Inevitable Calling

Truth finally unfolds

My birthday was finally over and I’m back at college, it feels incredible to finally be eighteen. After my glow up on Saturday night I feel slightly more confident in myself. I reminisced as I sat in the college library.

My moment with Joel on the dance floor made me feel more easy regarding our relationship. Although, there was a moment before I left where he brought up us making love to each other again. I wasn’t happy when he tried to take advantage of my drunken state.

We were stood outside, intertwined in one another. In deep kisses, he grabbed my thigh and pushed up my dress while mumbling ‘its time, Baby.’ I had pushed his hand off my leg and sternly told him ‘’no’. Clearly I still wasn’t ready for it. In that moment, Dollie wasn’t happy.

“But why?” He had asked me, looking frustrated as he slammed his fists against the wall on both sides of my head. With him becoming an alpha he’s getting stronger and stronger.

“We’re mates, you should be ready!” He shouts at me with his eyes bulging out of its sockets. Feeling slightly scared, I was breathless.

“I just don’t feel ready. I’m sorry.” I told him, feeling nervous of his temper. He growled and walked away from me. I tried to run after him but he disappeared out of nowhere. Standing outside in the cold alone, I decided to go back into the club. That was when I decided to have more alcohol and got even more drunk.

Sighing at the book I was reading, I lost interest. So I closed the book and put it inside my backpack then walked out of the library. As I walked through the corridors everyone was whispering and staring at me again. Get a life, the lot of you.

I continued to walk along, ignoring everyone’s whispering, pointing and staring. I got to my dorm room and was happy to see Aria sitting at her desk. As I entered she looked at me and smiled.

“Hey, Lex.“ She says as turns back to her computer.

“Great party on Saturday, I had so much fun.” She adds.

“I’m glad you had fun.” I say, plonking onto my bed, feeling sorry for myself. Aria must be able to see that I’m feeling down as I feel her head turning towards me again.

“You okay, Hun?”

“Not really.” I answer without looking at her. She sighs and walks over to sit down next to me on the bed.

“Do you want to talk about it?”

I contemplated whether or not I did. If I don’t talk about my problems I’ll end up bottling things up. And bottling things up isn’t good for me.

“Joel tried making love to me that night and I pushed him away; he ran off in a puff. He hasn’t spoken to me since.” I jabbered on. For a few moments none of us spoke.

“You’ve been mates for a while now and you’re still not ready?” She asks me, not in a patronising way but in a curious way.

“I just don’t feel like… I want to.” I confess, hiding my face.

“To sleep with a mate, I’d have to be marked first and somehow I don’t want to be marked…”

“… by Joel at least.” I add, feeling ashamed.

“Seems to me that by the moon, you’re not meant to be mates with Joel. I mean, no offence, but whenever I watch you two it’s like he’s hungry for you but you’re not for him.” She voices, looking slightly embarrassed by her honesty.

To be fair on her, I see her point. I mean, sure I feel butterflies when he kisses me and touches me etc, but I feel no spark. I feel a bond with him and so does Dollie, but it doesn’t feel right in a way. And this makes me feel disappointed.

“You’re right, you’re absolutely right.” I speak out, looking at her in the eyes.

Her eyes seemed sympathetic which made me feel pathetic on some level. I sigh deeply and pinch the bridge of my nose.

“I’m sure everything will be okay, chin up, Lass.” She lays her head on my arm and I wrap my arm around her body.

It’s nice to have someone to talk to, even though it’s Muffy I’d prefer to console with.

******

As the days go on, it’s gets harder. One minute me and Joel are fine and the next we’re not. Some days he’s sweet with me and some days he’s angry and losing his temper.

Dollie is quiet these days. I try to reach out to her but once again, she’s not there.

What can I do to fix this? Talk to me, girl.

No answer.

Whatever I do, I need to do it fast. Because I can feel both of the bonds I have get weaker. I think back to the conversation I had with Aria and decide it’s time to do something about it.

Maybe I should break the bond I have with Joel. Since he hasn’t marked me it can’t hurt, right? I reach out to my inner wolf and see if she disapproves. And nothing. I take this as a sign that she doesn’t want me to fight for him.

With a sigh, I jump off my bed and put my shoes on. I walk out of my dorm room and go look for Joel. I search the entire dorm and he’s nowhere to be found. I asked everyone if they had seen him but all they did was snicker at each other. When I demanded what was so funny they just walked off.

With anger building up, Dollie made an appearance. She could feel my frustration.

I don’t like this, Doll. I say to her.

I don’t like this either. She says back.

I stumbled upon Reginas’ cronies and they spoke to to me.

“If you’re looking for your mate, he’s a bit occupied right now.” Talia snickered wickedly along with Sophie and Gabbie.

“What do you mean, Talia?” I spat at her, gritting my teeth.

“Like Regina said, you should have kept him on a leash.” Gabbie perks up, the three of them laughing again.

“In case you haven’t noticed, Regina isn’t here. And you’re looking for your so called mate.” Sophie joins in.

“Yeah, it’s pretty obvious what’s going on.” Talia interjects. Realising what they’re all trying to say I sped off to Joels’ dorm room. Hearing the cronies laugh in the distance.

I reach Joels’ room and even though music blasted through the walls, I knocked twice before entering only to find horror.

There, on Joels’ bed, was him and Regina both naked. They were practically having s*x. Screaming at the top of my lungs, the music stops; both Joel and Regina looked at me, looking embarrassed.

With my hands covering my mouth, in shock, tears streamed down my face. Joel scrambled covering himself with the quilt, looking ashamed while Regina on the other hand smirked at me.

“L-Lexi…” I stopped him as I burst out laughing. Not with humour but with disbelief.

“Don’t even try to excuse yourself with this.” I say to him with my eyes glued on Regina, who is still smirking at me. Smug b*tch.

“Please let me explain.” Joel pleads as he stands up from the bed.

“Oh, please. It’s obvious that the reason I’m in your bed is because Lexi is too prude to f**k you.” Regina says with a wide smile on her face.

At this point both me and my inner wolf are infuriated and claws start to come out. I try to suppress her but she is too anxious to come out and rip Reginas’ smug face off her neck.

Joel looks shocked while Regina actually jumps off the bed looking taken back for a second. When the moment passed, she laughed.

“Stop laughing!” Joel shouts at her. Not wanting to actually murder Regina, I managed to retract my claws.

“She won’t do anything, she’s weak.” She says, clicking her fingers with joy. My eyes darken on her.

Joel starts getting dressed as Regina continues to stand there naked, laughing at me through her eyes. Eventually when Joel was dressed, he reached for Reginas’ clothes and chucked them at her.

She turns to him, face dropping.

“Get out.” He orders her.

“What?! You can’t tell me to get out after us being together!” She screams at him.

“ I said get out! This is between me and Lexi!” He roars back. In a tantrum, she puts on her clothes, storms out of the room and slams the door. With my face feeling pale yet hot, Joel is staring at me. With my guts feeling ripped out, he moves towards me.

“Don’t come closer.” I demand, holding my palm up to stop him. Joel stops and puts his hands in his pockets, looking torn apart.

“So this is why you’ve been distant with me.” I voice out.

“How long has this been going on for?” I ask, not wanting to hear the answer.

“Lexi, I-“

“How long, Joel?!” I snarl, using his proper name. I only use his proper name when I’m displeased with him.

“Two weeks.” He answers, looking at the ground. I scoff at him.

“Two weeks?” I repeat his answer.

“Two weeks?! You’ve been sleeping with Regina during my birthday?!! How could you?!” I screamed at him, he looks at me and jumps back in dismay. He sighs and rubs his hands across his face.

“Lex, in case you haven’t noticed, there is something wrong with our bond. Every time I try to take the next step, you shut me down.” He looks at me, defeated.

“I try to be patient and have hope that soon you will want us to, take it to the next step, I never meant to hurt you but with Regina I felt… more.” I back myself to the wall, folding my arms. With my heart feeling damaged, more tears trail down my face.

“I really do love you, but with me not marking you and making love to you, it isn’t enough. I hated doing this to you because I knew what the consequences would be.

Meaning my inner wolfs’ bond would be severed. And believe me when I say this, she is feeling distraught. Me caring enough for my poor, sweet wolf, I know we’re both better than this.

“Well, I hope you’re both happy with each other.” I cry out, turning my back, reaching for the door-knob.

“Lexi…” He cries out back to me.

I didn’t reply, I didn’t turn back, I just left.

******

Word had got out that me and Joel had practically split up. The whispering had kinda died down but I still hear people saying things like:

“…I knew this was going to happen.”

“… she should have let him mark her.”

“… I’m not surprised, Joel and Regina are always having their hands on each other.”

“… Lexi isn’t even that hot, no wonder he chose Regina.”

Blah blah blah, it goes on. Just as I started to feel more confident in myself, Joel knocks it back down. I mean, I expect Regina, her cronies and everyone else to drag me down but not my mate.

It’s Dollie I feel sorry for, she’s completely shut me down. She knows it’s not my fault and she doesn’t blame me but she still doesn’t want to talk to me.

I could feel the mate bond growing weaker and weaker the more time he spends with that snake. Half of the time I feel pain in my belly, sometimes it makes me want to throw up. When I feel pain in my belly I know it’s when them two are being intimate. I know he hasn’t marked her yet because I haven’t felt it.

“So the truth finally unfolds.” Says Muffy, breaking into my thoughts.

“I f*****g knew it! Something felt shady. I’m sorry, Lexi, but I had a feeling something like this was going to happen.” She blurts out, looking at me. Without meaning to, I burst out crying. She clasps her hands over her mouth and rushed towards me.

“I’m so sorry, Babe, I didn’t mean to make you cry.” She sat down besides me and pulls me into a strong embrace.

“This isn’t fair on you, he should have spoken to you about how he feels instead of doing that dirty b*tch-face.” She spouts with venom in her voice. She stands up, grabs my hand and pulls me to stand.

“Come on, I’m taking you for food. I know you probably don’t feel like eating right now but eating junk food will make you feel better.” She says, grinning. Like I said, she knows how to cheer me up. Willingly, I let her drag me out of the bedroom.

After wolfing down, no pun intended, two hotdogs, a pizza, two burgers and a chocolate sundae, I was stuffed. Without meaning to, I let out a loud burp. I turn to see everyone gawping at me. I just smiled at them and shrugged, Muffy is laughing at the side of me.

“You sure murdered all that food, you must have been starving yourself.” She says gesturing to the empty plates at our table.

“I’ll admit, since walking in on the horror scene between my ex-mate and that thing, I haven’t been eating properly.” I confess, rubbing my full belly.

“Well I’m glad I got you to eat. I know it’s hard for you but you deserve way more than this. You are a beautiful girl with a heart of gold.” I smile at her kindness and she squeezes my hand as if to say, it’s true.

The waitress came and took away our plates, we spent another hour in Franksters then decided to leave. I don’t know how I got so lucky to have a friend like Muffy. I feel more mated to her than I ever did with Joel. I need to focus on myself and my inner wolf and forget about him. It’s obvious we’re not going to get back together.

I returned to my dorm room and got myself ready for bed. Aria was fast asleep, loud snores were coming out of her nose. I smacked my face with my palm before plugging in earphones. Seriously not listening to her snoring. As my mind starting to relax I drifted off and shortly after I fell asleep.

******

Walking out into the field the next day I saw everyone hurdled. Wondering what the hell is going on, I cut through. Joel and Regina were stood in the middle of everyone; Joel had his canines out sitting on Reginas’ neck as she had her head tilted back and had her arms clutched into his arms.

In this moment I knew what was happening, he was about to mark her in front of everyone. Dollie came out to peep through my eyes, she too knew what was happening and she felt hurt. This was not a pleasant thing to watch.

With everyone cheering them on, Joel sank his canines deep into Reginas’ skin. Blood dripped down her neck and they both moaned in pleasure. Tears started to run down my face.

Yes, this hurts and it’s painful. But I was never going to let him mark me, deep down I always knew this. It hurts because he was unfaithful to me in the ending of our relationship, despite the fact I wouldn’t let him mark me, he still chose to cheat on me. And for that I will never ever forgive him.

The deeper Joel sank his canines into Reginas’ skin, the more pain I felt. This was him severing any ties and bond I have with him. Both of us wincing in agony, Dollie retreats back into the darkness.

Finally, Joel retracts his canines and pulls his face away from her neck. He sniffs the air and directs his eyes to me. They were dark with lust, lust for me. I know this because for him, I was his destined mate. But for me, he wasn’t.

While he stares at me, everyone’s heads turns towards me. Some of them were murmuring, some were laughing, some of them just looked at me blankly. Not liking this attention I turn on my heels and walk back inside the building. As usual, I hear people laughing and cheering.

I meet with Muffy and Aria in the cafeteria during lunch time, not saying a word. I just look at my fingers while them two talk. They’re expressing how they feel about the situation, they despise Joel and Regina.

I contemplate whether or not to drop out of college. When I voice this, Muffy shoots a quick look at me and tells me no. She said I should finish the course because it will benefit me. I want to become a nurse so that’s why I chose Health care. Another reason why I love Muffy: she’d never let me give up, especially over something that could be fixed in the future.

After all, there’s plenty of other wolves out there. And she’s right, I finish this course I could be a nurse, just like I want to be. Her words stick to me and I decide to stay. Even Aria agrees that I should stay and that I made the right choice. I sigh in despair and look to the ceiling.

“That d*ckwad is meant to become alpha this Friday.” I snap my gaze from the ceiling to Muffy as she blurts this out.

“Oh yeah, I forgot about that.” I say, rolling my eyes in response.

“I won’t be cheering him on.” She says, arching her brows together in disgust.

“If you ask me, he doesn’t deserve to be alpha after what he did to you.” She quickly adds.

I didn’t really have anything to say to her so I shrugged then crossed my arms. Aria seemed to not have anything to say either so she shakes her head in disapproval.

With my life feeling dull, I slump back into my chair wishing things got better. I tried to reach out to Dollie to see if she was okay but she was nowhere to been seen which is starting to really upset me.

******

“He did what?!” My dad growls as I tell my parents what has been happening.

“He marked Regina Foe on the field in front of everyone after being caught in bed with her after cheating on my baby girl, his mate, during her birthday? Is that what you’re telling us?” I nod slowly not looking at either my mum or dad.

He stands up aggressively and starts pacing about the room, cursing and throwing his fists about. My mum gets up to soften him while I just sit there, chewing my nails. My dad is furious, there’s no disputing that. After a few minutes of watching my dad and my mother process what I had told them, I let out a sigh.

“It’s my fault.” Both of them shot me a look.

“How is it your fault, Sweetheart? My mum softly asks me as she perches back down next to me, embracing me.

“You loved him, he should have been more patient.” She finishes off.

“It’s my fault because I knew deep down I didn’t want him. Not in the way I should. Yes I loved him but I didn’t feel anything deeper than that. Nothing I crave to feel.” I rant on.

“I should have been honest with myself and to him, but instead I said nothing.” I blow out air in relief, feeling good at letting it all out.

I look from my mum to my father, he was slouched against the window sill with his face in his hands. After a few moment of silence, he looked up at me smiling. He walked over to me and put his arms around me, giving me the hardest hug ever.

“This is me, picking up the pieces. Just like you said.” I chuckled as he winked at me, throwing back what I said to him in the car a couple of weeks ago. I inhaled and hugged him back as my mother joined in the group hug. After a short while we all pulled away.

“You’ll find your real mate, I promise.” My dad assured me.

“And trust us when we say ‘’you will know when you meet him.’” My mum perks up. I nod and smile at them both, trying to see optimism.

“I’m worried about Dollie, she’s suffering just as much as I am.” I confess.

“You both need time, you both will heal. When the time is right, she’ll come back out. Don’t worry, she is there.” My mother reassures me, squeezing my arm.

It is my mission to stay strong for all of us, especially for my inner wolf. It’s amazing that I feel so strongly towards her. Everyone is always telling me that they’ve never met anyone who cares so much for their beast. It’s like, having a little pet or having a child.

Personally I think I have maternal instincts to look after those I love, more than most would. And it gets stronger as I get older. I would love to have children sometime in the future, Dollie is just like me, she gets jolly at the thought of me having little pups. Her having little pups. To me they would be human babies, but to Dollie they would be little cubs.

Thinking about having babies, I groan and slam my face against the table. Making a loud bang. After a few seconds, I sniff back a tear and lift my head off the table. Only to see both my mother and father look at me in confusion to my sudden action.

“Don’t worry about it.” I say, shrugging. They both just looked at each other as if to say, okay, our daughter is strange.

Since it’s a college night, my dad drives me back to college. It’s a quick and silent ride. We didn’t talk much, times like this he knows I like to stay quiet. He respects that, which makes me feel happy. When we arrived we did the usual: hug, kiss and say goodbye.

Before walking into the building I stopped to take a look at the scenery in font of me. I closed my eyes for a few moments, appreciating the cool breeze fan across my face. With just the sound of the wind whistling amongst the quiet, I felt at peace.

A few more moments later I trailed my feet to my dorm room and once again I got myself ready for bed, plugged my earphones in and drifted off to sleep.

******

Today is the day where Joel becomes alpha, and as protocol, I have to be there. Great, just what I want. The entire pack will be there. Some of us aren’t happy to attend given what he had done to me, I t’s nice to know a lot of people care.

Standing in a room full of wolves, I feel out of place. I should be standing next to Joel, cheering him on. But given the circumstances, I’m not. Regina is. I glance around the room and see him talking to his parents with Regina.

They’re all giggling and talking, I’m guessing that means they have no idea Joel left me for Regina. Tut tut, Joel, I can’t wait to see the look on their faces when they find out the truth about us.

“Would you like a drink, Miss Button?” A voice appears at the side of me. I turn to face a butler, smiling at me. My face lights up.

“I would love a drink, thank you, George.” George kindly passed me a glass of champagne.

He walks away and I take a sip, as I turn around I catch Joel staring at me. Bringing my drink down to my stomach with my hands clutching it, I stare back at him. And we kept on staring at each other until he finally turns his attention to his parents. Ha! I win, I praise myself.

“Why isn’t Lexi standing with you but Regina is?” I hear his father ask him.

And the penny drops. He looks down to the ground scratching his arms and with just a sip of the champagne, I feel courageous enough to walk over to them and blurt out,

“I’m not standing with him because he cheated on me with Regina and marked her in front of everyone 3 days ago.” I fold my arms as Alpha Simmons, Luna Simmons and Regina jaws drop

“Is this true, Joel?” His mother speaks up. Reluctantly, he answered.

“Y-yes, Mother.” With a poker face I’m now wearing, trying to not show my happiness at Joels’ shame, his mother breaks the glass she is holding in her hand and the glass shatters across the floor.

She then smacks her son brutally in the face, leaving everyone in the room staring in awe.

“I did not raise you to be unfaithful!” She screams at him.

He looks at his mother briefly then looks at me, then looks at his father. Who isn’t saying anything, like me, he has a poker face on. Only now I feel a tad guilty. Feeling defeated I sigh and speak up.

“It’s not entirely his fault, he wanted something from me that I could not give and I never said a word about it. Please don’t blame him.” Surprised at my compassion, the four of them stared at me.

“I’m not happy what they have done and neither is my wolf, but the longer we are not bonded the less pain we are in.” I finish off. Nicole looks at me sympathetically.

“Regardless you not being able to give my son what he wanted, to which I completely understand, it still doesn’t give him the right to betray you like that.”

“She’s right, we can assure you Joel will suffer the consequences.” Andrew follows his mates’ comment.

“Please, I know his consequence would involve a death penalty but that is not what I want.” From the corner of my eye I saw Regina roll her eyes. Resisting the urge to gouge out her eyes with a broken glass, I ignore it.

“No, he will serve a greater consequence, he won’t become an alpha tonight.” Once his father let out the notion, it was Regina who shouted in his defence.

“No! You can’t do that!” Andrew becomes angry and shouts back at her.

“I can do it and it has been decided, until Joel learns to act fit for the position he will remain as he is.” He pauses for breath.

“An alpha would make the right choices, despite the reason for doing so, he would never cheat on his mate. Regardless if he marks her or not!” He adds that last part looking at me, defending my honour.

This is a real big mess, poor Joel is red faced looking ashamed, knowing he disappointed his family while Regina sulks at the fact her mate remains non-alpha which clearly shows she only wants him for his status. Shame on you.

While everyone else remains silent as I stand there feeling mixed emotions. Even Dollie is hiding in the corner, slapping her tail as if to say could this be any more awkward.

I turn to my friends, they don’t look any less awkward than the rest of us. This is meant to be a crucial night, Joel was meant to become alpha. An alpha! Do you have any idea how big that is? It’s higher than an average werewolf. Werewolves have no choice but to submit to Alphas.

In a way I’m glad that Joel isn’t going to get the chance to become an Alpha yet, I get the feeling that once he gained power he would try to force me to be with him in the way he always wanted despite the fact he marked Regina. He only marked her because I couldn’t give him what he wanted.

When he said he felt more with her, he didn’t mean as in lust, he meant as in he knew she’d drop her panties for him any second he demanded and as any male, he couldn’t resist.

So to wrap up this night, Alpha Simmons requested that we all enjoy the rest of the evening and to forget the show we all witnessed. Him and his Luna dragged their disappointing son to punish him for his actions, having Regina follow them. I expect nothing less. I spent the rest of the night laughing with my loved ones, trying to lighten the mood. Despite what he had done, I felt pity for Joel.