My Life in Ruins
1574 Words
He is driving along the roads in the fancy sports car, he was slightly over the speed limit just having fun in the car, I was letting the breeze make my hair fly and I hold my arm up in the air. I see a blur in the road and tell him to slow down and stop. The car suddenly spins out of control and we are near the edge of the road. I scream as we careen to the edge and hit the guardrail. The car stops and I get out, we are unharmed, I go to see what happened to the car and look at the tires, Jamie says he is fine and opens his car door, his seatbelt jams, I hear a loud grating metal noise and the car starts to inch, I yell for him to get out of the car, he struggles to get the belt off. I hurry as much as possible and move to get the emergency blade in the car to cut the seatbelt, I hear the grating metal screeches, I rush over to his side to see if I can help him out of the seat belt, but it won’t budge. I feel the car shake now and panic and tears run down my face as we try to get him out of the car. The car fender is hooked onto the guardrail, I hand him the blade to cut through the belt and urge him to hurry up and get out before the car gets dropped off the edge of the road to hit the rocks below. He gets the belt off and gets out of the car, he rushes over to me to check to see if I am ok. He hugs me, the car and guardrail slide off the road and crash onto the jagged rocks below. I burst into tears.
He comforts me and says "I'm here love, and we will always be together" I am relieved we got him out of the car in time, I dont know what I would do without him now.
We head to the beach and walk to the bottom of the hill and look at the damage to the car. It is smashed up and he would have been killed if he was still inside when it fell. A jagged rock was smashed into the driver side windshield puncturing the head rest I look up and part of the guardrail is dangling and blowing in the wind, I move away from the car and tell him to do the same. and a huge gust of wind strained against the dangling rail and it breaks free and kills the love of my life before my eyes.
I scream, and run to him, but it sheared his head clean off him. I am horrified and scream and yell for help and no one comes, I am blinded by tears and shake all over. I think I screamed for hours, my voice is raw, and I can no longer scream. Tears still run down my face I call for a driver and ambulance to come, I am just dazed that I lost him already after only a few short weeks. My mind is closing down, and I need to get away from the car to avoid the rising tide and well as further debris falling. A car is heading this way on the beach level, two lifeguards that saw the vehicle and me moving - they then see Jamie and his body and head. I can’t talk with my voice gone and raw. I whimper and they get the body board out to get Jamie and load him and his head on the board they tell me to get into the truck and wrap a blanket around me "She's is shock we better get her to the hospital and this one to the police station. They must have gotten hit by the guard rail for the clean cut to happen horrible way to go but at least it was quick and hopefully painless." My mind goes blank and tears start again. My life is over without my love.
"The edge of the guard rail looks like a guillotine" the other lifeguard comments he takes pictures of the accident, and prepared the report for the beach patrol station.
"Poor lass looks like they were on honeymoon and now she is a widow” the first guard states sadly, they drive me to the hospital, and I get admitted and my family shows up.
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I leave the hospital sedated, my mother drives me to the beach house, I can’t stay there without Jamie, too many memories flood my mind, and I breakdown. My mother says she will make arrangements to get me home. Where is that now, without him, I think. My mother gets me to my house, makes me some soup broth, since I choke on food. I look in the mirror and wish that I could get away from all this pain and heartache. Nothing happens of course.
I get a call from Jamie's Lawyer.
He says, "there is a will" and I am on it.
I am surprised because when did he have time to do all this planning before the wedding?
It’s a video will of Jamie sitting on the plane.
"If you are seeing this then I am dead, I leave all my estates, assets and banks accounts to my wife Lorna since I may or may not have heirs with her. They are hers and hers alone. I also have a written a living will and trust set up for her with total assets added up to 2.6 billion dollars. Every one of my family has been given a gift of one million dollars each and have set up a family trust aside from my major assets to be administered by my wife and love Lorna."
"I love and cherish you, really since the first day I saw you. I had asked for your hand in marriage when we were in high school from your father, but he refused due to your age back then, then you fell in love with another man and I was crushed. I wanted you to be happy, so I left you alone. I saw you briefly when you were home and heard that the wedding never took place, I filled with hope again and said I will never let you go again after that. I arrange our marriage with your parents for weeks before chance meeting you again at the coffee shop where I watched you go for coffee since high school. So, as you see I loved you since the very FIRST day we met back in junior high- I was a nerd in those days. I remember that day, homeroom first day of school in 6th grade, I never got the courage to talk to you. I was too shy to ask you out and then you were so serious in school I got scared to ask you then too. Mad we lost so much time especially if I'm dead. “
He tears up thinking about time lost. "I love and will always love you alive or dead, I will love you forever."
The tape ends and the lawyer packs up everything "If you need anything, we are here at your disposal Mrs. Hertiage, no matter where you are." I smile and nod and he leaves, leaving me with a slew of keys, deeds, and a head swirling, and a migraine.
I need to get out of the house and head to the beach road that stole my Jamie. I think about takin the leap to be with him but, feel like arms are holding me back. Jamie, I can still feel you, the breeze swirls around me and it feels like a hug. I look and the blur is back on the roadway to the side almost like a cave. I head there from the edge of the cliff where my life and love were lost. I think of the possibility that I may be pregnant with our child. She/he is the only thing that makes me feel alive with any emotion.
The air is electric, and I feel energy around me the closer to the blurry shape by the cave intensifies it. I see now it’s almost like a mirror I see a reflection of a girl with my face. Or is it just me looking back, she winks and smiles I stare confusedly back at my face but not my face. I shake my head and decide to go lay down. I will go check out the Blur on the road again, something is bothering me about it that I cannot explain.
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Jamie is dead, and I am lost and do not want to go on, the blur in the road draws me closer and closer the blur shimmers and starts to glitter as I approach then I see a swirl develop in the center with light beams growing from the center it grows and grows until it is as tall as I am, I step forward the light intensifies and I feel the air electrify around me, suddenly the light explodes around me and I am no longer on earth.
Where the hell am I? This place does not look like the highway I was near a moment ago.
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