Under her spell ~ (Book 1 ~ wicked desires series)

 Kala   I’m about to have my first kiss and I feel absolutely nothing. No excitement. No flutters. No butterflies. Nothing.   I’m sure it’s me, it must be me, more than a dozen dates and it’s always the same. Flat. Deflated. Nothing.   It’s not like they are not willing, they are always eager dates but on my side it’s the same every time, the dates are pleasant enough but where is that urgency, passion, longing, want. Maybe there’s something wrong with me. There must be otherwise I would at least get to the point where I longed for that kiss at the end of the night, but it never happened.   Stood outside my apartment I stood looking into his brown eyes, secretly wishing I felt something, but I didn’t. There was nothing. It was the same with every date.   I twist out of my date’s clammy grip, seeing the urgency, the want in his eyes, the want I should have in mine, but it’s not reciprocated, putting my back to the front door.   “Listen Kyle-”   There’s no way to avoid his sudden swoop with my mouth still open, his lips come crashing down on mine in a slobbering mess. I don’t even think before pushing him off me.   I grimace at the awkward slobbering mess that was my first kiss while rubbing the wetness from my mouth vigorously with my sleeve.   “You didn’t like that baby? “   “It’s not you. – “   “It’s not you, it’s me, right? “   “That’s not what I was going to say. “    “Just give me one more kiss – “    “I don’t think – “    “I’m not asking you to think. “   “Kyle I’m sorry – “    “Hey, you asked me to walk you home. “   “I know, I’m sorry – “    “Just invite me in babe, no pressure, we will see where this goes – “   “Hey! The lady said no! “   “Who is this, your bodyguard? “   “My neighbour. “I spoke barely a whisper.   Ryker Jones as I live and breathe, I had only lived here six months but my little slice of paradise that I had come to love as my little piece of eye candy strode down the steps, towering above slimy Kyle.   “Leave! “    “Look – “   Menacingly Ryker stood closer to slimy Kyle as Kyle pushed his chest out, but Ryker didn’t falter, not once.   “No, you look, get out of here, or do I have to physically remove you myself? “   “No need for that man, I was done here anyway. “    I watched as the two men sized each other up, clearly Kyle knew when he had been beaten, he threw me a sly glance.   “Later, Ice queen. “    I scowled at him. “Well, no I don’t – “   But he was already gone. I can’t say I wasn’t relieved to see the back of him, he seemed like a perfect gentleman up until the point he was told no, not so chivalrous after all.   “It’s an expression Kala “Ryker says with a smirk. “unless you want to see him again? “He looks at me. “Did I overstep the mark, I was trying to help, looked like you needed saving “   “Was it that obvious? “   “Kind of. “   “Another bad one? “    “It wasn’t great. “    Why did I keep doing this to myself, none of them had been great, so why did I keep putting myself out there? Of course, I knew why, hope. I was hopeful that one day it would be more than pleasant, more than boring conversation and uncomfortable silences, just something more.   “You let this one walk you home? “    “I thought – “    Oh, hell what did I think? I thought maybe he wasn’t so bad. Maybe if I gave him a chance, I’d feel something? I couldn’t tell Ryker that, it sounded pathetic in my head, it would sound even worse out loud.    “I don’t know what I thought. “    “Prick doesn’t even know how to kiss a woman goodnight. “    Ryker started shifting letting me know the conversation was over, I couldn’t let him leave, not yet the feelings I searched for I’d already found in him. Just been near him made my head spin, his scent intoxicated me.   “Night Kala. “Ryker made a move to go back into the apartment.   “Wait. “   Ryker looked at me, his intense grey eyes bore into mine, his stubble just barely visible in the soft glow of the night, it took every ounce of strength I had left in my body to not reach out and graze my fingers along the rough stubble across his perfectly chiselled face.   “You do this often? “   “What? “   “Save your neighbours from bad dates. “   He puffed out a long sigh. “Only you. “   Balanced perfectly, I could sense he was eager to leave, he looked uncomfortable and ready to dash in the opposite direction.   “How should he have done it? “    “Done what? “   “Kissed me.”   “Not like that. “    “Then how? “    I couldn’t take my eyes off his delicious mouth, I had often wondered, no, not wondered, fantasised what Ryker tasted like, what it would be like to sink into his kiss and taste him.   Ryker backed further away, I wondered if I affected him as much as he affected me as his breath hitched, “Uh, it’s not really something I can explain. “   “Show me. “Show me? What was I thinking? I was thinking I’ve wanted this since I first laid eyes on him, I was thinking even If it was just a small taste, I needed it like I needed oxygen to breathe and most of all I wasn’t thinking, not even a little bit, not at all.   “What? “Ryker looked positively taken aback by my abrupt approach.   “Show me the right way to kiss a woman.”   “Kala have you never been kissed? “   “Well apart from – “   “That doesn’t count “   “Then, no, I’ve never been kissed, I just thought – “But the way he was looking at me led me to believe I had thought wrong, so very wrong, what an i***t I had made of myself, of course someone like him wouldn’t want to kiss me, I felt foolish.   “You know what, I’m sorry, I thought – “   Ryker started moving slowly up the steps towards me, every movement was graceful and seductive, my breath hitched more than once before he made it to the top of the stairs as he came closer to me the heat burned me from deep within, he bent his head close to mine and whispered, “You want me to show you?“ I didn’t want him to run or scare him away, in six months this was the closest he’d ever been to me, and it was driving me crazy, so I just whispered, “Yes.“   “You can put your hands on me. “   “Where? “   “Where do you want to put them. “He replied with a glint in his eyes.   I scoped his body, drank him in inch by inch, what a curious question, I wanted to touch every inch of this delicious man, feel every part of his body until he came undone.   I threw my arms into the air stiffly like a zombie looking for it’s next meal, I’m certain I looked like a lunatic, just dangling my arms in the air as I contemplated a safe zone, but there was no safe zone, not right now, I was treading on dangerous water, and I was at a loss of my next move.   “Here “   Ryker touched my hands, and I could feel his warm hands encircle mine and guide them to his waist, just the smallest touch and I melted, he hadn’t even kissed me yet and I was like putty in his hands, I could feel the heat from his body radiate through his clothes as my hands rested on his waist, I licked my lips with anticipation.   Ryker   Fuck, what was she trying to do to me, she licked those beautiful, cherry, plump lips and I almost came in my pants like a horny teenager?   In my head I was screaming to myself, this is a bad idea, a very bad idea, but I didn’t want her first kiss to be with some slobbering mess in the dark, with someone she had an okay date with, I wanted it to be a good memory not one that would leave a bad taste in her mouth.   When her hands touched my waist, I desperately wanted her to go lower, to pry my already throbbing c**k that was now strained against my pants, so she could see what she had done to me, she had barely touched me, and I was already losing control.   I wanted her, I needed her, but this wasn’t about me, this was about her first kiss, s**t this was her first kiss, that meant she was a ripe little virgin, f**k, that thought made my c**k jump.   “Tilt your head back “    She did as she was told, she followed orders very well, her perfect ample, slender neck was visible in the dim light and all I wanted to do was trace a line of kisses down her perfect skin.   “Are you sure this is what you want? “   “Yes. “She breathlessly spoke.   Fuck why was she breathless, I hadn’t done anything yet, she responded to me more easily than I thought she would, this was supposed to be simple, but it was the most erotic situation I’d ever been in.   I couldn’t deny I wanted her, I wanted her more than I’d wanted anything in my life before, but I couldn’t have her, she was a pure, innocent virgin and I, well was bad news, I was not the right man for this beautiful flower.   What’s one tiny taste hurt though?   I knew as soon as I thought those words, they were a lie, could I stop at one tiny taste?   Only one way to find out.   Her head was tilted, her mouth slightly open, willing, allowing me entry, Christ, did she know how beautiful she looked. All I wanted to do was tangle my fingers through that mesh of blonde hair and pull her head back harder as I took her hard and fast, but I knew I couldn’t do that, I couldn’t lose control, not with her, she was delicate, I wanted to own her, worship every part of her slender body, touch her until she begged for more.   I looked deep into her eyes, I could stare into them forever, swim in her swirling pools of green, her breath kept hitching at every teasing moment I had given her, and she loved it, I could sense she loved it, she was open and ready.   I gently caressed her beautiful porcelain face as I rested my hand just behind her head, fighting the urge within myself to consume her completely, f**k I needed a god damn medal for fighting my inner inhibitions.   I brought my lips closer to hers, feeling her sweet breath caress my lips, finally I was going to taste her, just one little taste to salvage her unfortunate night, one small taste is all I needed, I told myself I was doing this for her but that was a lie, this was selfish, this was my need, I needed to taste her, I’d been wanting to taste her since the very first day I saw her in those tight little jeans that hugged every perfect curve she had, the way her sweet arse swayed in time with each seductive step, I needed this to control my mind and my c**k when I was around her.   Another lie I told myself.   I knew once I’d tasted her that I’d want more, but I didn’t care, she was willing, and I was only too happy to oblige.   I slowly pressed my lips to those beautiful, plump, inviting lips of hers, Christ they were soft, her tongue slowly flicked my lip as they came together, f**k she tasted good, I consumed her gently as jolts shot through my already throbbing c**k, her tongue met mine and as they came together, I came undone.   Fuck, this was supposed to just be a taste, I’d never been this wound up before, I wanted to just press her against the front door and f**k her hard and fast until she lost the ability to walk, I wanted her scent all over me, f**k, this was too good, she melted into me, then she let out a long pleasurable moan in my mouth, s**t, if I didn’t stop now I wouldn’t be able to control what happened next, so I slowly pulled away, missing the taste and touch of her lips already.   My c**k was heavy and warm and all I wanted to do was bury myself deep within her, f**k, one taste and I’d come undone.   I wanted more, I needed more, she had burned a fire inside of me that I didn’t even know existed, I needed release, I needed release with her, I could have stood there just exploring her mouth, but my urges were getting out of control, the need, the want was driving me to the brink of insanity as she looked up at me with her perfect doe eyes.   Fuck, why did she have to be so beautiful.   So, tempting.   So innocent.