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US
Throbbing and heavy heart
I don't know what I should feel.
I can't cry anymore,
or my tears run out from excessive crying.
But this excruciating pain still lingers and drowns me.
It's funny that I feel she got the privilege.
Is it the right thing to feel envy when she gets your attention?
Attention from her effort flirting with you even if she's aware that there's US?
You fall right into the trap
Playing a delicate, demure, and innocent girl.
But then again, I hope my warnings are enough to penetrate your mind.
Too late for that eh? Now, we're ruined.
Now, there is no longer US.
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Restart
I woke up this morning
Then you are the first person that visit in my mind
But then, I said " Ah! never mind"
because from now on
I will stop myself from thinking about you.
I will build a strong wall in my heart and mind.
So the unconscious act that I do every day, to you,
that connects with you,
I will stop it.
I will respect your space,
and I will forget the existence of you like we never met,
I won't bother you anymore.
You can have your peace.
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Healing
They say it takes time to heal,
and only the Creator can heal the pain.
You have been through a lot, darling,
Take a break and learn to love yourself.
It is impossible to forget the memories.
Of course, we know that.
It is from the person that you love for a very long time.
But don't forget,
all the lessons in this life that has taught you.
Harnish it to become a better person,
A new version of you.
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Perfect in a Right Time
When the time is right for the both of you
God will make a way
You will going to meet again, someday.
To continue the love
that bound from above.
Prove the love,
that even if you have to wait,
It is okay,
because that's what True Love is
Just trust, and wait Patiently.
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Subconscious
Anxiety attacks me, again
Nauseous, rapid heartbeat,
A never-ending turmoil.
My mind has its own emotions,
sometimes, it creates hallucinations.
When will this end?
Even if I've already imagined blocking it in my head
Even if I've buried it deep within me.
It wants to eat me up.
Crawl all the way up
So I can never forget the feeling of the pain
The feeling of being alone,
The pain of betrayal,
Distrust,
Of being used.
All I can do is to write all my thoughts
until they can no longer control me.
My thoughts once tried to swallow me,
My humanity,
Conscience,
They almost succeeded,
They always know how to leash me,
Because They are Me.
- Writer
