Fear Me Mate

SUMMERS POV  Im Summer Ann i dont bother with my last name as i dont bother with my family anymore. And no its not one of those things where i hated my family and blah blah blah.  I got tired of everything being done for me, im the their born to the Alpha king and the Luna Queen Theo and Ella of the Blood Stone pack.  I hated the Alpha training i was being put through along with the royal life in general, all the meetings and royal balls, i hated it. So i gave up my life and became rogue, my parents have announced i was dead a year ago. I do miss my family alot but i needed to go my own way. Two years on my own as a rogue its been hard but worth it, not everyone knows who i am other do and try to kill me but its the life out here, i stay away from packs the best i can ive run into a few, but all have been good in counters.  I found refuge outside of the Eclipse pack, i havent run into to many of them, i have a few just cuz they know my scent from school, i do go to the same school as the Eclipse pack but its on neutral territory so anyone can go even rogues. There are very few schools like this but its better then nothing, rogues do get bullied and what not there are alot more fights between pack members and rogues not always but it is what it is.  I try to keep to my self as i do have the royal birth mark which is just a crown on my shoulder i do cover it up when i can sometimes i do forget and my wolf Gray reminds me.  Friends out here are slim to nun i have two friends within the Eclipse pack the Beta and Delta females, if their mates knew we were friends id probably be dead.  Theres Roxanne or Roxy whos the Beta female, shes two years older then me, but in the same grad as she failed many times not giving a s**t about school but our kind doesnt need it anyway, Roxy is 5'7  shes a tiny ginger she keeps our little group interesting thats for sure.  Then theres Jessa the baby of our group shes 16, about 5'5 and our quiet brown headed girl, shes the more quiet one n more worried about school.  Then theres me the outcast i call my self as i am a rogue but they dont see it, i got long blonde hair blue eyes and i stand around 5'5 to 5'6, im not as loud as Roxy or as quiet as Jessa but i help hold us together.  ************************************ We just had a long weekend so which means lots of homework for us, the teachers are d***s and hate everyone, well us rogues anyways we always have problems, i keep to my self as best as i can so the teachers dont have problems with me.  I walked to school its about 7:45 school starts at 8 15, i walked up to the school parking lot, alot of the pack was in their clicks along with the rogues, every morning Roxy and Jessas mates dropped them off, their mates didnt mind me and i didnt mind them. "Summer" i heard turning to Jessa i walked over to them Jessa was with her mate Ruben, he has short black hair blue eyes and stands about 6ft, then theres Milo Roxys mate, he has dirty blonde hair and brown eyes is almost the same height as Ruben.  "Hey guys how was the long weekend" i asked  "Not bad alpha had us training most of it" Roxy snorted "Hey i gave him the idea hun" Milo chuckled  "Asshole i had to cancel my nail appointment" Roxy whined  i laughed "You got your nails done last then 2 weeks ago"  "Shes got a point Roxy" Jessa added  "I cant help but change my mind" Roxy pouted  We all laughed at her  "So Summer what did you do" Ruben asked  "Well i stayed at my den and slept most of it, did homework and went on a hunt" i said "You went hunting without us" Jessa gasped as if she was hurt by it "Oh no worries babe we will go sometime" i blow her a kiss  Ruben growled and we laughed he knew we where joking, us girls all flirted with each other which made their mate jelly  "Down boy" Jess said slapping ruben playfully, the bell for school rang  "See you after school" the boys said kissing their mates it always made me want my mate to have someone in my life again but yet i wanted my freedom too.  But where does one draw the line between happiness and freedom it wither or not you can. I wonder if my mate is looking for me somedays, and if hes in a pack or rogue like me.  I dont want the pack life yet ive enjoyed doing stuff for my self.  Its all the what ifs. How can i make my self happy but along with my wolf we are one yes but both have different feelings and wants but same needs.  How can i help both of us be happy i stay a rogue which helps me and makes me happy, or find my mate and a pack to make my wolf and mate happy, but where do i fit or my wolf. its a battle between me and her that never ends.  We both understand where we are coming from but we both want different things