Behind his reputation

Ace's POV Sometimes I wonder what's the purpose of my life, it's funny how life can be perfect one moment and the next everything is upside down ,I thought to myself. Everyone sees me as charming and strong Ace because they thought "I handled it well" when my father died and we lost everything to the "Sawyer's Company but the truth is I'm nothing more than a vulnerable emotional wreck that failed to protect my dad. The sad thing about it I don't even know how my father died nobody does which means it's still under investigation they found his body in a abandoned building in the middle of no where. I've heard that it's suicide and people is going around with stupid rumors about my dad being in love with a lady in a mafia and her husband killed him. Life was so perfect all I had to do was look pretty for the ladies and score good grades in order to pursue my career and prove to my dad that I can be successful on my own because he always thought I needed his help and found it odd that I wanted to become a surgeon. I hated that stupid thought of his he only saw things one way but despite all that I loved my dad mindlessly "It's crazy how we always lose the things we love the most", I spat. "what have I done to deserve all this?" ,I sobbed. I've always blamed myself for my father's death but the least I wanna do is make my mother see this vulnerable side of me I needed to stay strong for her ,stay strong for us because she was now two weeks pregnant. We didn't have anyone to ask for money besides my Uncle Grayson but he was mean to us most of the times. Sometimes I'll act like I'm asleep and see my mom sneaking out of the house and come in late at night and I'm so worried about her cause what she's doing ain't healthy for the baby she should be taking rest. We even got in an argument about it once but she ended up crying and I felt guilty so I didn't even bother confronting her again. My head was hurting so much from all that over thinking and crying before I knew it I drifted off to sleep. "Ace", my mom shouted. "Mhmm" I groaned in annoyance, I hated when people woke me from my sleep it's the only peace I could get. "Ace get your lazy ass out of bed you have school in 15 minutes she argued. "School" ?I questioned myself. I totally forgot that today was the first day of school after that short ass spring break that felt like just 2 days I needed more to clear my mind. I hopped out of bed, removed my clothing and wrapped my towel around my torso and headed in the shower. I turned on Shiloh Dynasty because his music is one of the few reasons that keeps me going when I felt relaxed I turned on the shower and started showering. A few minutes after I got dressed in a white t shirt and a black denim jeans and went inside the kitchen and gave my mom a kiss on her forehead. "Ace aren't you gonna eat something first your starving yourself to death"? ,she folded her arms. "I'm not that hungry ",I answered truthfully. I haven't really had an appetite since my father's passing. "mom I said I'm not hungry but then my stomach growled and gave me away and my mom gave me a pointed look. "fine I'll eat ", I said childishly rolling my eyes and she smiled cheerfully. I didn't realize I was that hungry until consuming all that food damn I was full. I walked towards the car smiling because I didn't have to take the bus the students at my school will certainly tease me. It was a red ferrari f12 my dad got me for my 16 birthday. I stepped inside the car and drove off it took about 10 minutes for me to reach school because I was speeding. I looked at my watch and realized I was 25 minutes late but I didn't care one bit better late than never. I stepped outside the car and guess who I saw? It was none other than my stupid annoying ex I hated this brat with a burning passion ,she was the reason why I started sleeping around because I didn't want to get hurt again she cheated on me with my dad's rival when I was on a business tour with my dad and begged for my forgiveness which made me even more sick. "Ace I've missed you so much ",she said in a innocent tone and I wanted to choke the living hell out of her but I wasn't the type to lay my hands on a girl. "Don't act all innocent you evil brat", I spat with annoyance written all over my face. "I'm sorry -she apologized but I cut her off . "what do you want from me Gina"?, I asked impatiently like can't she just disappear already. "It's Jellisia " she corrected folding her arms and swaying her hips I used to love when she did that but now I just wanted to vomit. "whatever" I said nonchalantly. 'I'm so sorry for what happened to your dad' she continued. "I've been trying to call you from the day I heard but you've been ignoring my calls and messages" she spoke but I was blinded by anger the last thing I wanted was for someone to talk about my dad. "Save it and get lost ",I gritted out. "but I miss you " she whispered sadly and I kinda felt bad for her but I never want to get hurt again I can't bare anymore burden on my shoulders. "just go away", I sighed and I watched as she walked away in shame and defeat . I felt some one tapped on my shoulders and I turned around slowly and saw my best friend jaliah . she wasn't exactly rich she came from a middle class family enough to made her live comfortably ,jaliah also dreamed of becoming a surgeon that's one of the reasons we're bestfriends for so long. she had been there for me like my whole life she sticked around through 'thick and thin' I never wanted to lose her she was like a sister to me. "Jaliah",I excitedly and hugged her. "Acy I missed you so much it feels like we haven't seen each other in decades", she exclaimed. 'calm down it's not that long', I said smiling remembering jaliah gave me that nickname when we we're in elementary school I really hated it at first but got used to it because she wouldn't quit on calling me Acy. I'm used to having girls at my feet and sleeping around but having someone I can pour out my soul to is the best form of intimacy . jaliah and I made our way through the hall ignoring the stares and whispering about me as we walked to our first period which was physics. "jaliah and Ace why you so late for class"? , mrs. Grant asked in frustration. "Don't even ask" , I said in a very menacing tone. I wasn't fond of mrs.Grant she was very loud and annoying and expected more from what I could ever give and that s**t annoys the crap out of me. "Ace Grayson to the principal's office now", she ordered challenging me with her eyes. "with pleasure " , I replied shortly and rushed through the classroom door dramatically and the classroom erupted in laughter. I was on my way to the principal's office and then my eyes landed on a girl standing at the door. she was wearing a Grey hoodie that matched her grey converse ,her skin complexion was pale as a ghost she looked like she was somewhat scared but there is no denying that she's really gorgeous. I didn't even realize I was literally gaping at her until our eyes met and that's when I saw the strangest eyes ever it was darker than a lost soul her eyes looked like it held so many sorrows yet it was so captivating. what is wrong with you ace I scolded myself and began walking towards the door she was standing but I couldn't ignore the feelings I was having I never felt it before it was bizarre. "your in my way", I said harshly and her eyes widened in shock. "I'm sorry" ,she said but I wasn't convinced she just gave me a bad feeling I don't know why but I will find out soon i'll make sure of it.