A wish upon a falling star

Moon is brighter than ever. And the stars too. I stood in the balcony trying to make a plan for tommorrow. I wonder how things get easy when I start to look into the things that makes me happy. The cold air, rustling of leaves and the silence. I just love that moment. Then I get this unexplained desire To bottle up this exact moment so that I can carry them with me all the time. My mind is running wild I guess. Trying to get my mind together, I took notes for the things I have to do tomorrow. I don't know if that makes any sense but I plan everything beforehand. Like places to visit, things to buy, portions to study, books to read and so on. Jack was downstairs calling me to assist him in the kitchen. I've been working in this cafe as a Barista for 3 years since I joined my dental college. As we don't have night duty, it was easy to get a part-time job. Although I spent most of the day time in college, I really enjoy working with Jack. So I help him in the kitchen as well. Sometimes I go to Jack's home to see his wife Anna and his daughter Ivy. They are happiest family I have ever seen in my life. I completed my To-do-list for tomorrow and went downstairs. Jack was washing the dishes. When I reached there it was almost over and he was signalling me to go home. Streets are empty on my way to home. Just me and calmness prevailing in the street. My mind was wandering around searching for answers to the questions I have. Eventhough I got into a dental college through entrance exams, it really hard to go with the flow. Especially for my parents. I am always in search of a way to ease the pain for them. But the truth is I am failing at everything. I am failing in so many different ways. This job in the cafe is nothing much. But it helps me to meet my daily expenses. Still I have to do something. That is the only thing that stays in my mind all the time. I took the keys out of my bag and opened the door. The room seems lonely. I live alone in a small cottage outside the city. Its just few minutes away from my college as well. Since I couldn't afford the hostel fees, I decided to spent my adulthood with myself. Well..I kinda like that. Getting to know myself and doing things to make me feel better. Its great actually. I couldn't sleep. I have been struggling with my sleep for so long. Mostly I sleep at 3 am and wake up by 6 or 7. As a medical student its quite normal to lose sleep. But this is not because of studies. The burden of crushed dreams under the weight of life got me into this. I went for therapy. Somehow she managed to make me lovable. She taught me tricks to love my life and to find joy in the most unexpected places. Still sleep is the only problem. I don't know why it is so hard. Guess I have to learn more trick to tackle it. Suddenly my phone is ringing. It's my mom. "Hello" "Hey mom" "Are you okay? I've been waiting for your call" "Sorry mom. I was about to call you. I had a very good day I guess..Mmm..maybe a normal day?" She is laughing on the other side. "Is everything okay?" "Yeah mom. I swear" "Okay okay. Let me know if something bothers you. I'll always be with you. You know that, right?" "I know, I know My Majesty . Now let me sleep. I am too tired to talk right now" "Good night sweetheart" I feel better. Just talking to her means a lot to me. Eventhough she doesn't know what I am going through, she always motivates me to do whatever I feels like. Yes, ofcourse she is my queen. While laying on my bed, I could see the moon through the window. She was always there whenever I feel like talking to. Wind is coming inside passing the white curtains. I could hear a lulluby from the river. The sound of water flowing over the rocks. A sense of calmness took over my body.