THE CLUTCHES OF SIN

EPISODE ONE I was known as a saint to everyone who knew me but on the inside I was not what I seem.I was always willing to work hard but everything changed when I gave in to sin.At the age of nine our family friend came for a visit and as little as I was I went to him and collected his phone to play game,he willing gave it to me.I became bored playing game and decided to watch some videos. I scrolled all the videos and they were all blue films,I wasn't aware so I decided to give it a try as I became curious.I felt disgusted but then I found them more interesting 😔I fixed all my mind,body, spirit and soul into it and that was how my challenge started.Whatever I just watched kept on playing in my head so clearly and I couldn't resist.I started using my pillow to satisfy myself at the age of ten.When I turned 12 I had this hidden lust for guys as I grew but would never show it.I gave my life to christ half heatedly and thought I had overcome that spirit but more sins continued to introduce themselves.After I was done with my secondary school,I told my parents to allow me work for a year before I go to the university.I got a job at a school and it was willing to pay well.I.didnt really like being a teacher but then I had no degree to work at a bank cos I loved to be an accountant.Teaching was my only option.Another challenge I faced back then was that I always had dysmenorrhea.The pain always abates in the evening.The day my period came I had the urge to masturbate after few months of avoiding it.I couldn't resist it and so I fell for it again😔.It dawned on me that I had sinned again and I quickly went on my knees and started praying,a voice just whispered to me "God must be tired of hearing your fake prayers everyday,repent when you have finished enjoying life"I don't know why but I fell for it and stopped praying😫 by the way I'm not the first to do it.I woke up late the next day and got to work late.I stayed in the school till in the evening because I wasn't ready to go home but I was hungry.On my way back home I met this young man,I was tired and not in the mood for conversations yet he seemed nice and persuaded me,at the end we exchanged contacts and he promised to give me a call.He offered me transport of which I didn't refuse.I got back home and didn't even eat again.I drifted off to sleep and had a weird dream