoffs at my response as he replies. "I could never hate you."

I shake my head again as I say just as sadly, "You would never look at me the same, probably hate me and definitely not want to be with me anymore and I just want this as long as I can have it because honestly I don't think it's going to be much longer."

"It would take an army to seperate us." He says to me as he feathers kisses down my neck then adds, "But if you want to just enjoy this moment then let's enjoy what we have and we can figure out everything else after.. because I swear I'm not going anywhere." He is so sweetly but he doesn't know who I am and I'm sure he would leave me a second after finding out. Because how could a great sweet guy like him ever want to stay with a monster like myself... he wouldn't.

He leans in kissing me with so much passion that it consumes me instantly. He playfully pushes me to the bed as I smile up at him bouncing on the bed. He hops onto the bed with me, hovering over the top me as he starts to kiss the curve of my neck again making me moan lightly into his ear.

"You know I wasn't just meaning the s*x when I said I wanted to just enjoy this time with you." I say to him breathlessly loving his every touch.

He chuckles at my statement as he replies, "Oh I know, I just wanted to help you take your mind off of things even if it was just for a moment." I smile and nod but stopping him for a moment. I slide my fingers through his beard as I say softly. "Thank you.. for everything.. I know it's only been a couple of days but it feels like so much more and I just have to tell you thank you.. You're amazing and the way you make me feel inside is even better, intoxicating really.. I just wish this could last forever." I say as I swallow the lump in my throat as I feel my eyes watering up.

"You tell me what's going on Ember and I'll take care of it for you.. money, protection, moving, whatever it is.. I will help you." He says with a determination as I gasp feeling my eyes water up more.

"I wish I could, I can't keep running from this and I just don't want you to know who I was.. I'm not that person anymore or I'm at least trying so hard not to be.. but I don't want to lose you and I know if I involve you with this you will leave me in a split second.. and more importantly this isn't your fight.. it's mine." I say softly to him as he leans into my touch.

His hand lands right on top of mine that's on his cheek. He holds my hand there as he turns his face and kisses the inside of my hand gently. "Any fight of yours is a fight of mine. I'm NOT going anywhere no matter what. Mark my words." He says to me and that just makes me smile.

"You're stupid if you really mean that." I say to him as he jokes around saying back. "Stupid is as stupid does." this makes me laugh as we continue our fun in the bed that then leads to more fun in the shower and God I'm stuck to him like glue at this point and it would take some real peeling to get me off of this man. I love this and us together, that I don't know what I'm going to do without it since I finally got a taste of the good life of being cared for.