Bottle love

In my dreams everything is always vivid and happy but I don't like the comfortability of these dreams.In my dreams , imagination and gut I know I am not destined for this . If I could have ever be given the opportunity to run away from home ,I wouldn't take it.But now I am just moving and running as fast as I can , to wherever my legs are taking me. I don't know if I am going north , west , east or south . I am almost lost and can't place myself to think about what I should. "The bravest warriors and people don't tun away from the battle" I try to tell myself. But I am not brave , my mom and dad always remained crazy about the clear mental fact that I could never be brave and strong.My whole life I have been prepared and groomed for this every day and moment. I have been raised to get married, I have been conceived for this day.But still my mother and dad's will and dreams are being broken by the person their both trust so much . Ever since I could walk and remember, I have been taught what it means to be a wife and yet I am running from my responsibility.If I Candice Mulalo Mudua are not the Glamour Queen . Then the word Glamour has no meaning. Nobody in South Africa could survive to get this title .But beauty isn't all I possess , I have knowledge and wisdom. I have both knowledge and wisdom. I am a model ,the model of my South African era and a famous psychologist. Unfortunately I am not the' it 'girl in South Africa, nobody wants to be me or be with me expect this Prince Katlego Mokwana . My sister Cassandra Shonisani Mudua is my only competition in the whole world but yet she overshadows me completely.