Hush

Unexpected

My body flopped on the couch, I was holding a can beer while my eyes lazily glued on TV.

I was watching Fifty Shades of Grey like it was just a kiddy program. s*x scenes didn't even affect my hormones and I feel nothing but just s**t.

I was planning to go back to California, the place where I was born.

The place which accepted me being me.

The place where I feel free to show who I really am and I'm confident being myself.

The place where I should be, not here.

My phone vibrated, I didn't mind to check it.

I just want to do nothing.

Even the beer didn't hit me. Maybe I should drink hard like my favorite, Jack Daniels.

My phone vibrated again.

Maybe it's Yul, should I ask her to join me? Kinda guilty ignoring her so I took my phone and opened the message.

I paused for a moment staring at my phone.

Is this real? Am I dreaming or what?

Noooo... yeah?

Taeyeon texted me.

TAEYEON?

Taeyeon: Tiffany?

Received, 6:45 pm

Taeyeon: Please reply.

Received, 6:50 pm

Why? Why would she text me now?

Tiffany: What?

Immediately, she replied.

Taeyeon: You don't text me anymore.

Tiffany: I thought you don't want to. You rejected me and I know you're disgusted with me.

Taeyeon: I didn't say that I'm disgusted, yes I rejected you on a date and I said that I don't like you. :(

I stiffened and became alert, my heart was pounding and I hate that I was still hoping for something.

Tiffany: Why now? Why you're saying this to me?

Taeyeon: Because I lied.

I was speechless. She lied? I got confused.

Taeyeon: I rejected you without thinking, I felt that we're doing it fast. And also, knowing that Nick likes you made me that decision.

I'm hurt because I know Nick is more important than me.

Tiffany: I will never like him, I'm just being honest. You don't know what I've gone through just to move on from that. I was hurt, no I'm hurt. I questioned myself, my personality because of what happened.

I stood up then paced back and forth.

Taeyeon: I was wrong, that was new to me. Nick talked to me after he saw you in the club. I'm hurt to know how I affected you. I'm sorry I'm just confused.

Tiffany: Don't worry, you won't be confused anymore. I'm planning to go back to Cali.

Taeyeon: No please Tiffany, don't go. Don't leave me. Please...

My heart melted with that, she's begging me to stay. I swallowed hard trying to contemplate what's happening.

Taeyeon: Please open your door, I'm in front of your apartment.

Suddenly, I became conscious, nervous and happy. So much emotions to feel.

Eottoke? What do I do?? I bit my thumb's nail as I panicked then I looked in the mirror, I wiped my whole face and fixed my hair.

Knowing that she's just outside, it made me feel antsy about it.

Taeyeon: Please, let me see you Tiffany.

Then knocks on my door made me jump, I quickly walked and stopped in front of the door. I was ready to open it, she kept knocking though.

I fixed myself again then I frantically opened it slowly revealing her, Taeyeon.

Her eyes were bloodshot and puffed, she cried and still.

I mustered all the confidence now, thanks to the beer, I will tell her everything I have to.

"Yes maybe I'm a leabian for liking you, I don't know what you've done to me because I can't get you out of my head." I started and she's just looking straight to me.

"When you rejected me, I feel useless and disgusted with myself. What's wrong with me? Actually I don't wanna see you Taeyeon," that's a lie.

"I saw you in Babeans and you made me feel that I'm different like I have a virus and will infect you! You just boxed me in that word, you and Nick! You just think of me that I'm a stupid lesbian following my heart! And now you're here? I don't know what-"

I was cut off when she grabbed the back of my neck and kissed me on lips!

Taeyeon was kissing me! My mind automatically shutdown.

I could feel that heat inside me as I closed my eyes and lost to her sweet soft lips. It was enchanting and I'm under her spell.

It was simple and short but has a huge impact to me, my head was spinning.

Taeyeon gently pulled away and faced me. I was stunned and my mouth slightly fell opened like a fish.

Taeyeon started clicking on her phone then looked at me, my phone vibrated.

I received text from her.

Taeyeon: I like you Tiffany and I regret every minute that passed since I rejected you.

She continued typing message again.

Taeyeon: In the coffee shop, I acted like that because I'm jealous. You're already dating a girl. I didn't see you for few days and when I did, you showed me you have a date. I was worried to you and I'm hurt seeing you with other girl.

Taeyeon: I'm freak, worthless and I can't talk. I don't deserve you, those reasons made me push you away. I'm sorry for being weak but please, let's try it. Let's start all over again?

I held Taeyeon's face like it was the most precious thing in the world, she's crying and after reading her texts made me too.

"You're not freak, just different in a good way. You can't talk and we can't do anything about that. I already accepted you Taeyeon and you're worthy. You don't know how much I'm happy that you're here, okay, let's start fresh again," I kissed her forehead.

"But maybe, let's go inside?" I offered. Taeyeon nodded and smiled.

I wiped her tears "You always make me dreamy with that smile Taeyeon. What did you do to me?"

Taeyeon giggled.

I winked at her and intertwined our hands.

"Let's go inside," I looked so cool but I was trembling and butterflies began to fill my stomach again.

But this time, I'm more comfy with her. My heart was nervously happy when she's near.

I thanked god for this night, one of the best nights ever.

Me and Taeyeon are officially dating.

I thought it was impossible to happen but this was real, I was holding her warm soft hand.

I'll get use to it.

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