Unspoken Word Poetry

My Childhood Past and Teenage Present ( You Only Live Once ) Teachers , fellow classmates and friends, good day ! First I want to open up about my childhood past and My teenage present. I, students , friend, enemy , human-being, classmates and a daughter , younger sister to be exact. When I was a child , I used to wear a men's shirt. I'm girl that act like a boy because of my actions and the way how I wear a shirt. You can see it personal and it should be an evidence. But one thing I assure you I'm a boyish. In my childhood days is not easy, and I know everyone does. Everyone felt the sadness, happiness, love, sorrow, pain , contentment, laughter, dissapointment, mistake, hopeless, judgment, guilty, anger, alone , freedom , depress , hate , pretend , coward , alone and selfish. And everyone encounter the problems, challenges and struggle in life. I do believe that there's no happiness without sorrow. Happiness is all we want in life, but we can't avoid the problems came in to our life. I'm a mama's girl , all I want is her attention. When I was grade 6 , my mother need to leave to find a job. When she left that day I never cried nor fell sadness , I stay calm. And I grow up fastly, I'm grade 9 to start for rebellion , I smoke, dunk and I involved in fraternity. Grade 10 that I encountered and experience a worse memories of mine. I was fall in love with someone taking care of me , respect me and loved me. The old Cinderella is mischievous , hyper and brave but everyrhing was change into lonely, emotionless, full of sadness and hatred. My emotions ate me to become a cold one. I rebel again for a second time, I start to hate my mother and I get angry to her because she left me for second time. I can't control my emotions anymore to the point I'm depress because of what I'm thinking every night. Everyday, I wish that my mother is here my side, cause I can't ope up my problem to my father. My father and I wasn't close that like the others. I get in trouble I even lost my appetite to eat everyday , instead of eating I choose to drinking softdrinks everyday without eating. The time had passed , in 1 year I became sick and depress. I always hide my problems by my father. When I get sick my father doesn't know about my situation. When I'm infronf of him I always pretend that I'm okay and act like nothing happens even though I'm suffering in pain. I know that my father wasn't blind to notice that I'm pale. They don't know how I'm suffering inside , it's killing me slowly. I suffered for long time , they doesn't know that I was in pain, sick, lonely and depress. But I choose to hide from them not to worried about me. I blame my father too because he act like a blind even though He is not. The other people notice that I'm pale and weak but my father couldn't. I had a temporary asthma, nervous, pasma, ulcer and anemic. I'm not just coward to tell them but I choose to keep silent and pretend because I don't want my parents worried about me. I'm being thirsty to have my mother's attention for me. Everybody makes mistakes in this world; it is fact of life. Somewhere along the line, everybodyis going to make a bad decision or do something knew they should not have. Some people make the some mistakes two or three times before they learn. But people can often learn more from those mistakes better than they can from success. I believe mistakes allow you to learn something from a situation and move on posituvely; and possibly make you a better person. You only live once, but if you do it right once is enough. Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish. Life is like a game you need to win for the game you've encountered. In life we all feel the happiness , we're happy for being satisfied for what we have. Sometimes we feel sadness because we're alone. Happiness ? Cry, forgive, Learn and move on. Let your tears water of your future happiness. Being coward is just a normal. It's okay to be coward. But never store the negative energy and emotion such as fear, anger within you. Always speak up. Pain ? Let the pain heal easily. Every pain that you had encounter in your life shaped you into the person who you are today. Be thankful for the hard times they can only make you stronger. Laughter , the people truly worthy to be in your life are the ones help you through hard times, and laugh with you after the hard time pass. Disappointment. Don't expect too much it can make you disappoint. Learn to stand without balancer. Hopeless. Always remember that your present situation is not your final destination. The best is yet to come , so don't be hopeless. Alone. Just learn to be alone even your shadow can leave you when you're in the darkness. Don't depend too much. Depression. People suffer from depression for many reason. They become depressed when all they do seems to become a failure. Suffer. Suffering from the pain in physical and emotional is not easy to fight with. Just always think positive and you can surpass everything. Life is not always going to be easy and there will be days when you feel like giving up but just keep your head up. Remember that tomorrow is another day and it can always get better. I suffered for a long time, I'm being hopeless but I know my braveness is enough to face those challenges I encountered in my life. My worse memories happen in my past life is my motivation to survived. Life is full of troubles, it's not gonna be so easy to fight but it's your life and you have to take the responsibility to fight for it. If I give up that time , do you think I can stand infront of you ? Do you thing I can be your classmates, friend and enemy? Many worse happen in my life I became hopeless but I never give up. Because I do love my family. Always remember that One bad chapter doesn't mean your story is over. People make mistakes, gain experience and learned from them and it all counts as part of life lesson. Everything happens for a reason. Experience is the best teacher, and the worse experience teach best lesson.