The Nerd and I [Book One]

Chapter Eighteen

[Earl]

He opened the door of the apartment and I looked around. It was simple and modern but not what I expected for Matthias.

So he’s still not leaving for Italy. Then, all of that was a lie. But why did he do that?

Does he want to break up with me that bad that he lied about leaving?

The sudden thought made me sullen.

Matthias threw they keys on the desk near the door and stared at me.

“Why’re you here?” He asked.

“Because I want to see you.” I answered truthfully. He sighed and ran his hands through his messy hair.

“f**k. This is so f*****g wrong.” He mumbled.

I bit my lips. “Matthias I – ”

“Shut up.” He cut me off. “Don’t you f*****g talk.”

I glared at him. “All I wanna know is why you did that. I just want answers Matthias. Don’t leave me in the dark just like that!”

Matthias returned my glare but it was scarier than mine. “Y-you don’t know how much I – ”

I silently gasped when he stepped towards me making me walk backwards. I stopped when my back finally hit the wall.

He leaned closer to my ear and whispered. “You know why I left you?” I moaned when he kissed my ear. I heard him smirk. “Because you’re gonna die if you’re with me.”

I shuddered at what he said. He pulled away and looked straight into my eyes. “Back at the school where I killed those motherfucking assassins they sent, I actually realized how dangerous my life is.” He put both his arms at the side of my head, trapping me helplessly. “I can’t bring you down with the life I have, Earl.”

He closed the gap between our heads and rested his forehead on mine. “I can’t do that.”

“Matthias.” I called out but he shook his head.

“Don’t call my name like that.”

“Please, listen to me.” I touched his face. “Matthias, I don’t want you to leave me.”

“I have to.” He mumbled and I shook my head again to disagree.

“No, no you can’t. I don’t care if I’m in danger, as long as you stay with me.”

He suddenly growled and glared at me. “Don’t you understand?! I kill people! I murder them, I – I f*****g end their lives! People pay me to kill others! I’m nothing but a killer, Earl! And you can’t live with someone like that! Because you’re – you’re not like me. You don’t live the life I have. I won’t let you.”

I was astonished by what he was saying. Was he the same Matthias I knew? The same Matthias with a rude mouth and cocky attitude?

“I have to disappear in your life.” He said and pulled away from me. “This is the last time we’ll see each other again.”

No.

“Go home, Earl.”

No.

“Now.”

“NO!” I screamed in his face. “Don’t you get it, Matthias?! I’m already in your world! After all those times we spent, you became a part of my life! And whatever you do, you can’t erase that.”

I held his hand and kissed it. “Because I love you Matthias. I love you so much. I can’t let you go.”

Matthias stared at me with wide eyes.

“You don’t know what you’re saying.”

“Oh yes I know. I know pretty well.”

“I’m giving your another chance to leave me. Walk away from this room and forget about me.”

“I won’t take that chance.”

“I’m warning you.”

“I’m telling you I’m not walking out of here – ”

In a blink of an eye, he suddenly grabbed me in the shirt and shoved me on the sofa.

“You made your choice.” He taunted and kissed me on the lips. I wanted to answer back but his tongue won’t let me.

We kissed for a while, our tongues lashing at each other with hunger. I moaned around his lips. It feels so perfect. It’s like we were meant to be and I definitely don’t want to end this relationship.

Not now, not ever.

He started to pull my shirt off and I let him. He threw it on the floor and eyed me with those dark shades of his. I felt hot under his gaze.

“f**k I need to stop.” He said as he leaned towards me to kiss my neck. He sucked, bit and licked making me cry in pleasure.

“Don’t stop.” I whispered and he groaned after hearing what I said. His hands fumbled down to my waistband and undo the zipper. We struggled to get it off as he threw it ferociously on the floor before looming all over me again.

“I need to stop.” He repeated and I shook my head.

I caressed his cheeks down to his lips and he kissed my hand. “No you don’t.”

Matthias sucked my n****e and left trails of kisses all over my chest. “I should really stop.”

I moaned and looked down at him to watch him devour my n*****s. “D-don’t.”

He was about to undo his pants when we suddenly fell down on the floor.

I winced when I hit the foot of the table next to the sofa. “Ouch.”

Matthias smiled and kissed me again. He sat up and so did I. We stared for a few minutes before he lowered his head.

“Matthias.” I crawled towards him and hugged him. “I love you, so much.”

“I don’t deserve you.”

I can smell the faint scent of cigarette, his branded cologne and his sweat all combined together. It’s wonderful – electrifying almost.

“You do.” I looked at him and rested my forehead with his. “I love you, Matthias.”

He closed his eyes and shook his head. “I want you, Earl.”

“I want you too.”

He looked up and kissed me on the lips. He wrapped both his arms around my waist, stood up and carried me towards the room. He kicked the door open as he continued to kiss me. Our tongues danced together and the only things I can hear were the moans and groans were emitting. Matthias finally found the bed and threw me on top of it. I watched him take off his shirt and I marvelled at the sight of his chest.

I was about to get up but was stopped when he pushed me back on the bed. He bit my collarbone and it sent sparks all over my body. He moved down and kissed both my n*****s before sucking it. My hands were shaking so much – from the pleasure, intensity, everything.

Matthias smiled and continued moving down and down until he reached my crotch. He pulled off the remaining pieces of my clothes and hastily chucked it over the bed. I blushed realizing that I am now fully exposed over this man that I loved so much.

I gasped when I felt his lips kissing the head of my member. I threw my head back and basked over the pleasure he was giving me by just kissing and sucking the rigid head. My toes were curling, my skin crawling and it feels so excruciating.

“Stop…teasing me.” I breathed out and I heard him smirk.

“I love teasing you.” He mumbled around my member. I readied myself from another teasing but gasped when he suddenly sucked me whole, engulfing me inside his wet cavern.

“W-wait, oh n-no…” I shuddered and moaned out loud when he sucked me hard. “Matthias…I can’t – ”

I shut my eyes and arched my back as I screamed when I finally let go. “Aaagh!!”

I panted and watched Matthias wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. He smirked and I twitched when he gently pinched the still sensitive head of my member.

“You like that?” He asked and I cried when he rubbed his finger over the slit.

“M-matthias…!” I bit my lips when he continued to play his fingers around my member. He stroke it slowly then he’ll fasten his pace and when I felt I was about to come again, he’ll slow down his hand making me groan at the sudden loss of sensation.

“Your body is so lewd, you know that?” He whispered with his deep voice as he crawled up and kissed me on the lips making me taste my own essence. I sloppily kissed him and ran my hands all over his back, his muscles rippling against my touch.

The heat of his body intoxicated me, making me want for more.

“I want more, Matthias.” I kissed his ears and he smiled against me.

He sent kisses over my neck. “What do you want me to do?” He murmured and I can’t help but to be aroused even more at the sound of his voice.

“Do it.” I answered back. He smiled and shook his head.

“Tell me what you want, my Earl.” He said teasingly and I whined when I heard him call me like that. So possessive and I can’t wish for more.

“You know…what I want.” I muttered to answer but he smirked again.

He lifted my head and I surrendered myself to him. “Tell me what you want.” He pushed on as he kissed my eyelids, my nose and my lips.

I cried out when his hand kept on brushing against my p***s. He wanted me to beg and I’ll do what he wants.

“Matthias, touch me. Do it, mark me yours. Please, just – ” He suddenly dropped me and I exclaimed when he gripped both of my legs and forced them open.

“I’ll f**k you like there’s no tomorrow.” He said with a smile so devilishly that it made me tremble in excitement.

I accidentally glanced up and saw the white ceiling. I was about to comment about how huge the room was when I sensed something wet going through the crack of my ass.

I looked down and saw Matthias already naked, pouring something. “W-what?” I gasped when he stopped pouring the liquid and started thrusting his own finger inside me.

“M-matthias?!” I flushed when he his nail scratched my inner walls. “I-it feels…” I gripped the sheets.

“Just relax.” He said and I moaned when he stroke my c**k. My ass throbbed at the sudden action and he snorted.

“You like that? You keep twitching.” He added another finger and I bit my lips to stop myself from moaning out loud when he suddenly touched something.

I got up and used my elbows to support myself. “Wha – what was that?!” This time, I moaned out loud when his fingers rubbed again that area and I flopped down on the bed, writhing in pleasure as he played his fingers inside me.

“Just rubbing your prostate makes you writhe like that.”

“S-stop it…I’m – ”

Out of the blue, he pulled his fingers away and I whined. He suddenly pulled me up and I landed down on his chest. His hands moved down to my butt cheeks and cupped them. I shuddered at how cold his hands were.

“Matthias.” I breathed his name out and he smiled. He kissed me on the lips and I screamed on his mouth when he suddenly entered me in one swift and powerful thrust.

“It hurts!!!” I huffed and he smirked.

“Get used to it.”

I cried and hugged him close to me as I get used to having something inside me. It feels so full, so tight, so perfect yet painful.

“Matthias wait…” I used my knees to move up but failed when I winced in pain. “D-don’t move!”

Matthias kissed me and smiled at me like he’s telling me everything’s alright. “Don’t worry, I got you.” He caressed my back and started moving up and down.

“Ugh!” I clawed his back and he groaned.

“f**k!” He held my waist so tight and started humping me. Up and down, up and down until I can no longer feel the pain.

I shut my eyes and panted in pleasure. “Haa, haa, M-matthias.”

I need more.

I need it.

“Faster!” I bit his shoulder and he groaned again. His thrust became fast, stronger, pleasurable that I can’t open my eyes.

The pleasure spread all over my body. My c**k throbbed and thought that it needed to be touched. I was about to reach down but gasped when Matthias’ hand did it for me. He stroke, his thumb rubbing the head, playing with my balls and it feels so good.

So good I can die.

“Matthias, I’m…”

I felt my tears dropping non-stop but I don’t care anymore. I can’t hear anymore but the sounds of our body moving together, our breaths caught up in the pleasure of having our bodies as one.

“Shit.” He mumbled and I saw him bit his lips. He stared at my eyes and at that moment, I can’t think of anything more but him and only him.

“Matthias, I love you!”

One last thrust and everything turned white.

We lay down on the bed, not bothered that were sweaty and sticky. We just stared at each other, smiling and chuckling like a couple of idiots.

“That was amazing.” I mumbled with a grin.

He smirked. “It’s supposed to be. You just made love with the Matthias Blaise.”

I giggled. “Yeah, I feel honoured.”

Matthias smiled and caressed my hair. I pulled his hand towards my lips and kissed it. “I love you, Monique.”

I grinned when his eyes widened and his whole face paled. “What the f**k? How’d you –?”

“I figured it out. Though I can’t imagine how you could talk like that.” I said and he puffed his cheeks like a child.

“One of the hardest things I did in my life. Seriously, those emoticons and girly stuffs made my head hurt.”

I chuckled. “You did it for me though.”

“It was worth it.” He smiled and so did I.

“So, who’s Monique?” I asked.

“That’s Marge’s second name.” He answered.

I looked down. Oh, so her name’s Margarette Monique Blaise.

“What if boss Nero already made him escape.”

“No way. The Blaise family won’t agree to work with the Gordon. They’re just small fries. Besides, the boss won’t ever agree to helping them.”

My eyes widened when I finally realized it. I glanced at Matthias. “So Nero’s your…assassin name?”

He shrugged his shoulders. “Yeah, the old man said I need to have a pen name or something so I guess that’s my name when I’m on duty.”

“Oh.”

Matthias smiled and kissed my forehead. “Sleep.”

As soon as he said it, my eyes started to feel heavy. “Matthias.” I held his hand. “I love you.”

“I know.”