Cosmic Chaos!

The things I never knew.

Somehow, the day I first started hearing the radio guy Lucas’ weird knowledge, it made me wonder and question everything that I knew. Of course, it is basically the same as you being in a lecture, listening and learning about new, weird and amazing things. But listening to science and, on the other hand, listening to economics, the university course I was studying for, both have their common and uncommon things.

I was in my second year of studying at the University of Economical Sciences, located near our hometown, one of the best universities out there for economy. I was more focused on business management, knowing the fact that my father owns a couple of businesses. One of them was a wine company, of for which we have a big farm, and we specialized in producing a high-quality wine and were a large distributor all over the country. Meanwhile, we had just started producing cheese and dairy products, but mostly we were focused on making a combination between the quality wine and a very tasty cheese to go along with it. My father was actually a brilliant mastermind. The other business my family owns is a sport-products shop and factory. For that, we would produce a lot of equipment and other accessories, and furnish all the gyms and houses in the area, and moreover, we had been in the national market for a while. As you can see, I was raised as a pretty rich girl, and to be honest, I had almost everything prepared for the future.

When I first started going to school, they had the expectations that I would pretty much be some sort of scientific genius or something. To be honest, I never lived up to that hype. The one who did live up to that hype was my younger sister, but that is another story to be told. Actually, I have honestly always loved science, probably due to the fact of the expectations of me becoming a genius. I loved to read the colored science books, loved the science-fiction movies and TV-shows with cartoons and I was always asking about everything that was happening around me. I was strangely and interestingly enough the most curious kid you could meet. I’d say I had a type of an unmatched energy since I was a little kid. They would always tell me when I was growing up that you used to have the most energy out of all of us. But they also used to ask me where that energy went to, because when I started middle-school, I became a very silent girl. My grandmother always used to say to me, the ones who are very talkative and have big energy when they are kids, won’t be the same when they grow up and may even become the exact opposite. Well, I guess that counted for me too.

But I never lost interest in science, until high school came and found me unprepared. Until the 7th grade, I actually had the highest grades in school, but after puberty things weren’t the same anymore. The reason? Well, first it was the body changes, then the feeling of starting to grow up, those feelings for friends and especially for boys, teenage hormones growing inside of me and just personally starting to understand everything that was happening around me... These were the many events that really changed the type of person I am, made me who I am today, the shy and silent girl you meet at first. Meanwhile, during this period, I started losing my excellent grades and I quickly lost the status of the best student. And to be honest I didn’t care that much. And not for the fact that I didn’t learn as much as I could. It was the fact that some subjects were not a point of my interest, and one of them was physics. I sucked at physics. I hated physics. Even though I loved those science experiments, damn it, my mind couldn’t catch anything the teacher was saying. And I just gradually started losing the interest I may have previously had in physics. Moreover, we did have a terrible old teacher on physics, and I honestly think, this was one of the reasons I started hating physics. Her presence gave me quite a negative vibe. That is why a good mentor and teacher is everything nowadays. But who was I to tell that to my physics teacher, as a 13-year-old girl, who wasn’t the best student at school anymore.

One thing I always hated is that people expect so much from you, and If you don’t give them what they want, they just disappear. Well, as I told before, I was coming from a rich family, with all the opportunities to learn and become the greatest student and everybody expected that. No one said the opposite of that. They all wanted me to be a mastermind of everything due to the fact that I was rich. I tell those people to this day, don’t push people to become something they are not meant to be. The thing I used to do best when I became 13, was working with my dad and preparing documents on the computer for him and also helping him with analysis of the business and how it could become even better. And that is why I will always love my father. He is and will be the biggest supporter I have. He knew that I wasn’t meant to become neither a great genius, nor a fascinating scientist. He knew that in my genes, flowed the talent for money and business. So he pushed and supported me to become a business manager. He always used to say that he didn’t care at all if I did bad in physics or any other subject that I used to do bad in. He always said to me that if you only do that one thing that you are great at and you do it with passion, only the sky is the limit for you. To conclude, he was the person that from his point of view understood that I was meant to be something else, not what everyone expected and predicted for me in elementary school. Imagine predicting someone’s life since elementary school. Everything changes, even the body changes, so those predictions mostly fail. My father was not only my father, he was my best friend, teacher, mentor and everything you could wish for. Damn, how much I miss him. It really does hurt me.

However, what Luis told me was just like when a little kid opens a Christmas present and they get super shocked of what is inside. Luis believed me, and for real, somehow, I made sense while telling the story. But he wasn’t sure about my prediction unless it was scientifically proven, because otherwise their studies wouldn’t make any sense at all. I was being careful about only one thing. Luis in the future knew that the asteroid would collide, but Luis in the past doesn’t, moreover he claims that his calculations are correct. So how did he know about it? How did he find out about it? It can’t be a last-minute information kind of thing because he said that he knew the upcoming future for a while. So how would he know that in 2021 but not now? Damn it, I better not tell this part of the story, or I would confuse that guy more than he actually is. Or wait, was I supposed to come back in the past and tell him? That would make the story more confusing because It means that this has happened before, and is probably happening all over again. Someone, just explain to me, what the hell is going on?

We sat for a couple of days together with Luis, and he used to make some weird sketches on his whiteboard on the office. Some planets were drawn, some magnetic fields to make the lines more confusing and some weird particles around there to make it even more like an ancient painting. And I was just sitting there, as a freshman student in quantum physics. I still couldn’t understand how as smart of a person as Luis was, could work at a radio station. He was literally a genius. I am not lying. This guy took what I knew to another level. At one moment we sat down to talk about how I got here. Luis had invited his professor and the son to come there to discuss about this case. They would be arriving in a few days so until then, I was the only one he could talk to about this. And his level of passion about unimaginable stuff as my story was, was outstanding.

Luis created a theory of his about me being able to time-travel without any advanced equipment, UFO’s or things like that. Luis thought that somehow, during the approaching moment of the asteroid, the magnetic field of the planet started to change, releasing more energy than normal. The fact that I crashed into the lake, made him think that somehow it was connected to the surface of the lake and the rocks that are underground. Somehow, Luis thought the lake could have a higher energy on the inside, due to its special rocks, and the fact that the atmosphere was changing during the approach of the asteroid, that energy was released in a high volume, causing an open portal. Luis had to explain it simple to me, sing the example of the Bermuda Triangle. And I started to understand it a little. This of course wasn’t all that he said to me, that is simply all I can remember. Or to say it better, this is all I can explain myself. The fact that I was driving at a high speed, and meanwhile the lake was opening a portal of energy, along with the high amount of acceleration and crash, made me transfer somewhere momentarily into another dimension of space and time. And then somehow, I ended up 5 years before the event. Also, he said that this is impossible to happen in theory and practice, but nevertheless I ended up being part of the history of science somehow. He said that this needed to be studied, starting from the lake’s surface and the underwater, and also how an asteroid could make this type of effect on the planet.

I was so confused daily. When I started explaining these stories to Jessica and Joshua, they were like, well that meme of Nick Young, the basketball player, in which he is so confused. That was the exact expression they had on their faces. Well, maybe I didn’t explain that perfectly enough, but please, I was confused too. I actually still thought, even though Luis tried to find and give me a perfect explanation, there was a reason why I was here, that could not be explained scientifically or like I was chosen for this thing. Maybe Luis didn’t have the full story, or maybe I didn’t want to influence this part of the future. I told you, I have seen movies, a lot of them. And I could not make that mistake, at least for the moment, unless I knew that the information I could give would not change the events of the future. At the moment I didn’t know I was doing the right thing, but later on, I realized, that I did the right thing, and at the right moment to do so.

Months were passing, and day by day I was becoming more anxious that nothing was on the way of becoming better. Even though I had big support by my side, I felt as we still didn’t know anything about what happened to me, and how to prevent it from happening again. Maybe I had been through a lot, and had lost many things and I was adapting to the new life I had. But I trusted Luis a lot, I could feel his passion, I could feel that he took this thing with importance, and he really wanted to help me. I knew he was also interested in this project for his personal reasons too, but for sure none of those reasons would hurt me. He knew that and that is why I trusted him.

I was checking my family on social media and I was feeling sadder each day. You know I got that new phone, and seeing those families’ pictures with me in there, while I wasn’t there, was as if I was looking at myself in a mirror, but I wasn’t real, I was just the reflection. I remembered every event, every birthday and that is what made me feel quite sad. I hadn’t appreciated the things that mattered to me quite enough. But Jessica and Joshua, as they could see my face, could see me being sad, tried to comfort me, making me feel as I had people around who supported me, and moreover, to make me feel that I was actually real, even thought there was still another person around there the same as me. They wanted to make me feel as I was not the reflection of myself, I was a real person, just part of an unexplainable accident.

At work I was doing fine, I was making new friends, I also had made my favorite clients and everything was going perfectly well to be honest. But I became that type of person, that even when something was good for a long time, well I had my doubts that something really bad would happen and it would change that in just a second. I had become a little paranoid to be honest. But how can you blame me for this? I couldn’t get sleep very well, because my brain was always coming up with different intrusive questions. Every day was another day of me thinking of another conspiracy theory in my head. And I could make a book only out of these conspiracy theories. That is how I was feeling. But I would also appreciate every moment of being able to live. The one thing that gave me hope, was the fact that I was meant for something big, and I just had to believe and wait, as nothing would get any worse.

One morning, I received a call from Luis. And my heart started beating rapidly when I heard his words.

- “Martha, you need to come here to the station, the professor is here, his son too. We will find out what happened and we will help you. We need you to be here.”

At that moment, I took a deep breath and thought, okay, I need to discover the truth, and I am the only one who can help them discover the real truth. As much as I needed them, they needed me more. It was time for me to be part of the biggest discovery the world would ever see.