The L Word (Lust or Love)

Chapter Eighteen

It has been three days since Siara came into England, her favorite country. She was very happy. How could she not be? Even though the reason why she came in here was for work, she still glad to saw it for herself the city of Shakespeare. Her romance character was building up and it was like her boss know what's in her mind. He gave her an endless happiness, in romantic ways. Such as city tour, candle light dinner, even going to carnival and gave her fluffy doll prize, just the two of them. It was like they were a couple.

The thought about her boss made her halted what have she was been doing. For what she know so far, Jonathan was changed. There's still possessiveness and s*x between them, but the way he acted was different. Like her mind was thought, he acted like he was her boyfriend. From the beginning she met him, Siara knew Jonathan was a true gentlemen. s*x, it was what he wanted, he even admit it. But now, s*x was no longer he often did. He just put his efforts to gave her attentions and needs to made her happy and safe around him. She questioned all his acted on her mind. Why the sudden change? Or is it just Siara wrong thoughts? She never know.

She continued to made him breakfast. Sandwich is Jonathan's favorite. Although there's maid who could made them, she wanted to did this by herself. Showed her gratitude to him. It's not much but it was the least she could do. Beside she always wanted to did something in romance movies, breakfast in bed.

Siara strides towards Jonathan's bedroom while brought his breakfast with tray in her hand. She opened the door slowly so Jonathan not woke up yet. She put the tray on nightstand beside Jonathan who still slept. Smile crept to Siara's lips. She really love looked at Jonathan's innocent face while slept. It was like his serious demeanor vanished. She looked to him closely. He put both his hand on the back of his head. Even when he slept, his black raven short hair still looked good. His naked chest was not covered up with the duvet. What amused her was Jonathan slept with smile on his face. He must be had nice dream, Siara's mind spoke. Without she realized, she already leaned closer to his face. Her finger traced to his subtle jaw. Jonathan looked manly and mature enough with that.

Then suddenly, Jonathan opened his eyes. His green eyes was gleamed with so much passion when the first thing he saw when he woke up was his beautiful goddess. He smiled more. She replied his smile.

"Morning, my goddess." Jonathan greeted.

"Morning, too." Siara answered, "I brought you breakfast."

Jonathan looked to the nightstand on his left. There's his favorite sandwich along with a glass of orange juice and two cups of coffee. He looked back to Siara, grinned widely to her.

He arched an eyebrow, "On what occasion you made breakfast?"

She shrugged, sit on little space on the bed, "I just want to. I don't have the heart to wake you up."

He sit up, leaned his back to the headboard. His naked chest and his black boxer was now exposed. Like two goody shoes girl she was, Siara still blushed by the sight. On her consciousness, it still happened to her.

"Sit in here." He gestured on his lap. Siara did as he said. "You already had breakfast?"

She nodded, "Yes, with Andr- I mean Mr. Grey."

Jonathan gave her one cup of coffee from the tray, "You didn't woke me up so you can have a time alone with him?"

"No, Jonathan. It's not like that." Siara sipped her coffee, "I thought we agreed on this that there's nothing going on with me and him. Stop being so possessive of me. "

He shrugged then took a bite of his sandwich, "I'm just stated what's mine."

She igroned his remark, "Anyway what's plan for today?"

"I'm have meeting this morning around ten." He replied.

"Okay, I'm going to get ready then."

"No, you stay here."

Siara frowned, "Why?"

He finished the last bite of his sandwich then answered, "Andrew will come with me. It was his job in here, not you. But I still want you to get ready for me in the afternoon. I'm pick you up."

"Where are we going?"

"To see my mother." He looked at her and she responded in surprised, "My mother just got home from her holiday last night from New York. I missed her."

She bit her bottom lip, "You sure it's okay if I come with you?"

"And why not?" He looked confused, "I want to introduce you to her."

"Um, okay."

He gave her chaste kiss, "I will go get ready for the meeting, thank you for the breakfast, my goddess."

She smiled, "Pleasure was all mine."

-******-

Later, as Jonathan and Andrew went to their meeting, it was time for Siara to got ready. When she half done doing her make up, she got call from Jonathan. The man asked of help to search some important file from his study room, the file Andrew forgot to brought with him. Jonathan told Siara to searched on his big oak desk as the file on his drawer. She did as he told and began to made her steps to Jonathan's study room next to his bedroom.

She searched through Jonathan's desk. When she found it, without she realized, there's also an old magazine that's also carried away as she picked the file Jonathan need. She confused then looked to the magazine.

She gasped when she saw the cover's magazine. She couldn't believed what she just witness. It was Jonathan who smiled widely, with a woman in his arm, staring lovely at each other. What made her more surprised, the couple was dressed in wedding attire. She opened the magazine looking through it. Siara found what she looked for.

The headline was made her heart beats fast.

INTRODUCING MR. AND MRS. XAVIER, THE NEWYLEDS COUPLE WHOSE EXPECTING THEIR FIRST CHILD TO BE BORN IN A FEW MONTHS!

Siara felt her head spinning because of it. She wanted to throw up. How could Jonathan never mentioned this? He is married, and he had a child. The pit of her stomach was clenched hard. All this time she was being f**k over and over by someone's husband and father. She never thought of this. That the gentleman Jonathan she knew was a cheating liar bastard. Then she heard the door knocked, made her jumped in shock. She rushed to the door then opened it. George was stood in there. He told her that he's going to brought the file to Jonathan's office. She nodded and handed him the file.

"You okay, Ms. Siara?" He asked.

"Um, yes. Why?"

"You looked pale."

"I'm okay, George." She showed her smiled, "Just a bit headache."

He just nodded his head then excused himself. Siara ran back to Jonathan's desk to picked up the magazine she once read. She brought it with her to Jonathan's bedroom as she read him and his wife love's story. Without she know, tears was streaming down her cheek. She couldn't helped it. She was felt betrayed. It was low for her to had s*x numerous time with someone's husband. Then why his wife and child was not in here? Was they were somewhere else he hidden it from her and hers to them?

She dropped the magazine then rushed to the bathroom. She throw up all her breakfast to the sink. This was something she not expected. It was far more heart broken than what her ex, Julian, did to her. She couldn't do this anymore. She had to leave.

Siara cleaned up her throw up then back to Jonathan's bedroom. She picked up her suitcase, tried to pack everything she ever brought. She need to got out from this mansion fast. Siara knew this was a bad idea. With little money she had, it was a suicide plan for her to roamed in the city she doesn't know much. But she couldn't bear this hurt anymore. She made a mental note to called Bianca the moment she stepped outside from this mansion. After all her packed was done, she began to ordered cab. Andrew taught her before if she ever got lost even though the idea was never meant to happened as she always with him and Jonathan.

After she waited anxiously for ten minutes, her cab was arrived. She asked the driver to picked her in front of Jonathan's mansion gate and told her if he already there. With her suitcase in her hand, she determined to got out from there. She walked down stairs and a maid was recognized her. The maid was surprised to saw Siara's state. She hurriedly approached her and asked her what happened and where would she going. But Siara didn't replied anything as her tears was running down to her cheeks furiously. She just made fast stride towards the gate, leaving the confused maid and Jonathan's mansion. As the maid found herself again after in daze, she rushed to phone his master. Alas, the man not picked up her phone call. Then the maid called Andrew. After few seconds waited, she felt relieved.

"Loretta? What is it?" Andrew asked in low voice, more like whispered.

"Um, sir, the lady just left." She answered.

"What?" He shrieked, "Wait a sec."

Loretta heard all the shuffling sound before she heard her master deep voice.

"Loretta?"

She cleared her throat, "Um, hello sir. I'm sorry to disturbed you but it's urgent."

"Something wrong with Siara?" He asked.

The maid bit her lip for a second, "That's the thing, sir. She just left."

"What do you mean she just left?"

"As in left this mansion, sir." She paused, "She left the house while crying."

Loretta heard her master cursed some words. She just know the man was very angry. He ordered her to came up to his bedroom to found something that might be a clue to why Siara's sudden escape. He told the maid that he would got to home soon. As she arrived at his bedroom, she began to searched. Then her feet stop at something she wouldn't had thought.

Loretta sighed, "You wouldn't like it what I just found sir."

He silence for a bit, "Just tell me."

With deep sighed, she answered, "She found out sir, about you and Mrs. Sullivan."

"Fuck." was Jonathan's last word before he ended the call.