The Lycan Alpha Queen Warrior

It’s Been Two Weeks!

Two weeks. Two weeks of not being able to do my homework. Two weeks of failing my tests and quizzes. Two weeks of not being able to see my brothers faces. Two weeks of training blind. Two weeks of lieing to everyone saying I’m perfectly fine when I’m scared on the inside. It’s been two weeks of hell. Iv been completely blind for two weeks. I think people are starting to notice something’s wrong with me. I can feel their stairs even though I can’t see them.

The only other person who knows I’m blind is Ms. Abigail. She’s been helping me pick my cloths out for school and helping me with my homework at times. She’s been really nice to me and doesn’t complain when I get frustrated due to my disability. Ms. Abigail even found some braille books to help me out but I can’t read them because I don’t know the different letters or words in braille.

My family has a history of us losing our eye sight; so it’s genetic but me losing my eye sight this early on was not expected. It’s taken a complete toll on me. Iv changed. I know I have.

“Miss.Gonzalez! Miss.Gonzalez earth to Miss.Gonzalez!”

“Huh”

“Can you go to the board and solve the math equation for me?”

“Ummmm can we have someone else go?”

“No come on. Come up to the board and solve the equation.”

“I um can’t. Can some one else please go.”

“Diana your up let’s go. I don’t have all day.”

“Don’t worry Mr. Dylan it won’t take me long.”

Why do I feel her smirking at me as if she’s showing off. It’s probably because she is. After a couple of minutes the bell goes off and as I’m in the process of packing my books I just feel someone knock everything out of my hands and leave laughing. I can’t I can’t take this anymore.

“Miss.Gonzalez I would like to have a word.”

“Yes. Mr. Dylan?”

“Please have a seat.”

Oh god I’m in trouble. Mr.Dylan is one of the nicest teachers here. Is he a pain in the a*s? Yes but he’s a good teacher one of my favorites.

“I wanted to check in with you Crystal. Is everything ok?”

“Um yea everything is fine.”

“You sure? Is everything ok at home? You know I’m here if you ever want to talk.” He said very sincere

“Yea I’m fine Mr.Dylan. Iv been a little more stressed than usual but I’m fine.”

“Look your an excellent student top of your grade and you failing your tests isn’t normal.”

“I’m sorry Mr.Dylan I didn’t mean to fail it. I I I just…..”

“Hey it’s ok. I’m going to let you retake your test and your pop quiz from the other day. You have a extra week to turn in all your homework. Don’t have me regret giving you a second chance Crystal. Your smart with so much ahead of you.”

“Thank you Mr.Dylan I’ll try and do better I promise.”

He hands me a hall pass and I am on my way to the bleachers since it’s lunch time. I don’t eat at school anymore I barely eat at all. I’ve lost a good amount of weight because of it; everything fits me lose and not in a good way.

I haven’t talked to Artemis in two weeks and now I’m failing my classes. What am I going to do? My Lycan hates me and she killing me from the inside out literally. If it means me risking my life and protecting everyone from Artemis then that’s what I’ll do. I can’t let her hurt them I won’t let her hurt anyone.

I skip my last classes and hung out under the bleachers until the last bell rings.

“Hey you ok?”

“Yea I’m fine.”

“Hey what’s wrong?”

“Nothing I’m fine let’s go”

“Crystal. What’s wrong?”

“Derek I said I’m fine so drop it plus why do you care?”

“Because I’m risking everything to make sure your safe that’s why.” He says irritated grabbing my arm

I get in his car and drive off with him. Ever since my uncles meeting his parents, Derek has came to pick me up from school daily.

“Hey why did you stop the car?”

“Here” he says handing me something.

“What are these. Wait are they my glasses?”

“Yea I got them fixed. I figured you’d need them.”

“It’s not like they are any help anymore.”

“What’s that suppose to mean?”

“Nothing. Thank you for fixing them for me. Can you take me home now.”

“You are home. Don’t you recognize it?”

“Ooh sorry it’s been a long day. Thanks anyway.” I say getting out of his car.

I make my way into the house and into my room. Iv been better at not bumping into things or breaking anything. If I break something Ms.Abigail cleans it right away and take the blame for me so nobody starts to question anything.

I start getting ready for training today with my uncle Lucas when I hear the guys coming up the stairs. I guess they didn’t have practice today. I have been so distant with them it hurts. I want to tell them but I’m scared of their reaction. What if they don’t want me to be their friend or want me around them? What if they don’t want anything to do with me? I don’t want to be more of a burden than I already am.

***Knock Knock****

“Come in”

“Miss.Crystal beta Lucas would like to see you in his office before training.” An omega says

“Ok thank you. Let my uncle know I’ll be right there.”

I hear a door close and resume getting ready. Today has been a rough day. Let’s see what else is going to be thrown my way today.

“Hi uncle Lucas you wanted to see me.”

“Yes take a seat. I got a call from the school today.”

“Ooh”

“What is going on with you Crystal! This isn’t you. Your failing tests and quizzes on top of that your not turning in your homework and your skipping class.”

Don’t cry don’t cry! He can’t see you cry.

“Are you going to explain yourself or you just going to sit there! I’m talking to you young lady”

“I’m sorry uncle Lucas. It won’t happen again. I’m trying to do better I really am.”

“Then try harder. I don’t know what your going through but snap out of it. Your ruling a kingdom where many people depend on you. I suggest you start acting like a royal queen. Your lucky they are letting you retake your tests and return in your homework. Your training is canceled for today. Now go do your homework and I want to see it before you hand it in. Am I understood?!”

“Yes sir.”

I close the door behind me and I feel tears rolling down my face. I quickly wipe them away feeling someone’s presence close by. I know my uncle said no training but I need to lose some steam. I go to the gym and start wrapping my fists up in tape and go at the punching bag. Taping my fists and basic boxing are a couple of the few things I’m able to do without my sight.

With every hit a tear falls from my face. I must of been there for a while because I was drenched in sweat and yelling my lungs out. I let it out, I let it all out. My body is so tired and exhausted I need to go shower to help me semi brace myself for the hell I’m going to go through when I do my homework.

I walk into my room shutting my door behind me. I turn my music on and go into the shower. The hot water doesn’t help relax me anymore. It does absolutely nothing for me. It’s been a whole lot harder for me to go numb. I start shaving my legs with my razor when I accidentally cut myself. It didn’t hurt, it didn’t sting; it felt good. I sit in the bathtub with the hot water hitting my back. I unhook the blade from my razor and run my finger over it testing the sharpness and I end up cutting my finger. I place the razor blade on my left wrist and I start cutting it.

The smell of blood fills the room. My wound starts to heal right away so I do it again and again and again. I’m sitting in my own puddle of blood. I must of lost enough blood because I’m starting to feel a little dizzy and light headed. I shut off the water and ease myself into getting up from the tub floor.

I change into my pjs putting on a long sleeve shirt so no one sees my wrists. This sucks. How am I suppose to do homework if I can’t see anything. Ms. Abigail brings me some food to my room and she ends up helping me with my homework. She would tell me the problem and I would tell her how to solve it. She helped me until it was mid night and she made sure I ate a little bit of food before she left my room. She was able to help me with my math and history homework. My human anatomy, biology II and English are going to be a little harder since I need to write papers, do a science experiment and do a practical exam.

I get comfortable in bed and start to doze off when I hear someone come into my room. They check my homework assignments that are done and tuck me into bed. If only he knew what was going on but he can’t, no body can. The moment people realize a royal princess is blind and the king and queen are dead my kingdom is doomed. I’m pretty sure my own mate is going to reject me once he finds out I’m the reason my pack died including my parents, it’s either that or rejects me from all the baggage I carry with me.

*******The Next Day********

My room is nice and warm and bright; or at least it feels bright. It feels like the sun is shining right through it. I get out of my bed and hop in the shower to get ready for school. Ms. Abigail put out what seems to be a pair of shorts with a regular shirt and a pair of my vans (I can tell there vans from the way they feel on my fingers and on my feet).

Walking into the kitchen, I’m hit with the smell of beans, and some mexican sausage mixed with some eggs. It actually smells semi good. Grandma must of cooked because her cooking hits different, if you know what I mean.

“Good morning baby girl”

“Hi uncle Xavier”

“Buenos dias mija. Agarra un plato y cervite. Se te va enfriar la comida.”

“Buenos dias mami. Ok esta bien.”

“Good morning everyone. Hey look whose hungry today. It’s about we get some meat on those bones little one.”

“Mikey leave her alone” I hear my uncle Xavier warn.

“Princess did you do your homework last night?”

Why does he have to ask me he knows I did.

“Yes sir.”

“Bring it to me. I told you I wanted to check it.”

Ugh so much for me having a calm day. I’m making my way to my book bag when Ms. Abigail came to my rescue. She got it for me and handed it to my uncle.

“Looks good. See your a smart girl. Now I hope you learned your lesson. I want you to go to school and make pick a date to make up the test and quizzes. Am I understood?”

“Yes sir.”

“Good now go finish your food.”

“I’m ok. I’m not hungry anymore.”

“I said sit and eat young lady.”

“I’m not hungry. I’ll meet them outside.”

“Bye mami la veo al rato”

I give my grandma a kiss on the cheek and she hands me my school lunch. I hear my uncles bickering back and forth about me again. Their fighting has gotten worse. My uncle Xavier can’t hold his tongue when it comes to me anymore. I’m sitting on the steps of the house when a car pulls up.

“Hey pumpkin.”

“What’s up. What are you doing here?”

What is he doing here. He’s probably here for the guys.

“I’m here to talk to Mikey and Lucas but seeing you is a plus.”

“What the f**k are you doing here?”

“Why is that how you greet a visitor AJ?”

“I wouldn’t taunt him. He’s got orders to kill those who piss him off” I say smirking

“I came to give my pumpkin here a ride.”

“No you didn’t. You said you were here for Mikey and Lucas.”

“Ok fine I am here to talk to them but also for you. Didn’t you get my text?”

“No I’m sorry I didn’t look at my phone.”

“What do you want Jereme?” Lu snarls

“Coach said we are staying late today for practice. There’s a rumor going around River North is out for blood.”

“What why?”

“A couple of dumb asses got into it with their quarterback the other day and coach found out. He also wants all of us in his office before school starts.”

“Does he know who it was?” I hear Mikey ask

“It was Spencer, Brooks, Cesar, and Ryan. It was pretty bad. There’s a whole video.”

“What no way! What are you guys going to do? They are your main go to guys.”

“You really know your football don’t you. It’s hot.” Jereme says grabbing me by my waist.

“I suggest we leave before coach kicks all your butts.” I say walking away

“Come on pumpkin your coming with me.”

Jereme opens my door and I get into his car without a second thought. I know the guys are pissed. They hate me being with Jereme but I need a nice distraction for once. I can hear the guys trucks behind us while we are on our way to school.

I feel the car coming to a complete stop and my door opening. I get out of the car and automatically I feel a hand wrap around my waist. The grip was tighter than what I’m usually use too and I know it wasn’t any of the guys. This was Jereme’s grip. It was like if he was holding in for dear life.

“I’m assuming you have a death wish.” I say sarcastically

“What can I say I go after what I want and always end up getting it at the end. Plus I like a challenge.”

“I suggest you wipe that smirk off your face before the guys wipe it off for you.”

“Your funny you know that pumpkin.”

“Aren’t you suppose to be heading to talk to coach?”

“I’ll go after I walk you to class.” He says

“You really do have a death wish but ok but it’s your funeral.”

Jereme drops me off at my first period class giving me a big hug and a kiss on the cheek. I might be blind but I’m not dumb. I know everyone is starting at us and I can feel the burning sensation of jealous girls trying to get into my soul, but it is what it is.

The school day was going by rather quickly. I turned my homework assignments; well the ones I was able to complete with some help. Now all I have to do is schedule those dam test and quizzes. Ugh just thinking about those gives me anxiety.

Half of my school day is done and it’s off to lunch. I’m feeling a little better than I usually do so I might sit with everyone today but first I have to get my other books and gym cloths for the rest of the day out of my locker.

Walking towards my locker I can hear some snickering and giggling behind me. I don’t pay any attention to it since it’s nothing really new for me. But I can tell something’s off this time. I get to my locker and there’s things on the outside of it.

I can’t make out what it is. It feels like paper but also like wrappers. Once I get my locker open it all pours out. I’m covered in garbage and some type of liquid that is really sticky. I smell like a sticky garbage can. It’s all over my cloths, my shoes and some of it got in my hair.

I slam my locker shut. I’m so pissed off I’m ready to burst into tears but I don’t. I walk it directly outside to the bleachers. I can hear people yelling saying I stink or making ruder comments like “I guess someone doesn’t know about personal hygiene.”

I don’t understand why would someone do that to me. I don’t mess with anyone. I keep to myself especially now I that I’m blind. I don’t understand, I think to myself. I take a seat under the bleachers and everyones right I do stink. But I have no extra cloths to change in. I break into a silent sob. I have enough on my plate now this happens. I keep asking myself why. Why me?!?

After sob for what felt like an eternity I feel someone near me so I wipe my face and pretend like there’s nothing wrong.

“Whose there.”

“I said whose there! Look I’m not in the mood to deal with your bullshit so leave me alone!”

I concentrate on the noses around me to see if I can distinguish where I’m sensing the person but I can’t. My emotions are over powering my concentration.

“Sunshine you ok?”

“AJ?”

“Yea it’s me. You ok?!?”

“Yea I’m fine. How did you find me?”

“Don’t worry about that. Let me see.”

“AJ just go I’m fine.”

“Hey look at me sunshine. It’s ok I won’t hurt you I promise.”

“AJ please just go. I don’t want to fight.”

“Hey I’m not going anywhere sunshine”

“Sunshine please look at me.”

“I’m sorry I’m so sorry. I I I can’t. Iv tried so hard and I can’t do it.”

“What are you talking about? Sunshine what’s going on?”

AJ lifts up my chin so I can look at him and I feel his warmth and it’s peaceful.

“You can’t see can you?”

I can’t speak I just shake my head no.

“Since when?” He asks concerned

“It’s been two weeks.”

“That’s why your failing isn’t it? That’s why training is so hard isn’t it?”

“Mmmhm. Iv tried AJ! Iv tried so hard and it won’t come back.”

“Come here sunshine it’s ok.”

He embraces me in a giant hug. It’s tight but filled with so much love.

“AJ I’m going to get you dirty.”

“It’s ok. Come on, lets get you changed and let’s get out of here.”

AJ takes my bag from me and we walk to his locker where he pulls out his spare cloths and hands them to me. It’s a shirt and a pair of basketball shorts.

I change in the girls bathroom the best I can. His cloths fit me huge but it’s ok I’m use to wearing guy cloths. I do take my brothers cloths from time to time. I mean can you blame me; guy joggers are super comfy and their pockets are so much better and the pockets in girl pants.

Luckily I find two hair ties in my book bag and I tie up AJ’s shirt from the back and I pick up my hair putting it in a top bun.

“Whoa!”

“What do I have the shirt backwards!”

“You look great. Come here. Let’s get out of here. You’ve had enough for one day.”

We walk into the lunch room hand in hand. The lunch room goes dead silent and I’m really confused as to why.

“AJ what is everyone looking at?”

“At you sunshine.”

“Oh my god. Do I still have garbage on me. Is it on my hair?”

“Relax sunshine. Your gorgeous.”

He always knows what to say. I can’t hurt him I won’t let Artemis hurt him.

“Little one are you ok? We heard what happened.”

“Princess. Come here.” Lu says bringing me in for a hug. God I miss their hugs

“Yea I’m fine. Everything is fine.”

“Hey let coach know I’ll see him tomorrow I have something to take care of.”

“What! What do you mean you something important to take care of? Did you not listen to coach this morning. He needs us ready for the game AJ”

“I heard coach Mikey but this is important. Make something up I don’t care but I’m not going to practice today.”

“AJ it’s ok I’m fine the team needs you. I’ll be ok.”

“Hey I said we are getting out of here ok.”

I agree nodding my head.

“Wait you both are leaving? Where exactly are you going?” Lu starts to interrogate us

“Princess what’s going on?”

“Well well well. If it isn’t garbage girl.”

“What do you want Diana?” AJ says irritated

“Hey there baby. Why are you hanging with this dumb garbage girl? Didn’t you hear she’s nothing but a pathetic stupid homeless s**t. Isn’t that right Gonzalez.” Diana says

“What did you just say?” I hear Alice say from behind me.

“I dare you to repeat that Diana!”

“Alice why are you defending her? Your one of us. Plus you know I’m right.”

“Let’s make one thing clear. I’m not one of you. I know how to treat people and if you ever say something like that about her again I’ll make sure you regret it.”

“Your just as pathetic as she is.”

“You little bitch.”

I feel it. I feel Alice lounge at Diana and I stop her mid way.

“Alice stop it she’s not worth it. She’s not worth it A.”

“But…”

“Your better than her A. Let her say what she wants I don’t care and neither should you. Your giving her what she wants by giving in. Let it go A let it go.”

“Ok I’ll let it go.”

“Good.”

“Come on sunshine let’s go.”

We walk out the school together hand in hand again. I have no idea where I’m going but the walk is relaxing. We say absolutely nothing to each other.

“Ok we’re here.”

“Where are we AJ?”

“At our tree house. The latter is right in front of you. Look I’ll show you, give me your hand.”

He brought me to our tree house. The five of us use to come here all of time when we were kids. I feel my way up the tree house with AJ right behind me.

We sat in the tree house for hours. We talked about when we were kids and laughed at the stupid things we did.

“Maybe me losing my eyesight and Artemis ignoring me is my punishment for what happens to our people especially our parents.”

“No don’t say that. Your an amazing person with a heart of gold sunshine. I’ll help you get through this. Does anyone else know?”

“Just you and Ms.Abigail. She’s been helping me with picking out my cloths for school and with my homework.”

“Ok it will be our secret.”

“Thank you but you don’t have to help me. Artemis is unstable and I don’t want to hurt you AJ.”

“Hey you won’t hurt me.”

“AJ you don’t know that Artemis is really unstable and just being here with you worries me.”

“I do know that. You won’t hurt me and neither will Artemis. And if you do we will deal with it then. So enough of that type of talk, now let’s seee what helps you control Artemis or help ease her?”

“Hey what’s wrong sunshine.”

“Nothing it’s just…”

“Just what? It’s ok tell me”

“Blood. Blood helps me.”

“Is there a specific type.”

“No. Yes. Idk maybe.”

“Sunshine it’s ok talk to me. I can’t help you if you don’t let me in.”

“Artemis wants human blood but I won’t let her have any. Ms. Abigail has been leaving my food a little more raw I guess you can say and that’s been helping. The bloodier it is the better it is. It helps with my headaches and body aches.”

“Ok animal blood it is. Now come on we have to go home it’s late.”

“What time is it?”

“8 o’clock.”

“Oh no my uncles are going to be so mad at me.”

“Don’t worry about them ok.”

“But AJ”

“Hey trust me sunshine. Now come on we need to go.”

“AJ I cnt see the ladder can you help me please.”

“Come here.”

“AJ what are you doing? Put me down.”

“Do you trust me.”

“What?”

“Do you trust me?”

“Yes I do.”

“Good”

“Ahhhhhh.”

“You can open your eyes sunshine. There we go easy does it.”

“Asshole!”

He jumped out of the tree house. He picked me up and jumped out of the tree house. What the hell.

We walk it back to the pack house like if nothing happened between us. Like if I didn’t ignore him for the past two weeks.

“Where have you two been? Do you know what time it is?”

“I’m sorry uncle Lucas it was all my fault. I…”

“No it was my fault. I’m sorry beta Lucas and gamma Xavier. I was having a bad day and I needed to get some air. Crystal went with me to make sure I didn’t do anything dumb.”

“Go to your rooms and get to doing your homework. Oh and AJ your on night shift boarder patrol for the next week.”

“Yes sir.”

He took the blame for me.

“Don’t worry about it sunshine. I’ll meet you in your room and we can do our homework together ok.”

AJ gives me a kiss on the cheek once he leaves me at my bedroom door. I close the door behind me and I feel this butterfly giddiness in my stomach. I hurry up and hop into the shower to get the rest of the garbage smell off me and off my hair.

“Ok sunshine you ready to get to studying?”

“Yea just give me a sec. I’m almost done.”

“Ouch.”

“You ok in there sunshine.”

“Yeaaa I just hit myself.”

“Ok I’m ready. Can you pass me my English book please.” I say taking a seat on my bed

“Here you go.”

“Thank you.”

“Ms. Abigail is going to bring us up some food. Now let’s take a look at your assignments.” He says sitting next to me.

AJ helps me with all of my homework and helped me figure out my text to speech on my computer and phone. This is going to make my studies so much easier. After we are done with our homework and with our dinner we cuddle in my bed. He starts rubbing my head and gives me lots of head kisses. I fall asleep in his big arms in the matter of minutes. I haven’t been this at ease in a long time. I feel like a large weight has been lifted off my shoulders now that at least one of my friends knows what’s going on with me. Hopefully he doesn’t change the way he sees me now that he knows the truth.