Still Into Him

Its already 5pm and I'm still here in the school wondering why people staring at me. This is why I hate being alone, kung Hindi ka ba naman pinag-uusapan, pinagtitinginan ka naman na para bang may ginawa kang masama. I rolled my eyes on air. now I hate Nico for letting me walk alone the campus. I look at the sky and its dark. mukhang uulan na. bakit kaya ang malas ko sa araw na to? Did I do something that makes me feel like this? napasinghap nalang ako sa inis. As I continue to walk. I accidentally saw Clevente and Erin. I don't know but something is bothering me. feeling ko kelangan kong marinig ang pag uusapan nila. Maybe... maybe they're something is up to them. And because of curiosity. hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili kong makinig. kung hindi importante ang usapan nila, bakit dito? Humakbang ako palapit sa kanila... para akong tangang nagtatago't nakikinig sa usapan ng iba. Napaawang ang labi ko. Erin is crying and Rafael was begging her. what's with them? damn! I should've not heard this. Aalis sana ako ng marinig kong mag salita si Erin. "If Aera found out our past, ano nalang ang sasabihin niya. she'll be hurt. mag isip ka nga." frustrated na sabi ni erin I was stunned, did I heard it right? niloloko ba nila ako? what about their past? Are they lovers? tell me not. shit Nanigas ako sa kinatatayuan ko ng marinig ang sinabe ni Rafael. "I don't care, Val. all I want is you... I want you back!" Napatakip nalang ako ng bibig. what? for real? wtf! I think I need air. "Then what about Aera? hindi mo ba naisip kong ano yung mararamdaman niya? huh? you selfish raffy." Dismayadong sagot ni Erin kay Rafael habang umiiyak ito. Did I assumed too much? how could I easily trust that man? Nico is right. dapat iniwasan ko na siya. They used me, they are.... "I told you, I never loved her. ikaw lang Erin. I know it's too much that I used her but I did it because I want you jealous. I want you back. please! I'm sorry " ani Rafael. I inhaled myself. don't cry, summer. you're brave okay? They don't deserve your tears. hold on. Pero sino niloloko ko? para akong sinaksak sa puso nang marinig ang sinabe niya. really? gusto niyang pagselosin siya at ako yung ginamit niya? just wow. "I'm still inlove with you too Raffy pero masasaktan natin pareho si Aera. I don't know what to do anymore" mangiyak iyak nitong sabi. I don't know if she's worried about me or she just pretending that she care? This is not fair. ba't ako nagtatago? Narinig ko naman na lahat. I badly wanna punch their faces right now. para sa ganon malaman nilang mas masakit pa dun ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. tangina nila! I can't stop myself anymore. Padarag kong binuksan ang pintuan kasabay nun ang siyang pag patak ng ulan. sobrang lakas, kaya pala.... kaya pala ang lungkot ng langit. Napalingon sila sa biglaang pagbukas ng pinto. Erin's eyes widened when she saw me. but Rafael seems not bother about my presence. She's trying to come closer to me but I stop her. "No, dyan ka lang. don't you come near me" nangangalaiti kong sabi sa kanya "Let me explain, sam." biglang tugon ni Rafael sa mababaw na boses Napabaling ang tingin ko sa kanya. I glared at him. ikinuyom ko ang aking kamay. No wonder why I fell for him. he was snob, cold and handsome. Isama mo pa yung pagiging matalino niya but how come na hindi ko napansin na ginagago niya lang ako. he's making fun of me. curse him for pits of hell. Gusto ko siyang sampalin pero wala akong lakas na loob lapitan siya. wala rin akong magagawa. hindi nun mapapalitan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon. "Wala kang dapat sabihin. I already heard a lot. making fun of me ha! did you both enjoyed it?" Thanks to my braveness, my voice sounds not affected but damn, too much pain. Napaiwas siya ng tingin. see? he's not guilty at all. nang wala ng sumagot sa kanila. lakas loob ulit akong nagsalita. I'll end it there then! "Great! you should thank me for making you happy." Note the sarcasm honey. Wala na akong dapat sabihin sa kanila, I'm about to turn my back when Erin grab my hand... "Aera, I-I'm so sorry. we did not mean to hurt you. binalaan na kita e. but you didn't listen." Instead of answering her walang kwentang explanation. tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. Erin was my cousin, she was so rude to me but despite of her attitude towards me. hinayaan ko nalang yun kasi kilala ko siya. she will not hurt me physically, sadyang ayaw lang talaga niya sakin but today, hindi ko to mapapalampas. she did hurt me physically and emotionally. dapat sinabe niya sakin the first time she warned me about him pero hindi. hinayaan niya lang akong mag isip kumbakit. Hindi ko na sinagot ang sinabe niya. sinamaan ko nalang siya ng tingin, at sabay bawi sa kamay ko. agad akong naglakad. paglabas ko narinig ko ang tawag niya sa pangalan ko. Sa takot na sundan nila ako at makita nilang umiiyak ako. tumakbo na ako. ang daming nakatingin sakin, but I don't mind. Sumisikip ang dibdib ko, at ramdam ko ang panghihina ng buong katawan ko. Ang tanga mo summer. do you think he loves you back? you heard it? he used you! damn it. hindi ko na makita ang tinatakbohan ko dahil sa luhang nag uunahang umagos sa pisngi ko. I don't know were to go. basta ang alam ko. gusto ko malayo sa kanila. But my eyes widened when I didn't see the car coming. narinig ko nalang ang malakas na bosena at naramdaman ko ang marahas na pagbagsak ng aking katawan. "s**t" Then everything is went black!