Hush

Flashback

From now on, I will use Taeyeon's POV.

After Tiffany excused herself to go to the restroom, I felt nervous being alone with her sister. She seemed kind and she's really beautiful but yeah, Tiffany is the most beautiful girl for me.

I'm happy because she introduced me to her sister, I feel important once again.

Tiffany is one of the greatest blessings that God gave me. She always make me feel love as well as secured and safe. With her, I don't have to pretend and force myself to do something that I don't like. I can be me without pressure, without judgement.

Since I met her, I knew she will be a big part of my life and now, she owns my heart. Cheesy but I think I'm falling for her. She's not difficult to love and she's amazing.

So I motivate myself, I always try to speak every single day just for her because I want to tell her how thankful I am that I have her. She studied sign language for me so I should do something in return.

I know, she's not asking anything in return but I want to do it because she's a special girl to me.

"So you are Tiffany's girlfriend?" Seolhyun asked waking me up from my trance.

I nodded and smiled.

"She looks smitten by you," she commented.

I got a piece of paper from my notebook and wrote there, "I really like Tiffany" then I showed it to her.

Seolhyun raised her eyebrows "You really can't talk?"

I wrote again and showed it to her "I promise I will try my best to bring back my voice"

Seolhyun just nodded "What is your parents' work?"

I scribbled "My father is a teacher"

"Teacher? How about your mother?" She asked.

I shook my head.

"Never mind, as you see. We're different. Our status in life are far from each other. And to be honest, I don't like you," she frankly said.

It hurts me a lot. Tiffany's sister doesn't like me, that's bad.

"I know we're not rich"

Seolhyun folded her arms over her chest.

"But my intention is good" I tried to convince her.

"I don't care about your intention but I want the best for my sister and as I see you, you're not the best for her. You can't see it but you have full control over her. You're bad for her. You're ambitious to think that you will have her. Gold digger. Anyway, Tiffany is an awesome, smart and kind girl. Do you think you deserve her with your condition?" She said with an attitude.

Her words hit me hard, straight to my heart. I'm not a gold digger! And what condition? I'm not sick or something! I just can't talk and yes, I'm trying my best with it but one thing made me question myself, do I deserve Tiffany? She always do everything for me but me? I've done nothing yet. I'm useless, worthless. I just realized it.

I don't deserve her and I feel guilty.

"Yes I don't deserve Tiffany I'm no good for her"

"Good that you know that Taeyeon," Seolhyun smirked. "You're not that dumb as I thought."

"I think I love her" I mean it.

"If you really love Tiffany, break up with her. She deserve better than this," she taunted.

I merely nodded.

"Do you understand me Taeyeon? I want an answer," she demanded as she smacked the table.

I flinched and scrawled on the paper "Yes I understand"

"Very good... and I hope this conversation will just remain between the two of us," Seolhyun took the piece of paper, crumpled it and put it in her bag.

Just in time, Tiffany went back with her eye smile and all negative emotions vanished.

She's my vitamin.

That night I tried my best to act normal like nothing happened.

I have to do what's best for Tiffany and her sister is right, I'm not the best for her. I hope I can handle the pain.

I love Tiffany and this is the only thing I can do for her, to free and let her go because she deserve someone better.

And it's not me.

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