LOVING MY BEAST

HER WRATH

In the house, I paced around for about two hours panicking then I steeled my heart and resolve to break the news to him. On the ride to his house, I felt my palms getting sweaty. “s**t,” I muttered. The gatekeeper recognized me from last time. I reached his million-dollar mansion I took a deep breath and opened the door which was surprisingly unlocked.  

I entered the mansion since the door was also unlocked. I called out to him from the huge hall but got no response. The memories of this place made me uneasy or maybe something else. I kept calling out still, without a response I ascended the staircase still calling out to him when I reached the very top of the stairs I heard a rustling sound from behind me.

I turned around and saw nothing in the split second I used to turn back I felt a huge force push on me, I lost my balance and in the same second, I notice a pair of electric blue orbs and raven black hair. Why…? …What’s going? I tumbled down the stairs in a state of shock and disbelief stairs, blacking out in the process.

My whole body hurt when I opened my eyes but the part that stabbed most was my pelvis I curled myself in the fetus position to try and reduce the amount of pain I was feeling. Wait! Fetus! My baby! I was about touching my belly when a doctor walked in. I didn’t even bother looking at him I just kept my head on the bed facing the wall the asked a question which I dreaded the answer to.

“Did I lose my baby?” The doctor answered with a sullen face a “Yes.” I didn’t cry at least not until he left, I broke down and cried liked never before. Just then my mom walked in with a tear-stained face and tried comforting me but instead, my sobs doubled and my voice increased more and more. Even my mother was shocked since I’ve not once broken down so hard. Memories of the past week came to mind I how excited I was to have that cute little bundle of joy in my arms, how many times I will talk to my baby telling it about all the love I was going to shower it with. 

Mom kissed my head and told me “Everything will be alright. Just… heal.” Her sweet soothing voice rang in my ears as I thought it didn’t let him hurt me if I didn’t give in if I didn’t set eyes on him, if I was strong enough, if… if I didn’t love him.

PRESENT TIME

Narrator’s POV

Clair sat on the floor with her head on the bed, unable to shed any more tears. Her baby, she lost her baby, she was a terrible mother, yes she couldn’t protect the tiny life that was in her. Now… what about this one? Will it suffer the same fate as the last one?

She felt insecure, she was scared, she needed to clear her head before she gets driven to insanity. A sudden thought came to mind the face of the man who pushed her down the staircase. She didn’t know why this memory just came to her.

Her memory although hazy. It was clear enough for her to come to a conclusion. ‘That silky black hair, those electric blue eyes. It could belong to him; Alexander White.’

You know when you so mad you cannot think straight, all you see is red. That was her current state. She didn’t stop to think that maybe it wasn’t him, why he would even do that. No, her mind was only thinking about all the wrongs he has done.

 She grabbed one of the many car keys and headed out of the mansion. On her way out she bumped into Alexander. He asked where she was going. She felt a lump in my throat, she was infuriated. She ignored him and walked past him. She unlocked the car and got in. She kept the car in the reverse and try to speed out of the garage only to slam on the breaks at the entrance barely missing Alexander who stood right under the garage door refusing to budge. ‘What is he thinking.’

Alexander’s POV 

“Are you crazy I could have killed you?” I hear her yell. Anger seeping through her words and actions. In the years I’ve known her she has never been this emotional. I could see anger, pain, and fear all in her beautiful hazel eyes. She looked broken and lost with her hair being a total mess and her makeup ruined. I could tell she was crying.

I moved closed to her and cupped her cheeks in my hands only to be violently pushed back. “STAY AWAY FROM ME ALEXANDER, JUST STAY AWAY.” “What’s wrong with you.  What with this sudden 180.”

“What’s wrong with me? Oh, you want to know what’s wrong with me?” She laughs sarcastically. She reaches her hand into her purse and pulls out a pregnancy test kit. And the show’s it to me. I was speechless but then a smile forms on my face.

“That’s great news why are you acting like it’s the end of the world.” That when my face is violently thrust to the side. It took a while to realize that she slapped me…hard. I clenched my fist and chuckled “And what was that for? Mind you I won’t let you get rid of it.” I declared only to receive another slap. This time her nails scratched my face.

I was mad but I clenched my fist because right now she was in a lot of pain. I needed to be patient with her.

Tears started streaming down her face like she was the one who was slapped. “Every time something good happens in my life, you come in and set it to ashes. Why do you always have to have it your way? I’m a human been too you know I have feelings. I can get hurt and cry. I am not a puppet but a woman who just fell in love. Why Alexander I’ve tried really hard to cope with your shortcomings. Be it your nasty temper, your possessiveness, your jealousy but even endurance has its limits.” Her voice broke with sobs as she spoke with tears streaming down her face.

I wanted to hug her and comfort but I knew she needed to let it all out.  I could tell she was crumbling from the inside and an invisible string tightened around my heart seeing her like this.