Loving You

Chapter 6

James POV

I think I know who to ask. Maybe I can ask Henry about this, he’s older than me, so he might have the answer. He might not be the type to have a relationship but at least he knows more about feeling towards girls and he has more experiences in this kind of thing. Maybe he will show me how to act around Maggie.

But, what do I really feel towards Maggie? Am I really like her more than just a friend or a brother? Or maybe I even fall in love? Oh, shut up James! You can’t be falling in love with her? She’s just like a sister to you.

But, why every time I’m with her since last two years, I feel uneasy and shy and I can feel my heartbeats are beating faster and faster every time I am near her? I know that I hardly see her this past two years but like I said, every time I came around to meet her here in her place, my heart was beating and I can feel that my ears are burning hot.

I really need to talk to Henry. He’s the one that can really tell me what to do. Maybe I just call him now.

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That evening was going so fast. After you and James watched Steve and Taylor played the game, all of you went ahead to get some dinner that your maid had already prepared. Both you and James still not talking to each other and that made Steve felt a bit strange. But he knew not to ask about it during dinner, you wouldn’t like to be exposed like that. By the look on your face, he knew that something was troubling you.

Then Steve was looking at James. He too had the same kind of troubled face but more to a confused one, he thought. Hmmm, he wondered what happened to the both of you.

He somewhat noticed and got the feeling that James like you since almost two years ago but he knew also that you, his own sister, were too oblivious about it. He knew he couldn’t say anything or even ask about it if none of you were coming to him to ask about his opinions or advice. So, all he could do was just looking from afar and waited to see what’s happened next. He just wished that nothing’s bad going to happen between you two since he loved both of you so much. You as his sister and James was like a brother to him.

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Today was Saturday, you woke up by the notification on your phone. You were cursing at it especially to whoever was texting you at this early Saturday morning when you needed your beauty sleep. As if, you would become prettier by sleeping.

When you looked at the screen. You saw that James had been sending you messages for several times. You wondered what’s wrong with him and you just then realized, you had promised him to go out today for some ice cream date.

Wait, why were you saying ice cream date? It’s just a date, wait, no it’s just a friendly, regular meet up that both of you had. Just like before. Right? So definitely not a date. What were you thinking.

You just immediately texted him back and said that you would be in the regular shoppe within 1 hour. You apologized to him for delayed respond.

You remembered that last night didn’t end in the good term between you and him, when he left, he didn’t even say anything to you and you ignored it also. That’s why you kind of forgot about this little meet up that you both had arranged yesterday.

So, you got ready quickly and half running to the ice cream shoppe that you both used to hangout and found him already sitting there in the corner booth, your usual spot, with ice cream in front of him. When you saw him, you felt a bit uneasy for some reasons. One because of last night incident, two because somehow looking at him right now sitting there with his eyes wandered around outside, he looked mesmerizing. You had never looked at him like that before, he looked ethereal.

Then someone knocked your shoulder and you snapped back into reality and at the same time James was looking at your direction. He didn’t realized that you had arrived. He had a lot of thing in his head and wondering how to solve it.

He hadn’t talked to Henry yet, but he really needed his advice. Henry was his cousin that he could trust. He was more closer to him than to Jeremy. Not really sure why but maybe because Henry had more compassion toward him especially since they were practically grew up together. Henry’s mom was his dad’s sister. He always came around to play with James even though he’s the same age as Jeremy but Henry found that playing with James was more fun. So, yeah, he would need to see or talk to Henry and seek his advice later on.

But now he needed to see you first today, at least to clear some of the things that happened yesterday. He felt worst when he went home last night. He didn’t say goodbye to you as usual and he knew that he shouldn’t do that but yesterday he felt angry towards you and somehow he couldn’t contain himself. He knew it was his weakness, he always held a grudge for awhile but after a few moments he would regret it. Especially now, he was holding a grudge on you yesterday and now he knew that he needed to apologize.

You approached him and gave him a smile so to clear some of the awkward moments from yesterday. He smiled back to you before he handed you the ice cream that he had ordered.

“I thought you forgot about my favorite.” James was rubbing the back of his neck upon hearing your comment and at the same time passing an almost melted ice cream.

“How can I forget? It’s not like I just know you or something. It just happened that we hardly hang out together like before.” He smiled and gave you a wink.

“Yes, that’s true. But I thought since you’re already in high school, you forgot about me. Your best friend.” James felt disappointed when he heard you said ‘best friend’.

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James POV

Did I just get friend zone by Maggie? Then how can I resolve my feeling towards her? Does she even like me like I like her? What if she doesn’t like me? What if she just think about me as a friend or worst like a brother? What should I do then?

Oh no! I really need to talk to Henry and ask for immediate advice. But now, all I need to do is just talk to her and act normal.