Love in different forms

"Nikias wake up you'll be late for school." As I hear my moms footsteps walk away from my door I just know she’s in a bad mood. Mornings, I don't like them. There supposed to be filled with birds chirping, sun shining, and the smell of pancakes but not in this house, here we get doors closed in faces and hushed whispers at the table. I curse whoever made mornings a thing! All of a sudden I hear bang bang bang on my door and a very annoying voice. "You lazy ass get up!" That would be my little brother who thinks he's all grown up but in reality he's only 13. Shut up Max I'm up! Now go away!" Getting up out of bed I just throw on the first thing I see which would be my favorite oversized grey sweater that I keep on stock and black skinny jeans. Passing my mirror I notice how I look. I have glasses that frame my face and bright blue eyes that seem to shine like a thousand stars or that's what my dad used to say. But lately they have been dull grey. My frame is average and nothing special to look at, no junk in the trunk but the one thing I do have is my chest. I hate my chest it’s way to big. It's like a boob fairy comes in my room at night and attaches a bike pump to them and goes to work. Oh let’s not forget my hair, It looks messy as normal and is light brown and down almost to my butt and very very wavy. My mom always told me my hair is like a goddess's hair but I don't like it at all, but now it’s tangled and dull. I don’t like my hair not one bit so I pull it up in a very messy bun and call it good. Going downstairs, I see my mom sitting at the table. "Morning mom." She doesn't even look my ways lol she does is grunts in response. We lost my father to suicide three years ago and now she blames me I'm not sure why. Walking out to my car I stop when I hear Kevin laughing. thinking he was walking up to me I turn around to not only to disappointed that he’s not there but to witness his kissing but i see he’s in a car kissing alex. Alex is my best friend, she has been living next door to me since third grade but seeing her kissing my boyfriend i was angry! My boyfriend and best friend are making out! I can't, I can't do, no i have to go, I have to go. Instead of driving I start running to school, by the time I get there alex is waiting at my locker. Her hair isn't as perfect as it normally is, it's all messy and her lipstick was smeared a little. "hey nik where were you? I waited for you at your house. Did you forget that you were supposed to drive me to school?" LIES!! "oh sorry I got up early and walked to school." "Whatever. Ok so I'm thinking about what we should do for prom and i think” as the bell rang I barely heard what alex was saying as she walked off to our class all I could think about was her lips on his. I just have to pretend like nothing happened. that's right, nothing happened. The late bell rings and I'm still debating if I should stay or run. Ugh why do i have to be such a good student! As I get to class my teacher just nods her head. I'm a decent student. I get good grades and I get things done. I don't like being called upon so they never do. I just keep my head down, especially today i don't want anyone to know how i feel. I just want to fade into the distance. Tuning back in to my teacher I realize she’s talking about a new student?