Honey (bxb)

~47~

Jesse

"You can't stay here like this. It's been four days," Mom told me, rubbing her temple.

I looked down at the empty ice cream bowl in my hand. I didn't go to college for four days. It's Friday today and I know mom is not going to let me hide away anymore. I have to go to class on Monday...

But I don't want to...

"Alex and I talked to your principal. He seemed pretty concerned about your absence. We told him you're not feeling well and needs rest and he seemed to believe it," She said, getting up from the chair and walking towards the bed to sit with me.

"Tristan came again..." She said in a low voice. Like she's afraid that I'm going to cry again. It was like that most of the time. Whenever someone says his name, I'll start to cry.

God, I'm such a cry baby.

I didn't say anything and tried to give her a smile but failed miserably. Tristan came here every day after the incident. He didn't come in. I told mom to not let him in and that's what she did. He was stubborn though. Came here every day to see if he could get a chance to see me.

"I'll go to class on Monday," I said, giving her a smile. Trying to change the subject from Tristan to something else.

Mom nodded with a small smile. "I made your favorite sandwitch," She said, taking the empty bowl from my hand. "I'll get it for you. You go freshen up," She ruffled my hair before walking out of the room.

I sighed and checked my phone.

There were several messages from Dylan asking me how I'm doing. He came over a few times and I told him everything that happened. He was really understanding.

I looked up as I heard a knock on the door. "Come in," I said, my voice sounding so unfamiliar even to me because of how little I've spoken to people for the past few days.

Lisa opened the door with a gentle smile. "Hey," She walked up to me.

"If you're here to lecture me or something, then you can go because mom already did it for two hours," I groaned.

"Don't worry, I'm not here for that," Lisa smiled. "I... Uhh, I saw Tristan today... He was in front of our house when I came back. We didn't talk but he looked messed up just like you,"

"Like me? "

"Yeah, like he hadn't slept for days...."

I looked down not knowing what to say. I don't want to think about him but he's always on my mind and it's like torture.

"Jess, tell me what happened, please... " She said gently rubbing my back.

I bit my lip. I don't wanna tell her right now. I don't know how to tell her actually. "I'm sorry... I don't want to talk about it right now," I told her. I can't talk about it without bawling my eyes out and I don't have the energy to do that right now.

She nodded. I can see that she knows something about what happened. "Umm... Is it like what happened with Paul? " She asked me cautiously.

I looked down. "Worse..." I whispered out. Afraid that my voice is gonna break if I talk loud.

She hugged me tight and it took everything in me to not break down in front of her.

"It's gonna be okay.... I know you're really strong," Lisa smiled leaning back. "You should shower and maybe go for a walk. It'll help you clear your mind and get some fresh air. You look like s**t,"

"Shut up," I groaned.

She chuckled at my annoyance. "I'm serious, go for a walk. It'll help you," She said before going out.

Maybe I should go for a walk. I haven't seen the outside world for four days....

Sorry for the late update♥