Hush

Depression

In no time, here we were on a private plane.

I could see how spacious and beautiful it was. They must be real rich to have this kind of aircraft! A family that has high net worth or assets because of their big business. Now, I could see the difference between me and Tiffany. It's like heaven and earth.

Perks of having this aviation is we didn't have to wait. There's no queuing for security, boarding and baggage claims. Well, I don't have much things with me. Just my school stuffs, my cellphone and myself.

No passport, visa and ticket. Seolhyun told me that she will take care of it. All I need to do was to come with her.

When she said Tiffany is depressed, I panicked.

Depression is a state of low mood and aversion to activity that can affect a person's thoughts, behavior, and sense of well-being. It's a serious mental health condition that has an impact on both physical and mental health. It's great that I have 'psychology subject' back then.

And I'm worried about it, I don't know if it's serious and I hope it's not.

"Tiffany found out about our conversation before, she saw your notes," Seolhyun glanced at me then looked back at the window.

Oh, I remember she crumpled the paper and put it in her bag before Tiffany got back from the restroom.

I nodded then I realized WHAT THE HECK? TIFFANY ALREADY KNOWS IT?? My brain was processing it slowly. I looked at Seolhyun incredulously "What??"

"You heard it, she knows it. That's why she became alcoholic and stressed. We couldn't control her anymore, she didn't listen to us then it happened. She's depressed and her condition is kinda serious. Sometimes, she forgets us and she attempted suicide!" Seolhyun exclaimed as she wiped her tears but she never looked at my side so I couldn't see her face.

That's terrible, it hurts me just thinking of what happened to my love. It breaks my heart like s**t.

"The doctor said Depression has been linked to memory problems, such as forgetfulness or confusion. She is so stressed about what I did and she hates me a lot. Although she forget me, she never forget that I'm the one to blame," her voice was broken.

I know Seolhyun is just being protective over her younger sister. I understand her and it's sad that this is happening.

"But Taeyeon she never forget you, she always say your name and she has your picture in a frame. She always hold it," I weakly smiled. Tiffany never forget me.

Seolhyun finally looked at me crying "Taeyeon, her condition is becoming worse. She doesn't want to cooperate, she doesn't want to drink her medicine, she doesn't eat much, she's always mad and she's hurting people."

I was speechless, I don't know how to react. I feel sad, numb, sick and my mind couldn't process her words anymore.

Seolhyun held my arm "She needs you Taeyeon, the doctor advised that we have to bring to her the source of this. And yes Taeyeon, it happened because of you. I'm not blaming you, don't get me wrong. Tiffany loves you so much and she can't handle losing you. This is all my fault, I didn't give you a chance and I'm sorry. Please help my sister, help her to recover, please. I'm begging you, bring her back."

I held her hand on my arm and squeezed it, I really do hope that I could help Tiffany. I will do anything for her.

"I will do what I can to help her Seolhyun," I wiped her tears and patter her back to comfort her.

Then surprisingly Seolhyun hugged me. At first, I was taken aback and uncomfortable with it. I'm not mad at her, not anymore but it's just... I felt awkward. Despite of it, I hugged her back. She needed it and I felt her, she was sincere.

"Thank you Taeyeon, thank you so much," she said while sobbing.

I stroked her hair "Everything will be alright, Tiffany will be fine."

This is my effect to Tiffany, gosh, I feel guilty.

I love Tiffany but when she left me, I'm not depressed just sad and hurt. Is this a sign that I'm bad for her? It's too much reaction from her.

But I made up my mind, I will never leave her. I will do anything to make her better.

This time, I promise that I will always be with Tiffany. It's my turn to do the effort. I love her and I will show it to her, I will show it to everyone.

And foremost, I want her to feel my love.

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