Ghostly Love

This Isnt A Fairytale, This Isnt Wizardry, This Isnt Harry Potter Nor Twighlight This Is Based On What People Would Call A Nightmare... But Not For Me  The Beginning Starts Like Non Other A Death...The Death Of My Former Lover, Bear, I Call Him Bear Beacuse He Was Loving, He Always Protected Me And Made Me Feel Comfortable, Bear Was Also Short For His Name Bearalto But He WAS My Bear My Comfort, My Joy...My Everything!  Bear Died Today, It Was Bad Weather And He Was On The Road To Me It Was Rocky, Thundering, Lightning, Rainy And Also Had Very High Winds Enough To Bring On A Tornado, Although The News Came On Today Telling Everyone To Stay In There Homes And That It Wasn't Safe To Go Out For A Drive, Bear ...As Always Was Courageous When It Came To His Woman Or As He Called Me His Berry, I Was The Berry For The Bear, Corny But We Always Laughed At It Together So I Wouldn't Care How Anyone Felt Hearing It, It Was Never Embarrassing To Me It Was Cute, We Matched Each Others Humor And Personality, We Were Soulmates. Anyway My Name Is Belinda...But To Him Berry.  Bear Died Today, It Was A Tragic Car Accident I Was SO Excited To See Him And Was Ready To Watch Movies And Cuddle With Him Being So Close Always Warmed My Body No Matter How Cold it Was, But I Wanted Him To Stay Put And To Not Risk Himself For Me, He Didnt f*****g Listen And Now... He's Dead, GOD! I Just Wished He'd f*****g Listened To Me! Tommorow Is His Burial And I Dont Do Funerals Or Caskets Or Death At All, I Dont Even Think I Can Look At Him Just Laying There Instead Of Next To Me Alive And Pure, But I'd Be So f****d Up If I Didn't Have The Courage To See Him Actually It Would Very Much Haunt Me To The Core, I Didn't Want To Be Reminded Of This Incident That Occured With My Boyfriend But It Was So Bad It Was All Over The Television, I Can't Even Watch T.v To Take My Mind Off Of It Everything That Is On Today Is Eaither NEWS About Death, His Car Accident Or Just Weary Ass s**t I Rather Sleep This Day Off Its A Dark Day So Sad So Ugly So Depressing, I Wish I Went To Sleep And Woke Up And This Never Happened I wish It Wasnt December Eaither Close To Christmas, We Could Have Spent Time Together Like We Always Do, If We Lived Together This s**t Wouldnt Have Happened But He Had To Stay With His Mother Beacuse She Was Always Sick And She Didnt Have Noone Else To Look After Her And Bear Loved His Mother, I Couldnt Blame Him He Was Her Only Son He Did Everything He Can To Take Care Of Her On Days When He Was With Me Would Be The Days She Would Be Elsewhere So If There Were Never Anyone There For Her I'd Probably Be There To Beacuse Then I Would Never Have Time With Bear, I On The Other Hand Stay With My Older Sister AnnaLise She's Married With This f*****g Asshole, But She's Always Drunk So She Doesn't Give A f**k About s**t Really...I Feel Sorry For Her She Became A Drunk After She Lost Her Unborn Child Due To An Argument With Her f*****g Asshole Husband, She Still Stays With Him Beacuse He Provides Her With The Things She Needs She Says He Makes Her Life "Easier" But To Me Its Just A Coverup Of Emotions and Its Sick! But Anyway Enough Of Her And...Him I See Them Everyday Its Sickening! Bear Wanted To Move In With Me But He Couldnt Take The Disrespectful SON of A b***h Husband Of My Sister, He Also Wanted To Move Me Into His Mothers Home But It Just Wasnt So Much Of A Good Idea She Didnt Want Noone There Really While She Suffered From Her Sickness, It Was Sad But It Was What She Wanted ...So Now I'm Without Bear And She Is To And Now Living In A Retirement Home For Sick Older Folks I Called and Checked On Her One Time Today But She Was Really Upset And She Didnt Want To Talk To Me Anymore So I'm Just Going To Leave Her Alone I Dont Want To Upset Her Anymore I'm Going To Sleep Until The Next Day .... Today Was Way To Much And Very Unexpected!