LOVING MY BEAST

CONFESSIONS

I look up and inhale a familiar cologne, Alexander. “And may I know what’s got you two laughing so hard.” “Nothing.” Tyler responded with a smirk. “I see. Well we have to be on our way.” Without waiting for answer he grabbed my and dragged me into the car. I noticed Tyler resumed a strange look in his eyes, it was so familiar that I felt terrified.  “What where you talking about.” Alexander’s word pulled me away from my thoughts. I knew better than to lie to him so a confessed. “We were talking about you.” “What about me?”  “How umm.” I couldn’t just tell him we were comparing his ego to the size of Asia. “Well… how you save lives every day is admirable.” He was silent for a while and then nodded though he knew I was lying.

When we reached the mansion I alighted first with Alex closely tailing behind me. I was about to ascend the staircase when he called out to me “Who’s jacket is that?” I looked down and realized I didn’t return Tyler’s Jacket to him. I looked at Alex and noticed he had resumed a dark expression it he looked like he would lash out any moment from now. I tried explaining “I was cold so…” Before I could finish the jacket was forcefully ripped of me off me. Then the unexpected happened I was engulfed in a warm hug.

“Don’t ever run off like that. My heart almost stopped beating. I can’t afford to leave you again or else I’ll really lose it. I know I can compete in the competition for the biggest asshole and win but… I still can’t let you go. Believe me I have tried when I left that small town and you, I felt that a big part of me had been ripped away. I thought I could forget you by having other women around but anytime I look at their them I keep seeing your beautiful face, you’re heartwarming voice and that flawless skin of yours. Just as I was about to be driven to insanity you came into my life again. From that moment I swore I’ll never let you go. I swore to be a better person to you. I’m sorry for being an ass, for all the pain I’ve caused you. I won’t mind you giving it back to me ten times over. 

Please I can’t lose you, ever because… I love you. If I lose you I might just-” Before he could finish that dreadful sentence I sealed his lips with mine. This sudden heartfelt confession was a bit shocking and I was confused and scared at how happy that made me. Claire Nora Rivers you have successfully gone mad. After all he’s done I was still ready to forgive him. Why? I don’t know either.

 After a few seconds I looked up and saw his bright blue orbs for the first time fill with warmth. I smiled as his lips met mine and we engaged in a passionate exchanged. His lips trailed down my neck giving me soft kisses. A small moan escaped my lips when he reached below my collar bone. He carried me to his room and lay me down gently on the king size bed not breaking away from the kiss he slowly discarded my clothes then his

. His kisses trailed down my neck kissing and sucking. I felt myself become moist down there while my n*****s hardened in pleasure. He took one n****e in his mouth while he fondled the other and his skillful tongue gave me pleasure. Are you ready he whispered for permission and I nodded. When his tip touches my entrance I moaned in pleasure only increasing my voice as he went deeper.

  Before the sun came out we sent each other’s bodies to cloud nine. I am now hell off sure I will need my crutches back as Alexander didn’t let me go until the c**k crowed. We went to sleep wrapped in each other’s arms that night I only hope that this moment will not be …short-lived.

I woke up to the most breathtaking sight. Alexander lay there tired from last night’s activities. I feel my cheeks go hot when I remember myself shamelessly screaming his name not to stop. I bite my lower lip and cup his face and caress his cheeks. My thumps glossed over his beautiful pink lips repeatedly. His well-defined jaws paired with his thin lips scream pure Greek god.

 His closed eye lids prevent me from getting lost in his electric blue eyes. I smile and move up to kiss his forehead only to have his strong arm encircle my waist and his face, buried in my bosom. “So comfortable.” He muttered in a sleepy voice. “A-Alex get off.” I feel the tips of his recently shave beard rub against my breast, tickling me in the process. He doesn’t budge, I take it that he is doing this subconsciously but that thought completely shattered with his next words. “Ready for round four.” As my n****e finds its way into and out his mouth making me moan.

Look down and find that he has rested his chin on my boobs and looking right at me with his seductive ocean eyes. I am mesmerized just when I was about to answer *GROWL! ~~* My stomach decides to remind me where all that energy from last night came from. I curse but mentally thank my stomach for speaking on my behalf cause I’m sure that whatever will be coming out of my mouth was not words.

He chuckles “When you’re done eating meet me at the gym.” He says as kisses me and gets dress. I get the chance to visually devour him While he stands the with his abs on full display. I get up and brush my teeth heading down stairs too. After I make myself some sandwiches and practically devour it I head to the gym I find him sitting on a bench lifting weights. His muscles flex as his hand go up and down. I bit my lips and felt my n****e harden and my little friend down there twitch as I continue to observe his perfectly tone muscle imagining them wrapped around me.

I managed to catch myself before my fantasies got the best of me and got on the treadmill. After some time, I stopped the machine and realized over eating and exercise does not sit well. I leaned on the machine still panting when a pair of strong arm wrapped around me and his face buried in the crook of my neck.

I turn around to meet him his 6’3 height towers over my 5’8 frame. He cups my cheeks with his palms, smiling with his pearly white teeth. His dreamy smile captivated me making my loose guard. I don’t know how or when our lips connected but it was enough to communicate our feelings towards each other.

I managed to push him away slightly and he allowed me to. “You need a bath then have breakfast.” A say with bated breath and kiss him on the cheek before I run away with the speed of light. ‘How could I forget. So stupid.’ I run up the stairs hoping it’s not too late.

After several minutes of searching I couldn’t find it. I begin to panic. I could swear I kept them in the bed side drawer. I decided to check it once more to make sure my eyes weren’t playing tricks on me. I reach my hands into the drawer when I heard him “You won’t find it there.” A deep voice resonates I turn to him and find he just finished showering. “Huh?” “I threw them away.” A wave of shock passed through me as I stood their wide eyes. “What?” “You won’t need them.” He answered in tone that left no room for discussion.

“No, no, no you don’t understand.” I turn around to leave. At this moment I am prepared to dig through the trash to find it. Before I could reach the door knob some grabbed my arm and slammed my back against the wall. I shrieked at the impact. He pressed his body against mine preventing me from running away.

“You are mine Claire Rivers even if I have to put my heir in you to keep you with me I will do. I will put my heir in you and make you Mrs. Claire White.”

“How sure are you that your heir will survive long enough in me to be born.” I muttered subconsciously and he heard me Loud. And. Clear.

He was quite for a few seconds I could tell he was surprised even though my head was down. “He will. I will make sure of it.” “Alex please don’t do this to me. Please I’m begging you. Don’t put me through that nightmare again or this time I might just lose it.” My voice was pleading and shaky. I shake my head in fear of reliving those moments. 

He grabbed my chin and made me look him in the eye. “You don’t have a choice. Don’t forget your life is in my hands. I call the shots, got that?” He then left with his face red with anger, he looked like a beast ready to rip anything that gets in its path to shreds.

The second the door slammed shut signaling that I’m alone I but into a series of never ending sob. Alexander White I love him I do but starting a family with him was something I couldn’t bring myself to do. I am to broken. I can’t relive those horrible moments. I’m scared. I hate myself for not being able to say ‘No.’  I hate myself for being weak against him. He has hurt me so much but I can’t bring myself to hate him. Why, why can’t I hate him. I am a strong girl everyone knows that you saw how I stood my ground against his mother’s venomous words but he is not human he’s a monster he is…a beast and…the only one I’m afraid of.

I continue sobbing only hoping that that moment made it so that I couldn’t get pregnant easy.

The weekend goes by in a flash. It’s Monday, Alex went to work early he said some urgent work that needed to be taken care of. I sat in my room working. In case you didn’t know I’m a novel author specializing in sci-fi. I occasionally get called to write movie scripts though I don’t normally go to the set unless it’s absolutely necessary that I’m needed.

I finish my work and hit send when my phone with an incoming message. My eyes widen in shock when I see the contents of the message.

[UNKNOWN: Hi. I know you might have no idea who I am but it’s important we talk or the will be terrible regrets later on. Meet me at this location. XXXXX}

The location sounded familiar. What was that, regrets? I immediately got up and got dressed. What I was doing was stupid meeting up with a stranger who could pose dangerous. But I felt she could trust him I quietly sneaked out dodging the servants and guards. Since the mansion was on top of a mountain in which he basically owned I had to walk down since no public transport was allowed here. Reaching the base of the mountain I had to walk another thirty minutes before I hailed a taxi. In the car I noticed a lot of luxurious villas. Soon I reached my destination I offered payment but the driver politely declined and sped off. I found it very off.

 I searched around for the messenger. I saw a man at the end of the floating dock in an expensive looking wheel chair just as I was about to gain his attention he spoke first “Isn’t it beautiful?” I was caught by surprise but managed to squeeze out a yes. “Do you remember.” His emerald eyes warmly gazed at me. His words brought sudden strong wave of déjà vu. Suddenly strong memories flashed through her mind and she teared up without noticing. I brought my hand to my eyes and wiped a stray tear.

Narrator’s POV

She looked at her hands wet with a tears, she was very shocked by her subconscious reaction. “Tears?” “You remember don’t do.” He said in a soft voice as his green eyes stared right into her.  Then realization hit her. “A-Adrian?” She muttered not sure whether she was asking a question or proclaiming.

He chuckled “How have you been. I’m sorry Claire for not protecting you. I’m sorry for causing you so much pain. I hope you could find it in your heart to forgive…”   Before he could finish she pounced on him embracing him in a loving hug. “i***t couldn’t you even sent me a post card?” “This i***t sincerely apologizes.” They laughed and talk about goofy things like before, catching up on old times then the atmosphere got serious.

“Claire I love you.” He confessed out of nowhere, she was petrified. “Huh.” “I know you still love him. Now more than ever. I just wanted you to know that I am willing to stay you big brother. It’s your happiness that matters. Okay.” He blurted out with a pained expression. She nodded and hugged giving him a kiss on the fore head. Then they gazed at the sunset on the river with ear to ear smiles.

Claire POV

“Adam Wood.” I say his new name as if testing it on my tongue. I remember it like it was yesterday. Adrian Walter was my only friend since childhood. Throughout his life he has been confined to a wheel chair. We were neighbors, Adrian was a year older than me but we still became best off friends. I told him everything, everything. 

He was the first person to notice when I had my first period and saved me from embarrassment when I stained my turquoise dress by helping me cover the stain till I got to the bathroom and offered me a change of clothes. He was the first to know when I had my second crush. Adrian was my first but he pretended he didn’t know.

My second was Alex. He moved into our small town when I was fifteen. Adrian left when I was sixteen we met at that exact place to say our goodbyes. He went to Russia but his plane went down in a crash. I tried calling him several times but couldn’t reach him. My heart sunk and I sobbed accepting the fact that he died. Seeing him today made me feel at ease.

Adam had his driver drop me off in front of the mansion. I walk in with a huge smile on my face only to have it wiped away by a cold dangerous voice. “Have fun?” “I…I.” I stuttered trying to explain myself. “You what? Trying to rekindle an old flame.” He looked angry but I could sense hurt in his voice. Am I that of a beast. “Actually it was the opposite.” I finally found my voice. His blue eyes stared right at me showing I have his full attention.

“When we were child hood playmates being neighbors. He soon left to due to some family matter. His plane was involved a crash-.” “I know cut to the chase.” He impatiently cut in, I sighed and continued. “I thought he had died. He is like a big brother to me. He kept from losing my sanity through high school.” Alex’s eyes narrow as a look of guilt flashes over his eyes. 

“Today he came to confess to me. However, he knew how I felt about you so he settled for being my brother." I moved closer to him and encircled my arm around his muscular build, resting my cheeks on his firm broad chest and continuing.

“I love you Mr. Alexander White. No matter how many mistakes you’ve made. No matter how annoying you can be. Your stupid mistakes are mine to fix, your childish temper is mine to endure, your baseless jealousy is for me alone and …your body is mine, only mine.” I shameless declare and he smiles with a small chuckle before responding to my hug with a tight one. “Your mine too Claire Nora Rivers.” He also declares I soon hear a thunderous applause.