The Nerd and I [Book One]

Chapter Nineteen

[Earl]

♪ Come up to meet you

Tell you I’m sorry

You don’t know how lovely you are

I had to find you

Tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart ♪

I opened my eyes and saw the sunlight from the nearby window. I slowly got up and rubbed my puffy eyes. I blushed when I remembered what we did last night. We finally did it and it wasn’t a dream. I know it wasn’t. I can still feel his lips, his touches, his everything.

God, am I becoming a pervert now?

I stood up and hissed when my asshole throbbed. Geez, I guess having s*x with the same gender wasn’t that good in the morning but it’s definitely worth it.

♪ Tell me your secrets

And ask me your questions

Oh let’s go back to the start

Running in circles; coming up tails

Heads on a silence apart ♪

I looked beside the bed and saw no Matthias. I smiled when I thought that maybe he already woke up and decided to eat breakfast.

I walked over to the corridor and noticed that it was quiet. Did he go somewhere?

As I neared the living room, I paled when I saw the things he have were all gone.

Don’t tell me…

Please don’t.

I quickly ran back to the room and opened his wardrobe. I dropped to the floor when I saw that it was empty.

No. This can’t be happening.

Why would he do this?

Why?

Why?

♪ Nobody said it was easy

It’s such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start ♪

I stumbled towards my bag and frantically searched for my phone. My hands were shaking when I couldn’t find it. I threw my things on the floor. Wallet, some coins, candy wrappers, the silver pocket watch he gave me but no cell phone.

Did I leave it somewhere? I searched the whole room, the kitchen, the living room and even the bathroom.

No.

No.

My hands keep shaking and my whole body kept on shivering.

I gasped when I heard the ringtone of my phone from the kitchen. I ran towards it and noticed that the sound was coming from underneath the table. I looked up and saw my BlackBerry taped under the table. What the – ?

I grabbed it and quickly read the message.

Everything was a mistake.

My hands dropped the phone and I found myself staring at the floor.

♪ I was just guessing at numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apartQuestions of science; science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart ♪

He left me – again.

Matthias.

I thought everything was finally okay.

How could you do this?

“Tell me you love meCome back and haunt meOh and I rush to the startRunning in circles, chasing our tailsComing back as we are”

I opened the door of the house and saw Elizabeth walking back and forth. She gasped when she saw me and ran towards me.

“Earl! Where the hell did you went off?!” She yelled but I can’t really hear her anymore.

My heart hurts so bad.

I can feel that stabbing pain and I want it to stop.

Elizabeth caressed my hair and tilted my chin up. I stared at her. “What happened dear? Tell me. You look like – ”

I held her arms for support. “He left me.”

Elizabeth blinked. “Huh? Who? Tell me, Earl.”

“He said everything is a mistake.” I lowered my head and bit my lips.

Mistake?

How could it be?

It was perfect.

Everything was already perfect.

Elizabeth tilted her head and gasp. “H-he?”

I knew it was too good to be true.

Being found by my real dad, being taken care of Elizabeth, having a family.

It’s all too good to be true.

And somehow, deep inside my heart, I knew that something like this would happen.

I hate him.

I hate him for doing this to me.

Just leaving me like that for the second time.

I was the only one in love.

He played with me.

♪ Nobody said it was easy

Oh it’s such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard

I’m going back to the start ♪

He never truly cares.

It’s all for his selfish whims.

And I was a part of his game.

After all, a jerk like Matthias will always be a jerk.

And a nerd like me doesn’t even stand a chance.

I looked at Elizabeth.

“I need your help, mum.”

Elizabeth blushed and nodded her head. “What is it, dear? Tell me.”

I have to forget him.

I have to forget him.

I have to forget him.

I have to forget him.

I have to forget him.

“I’m going back to the start.”

THE END of Book One