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The longer time passes, the heavier my heart beats. Laying on that cold ground, with Dzhan’s body moulded so perfectly into mine, his knee between my f*ucking legs, his big eyes gleaming in the darkness with anticipation so intense I am sure he’s holding his breath… I want to do what he asks of me. To admit I am his, as it was written in the stars, but I can’t. I can’t feed into this delusion anymore than I already did. Guilt like nothing I’ve ever felt before rushes through me and I have to squeeze my eyelids and shift my head away from him so that he won’t see it written on my face or hidden deep into my eyes.
He freezes. I can feel the hard muscles of his body tense and I am sure for a minute there he’s not breathing.
The silence that settles between us is deafening. I am trembli
