Confessions of a Pornstar

*Opening Scene* “f**k f**k f**k f**k!!!” The moaning growing louder as he pumps into the blonde harder and harder. Concentration written all over his face as beads of sweat coat his body. The tattooed man grunts lowly and lifts the blondes leg over his shoulder and goes deeper, picking up speed as he gets bears his release. “ OHHH!!” She panicky taps his forearm quickly. “Too rough!” She squeals. The man grunts in frustration and annoyance and quickly removes the woman’s leg from his shoulder and sits up on his knees. His breathing heavy as he tries to contain himself. He was close but as always they could never let him have his release before they tapped out. Before they couldn’t take him all the way. And that displeased him. His body shivered as it tried to come down from his high. He needed to be rough to get the pleasure he wanted and promised himself to never c*m until his dominant side was happy. With that he slipped the knuckle of his index finger between his lips and bit down, causing pain and pleasure but mostly to keep himself from cumming. “ CUT!!!!” A voice shouted, bringing him back to earth. “Sorry it just got too intense and rough” the blonde says quietly as she sits up and peeks up at Damien. Damien nods and gets up from the bed as his assistant rushes over with a bottle of water and robe. “I get that a lot” his deep voice says soothingly as he covers up and takes the water ,chugging it all down. As he finishes he hands the empty bottle to the assistant and looks at her. She smirks and shakes her head and switches him with a towel. He looks at her and rolls his eyes and walks to his dressing room as the assistant follows leaving the blonde in a pout as she figures that their session has ended. “What a waste of time.” The assistant looks at Damien as he shrugs. “I mean they know. You know? You have your um certain taste in how you do your thing. And they still find some chick who can’t take it. And they should know better before they take the job. “ she continues. “And I can see you’re getting bored of it too. I’m trying Damien. Your circle of ones that can actually take it is small. Maybe you can try something different?” She peeks at him as they enter the dressing room. He grunts and walks to a chair that’s sitting in-front of a vanity. Damien was a man of few words. He barely said a word but always managed to make himself clear with what he wanted. He sits down and stared at his own reflection before rubbing his temple. “I’m just saying Damien. Try something new, you know? Give the women something to linger onto. Tap into that romance novel passionate s*x that all women fantasize” she continues and walks In-front of him while keeps her distance. Damien looks at her as if she challenged his alpha ego. “No”. His voice deep and stern. “Save that s**t for soft porn.” He gets back up and grabs his change of clothes that the assistant left out for him and a towel. “I’d get more views and ratings for what I’m about to finish in the f*****g shower than doing that kind of bullshit, Janice.” He walks to the private bathroom and shakes his head. “Don’t book me these bullshit gigs Janice. You’re better than that” he smirks “I don’t want to have to replace the best assistant in the industry.” Janice’s eyes widen for a second before shaking her head and crosses her arms. “Bring it on King Kong. Ain’t nobody going to find miss submissive for you like I can and you know it. You forget I’m the reason you get to c*m. Without me, you would’ve never been a dom and you would’ve been just a lowly pornstar in every lame teacher f***s cheerleader for good grades film. “ she smirks. Her challenge makes Damien chuckle deeply and causes Janice to laugh at herself. “You’re an asshole you know that? I hope that perfect girl you’re looking for knows what she’s in for.” She looks at him. “You better get washed up. I can smell the p***y and sweat from here. I’ll go make sure you get paid” With that Janice walks out leaving Damien alone to his own thoughts. What he didn’t want to let her know is that he did appreciate their mutual friendship. He was thankful that she did find him among the crowd of fresh meat that was being casted as a lowly b grade teacher spanking cheerleaders. He rolled his eyes at the thought. She made him realize he was something more. Janice used to be a manager for the adult industry but due to her overwhelming popularity and demand she demoted herself to being an assistant when she found him. Through trial and error she figure out who he was before he did. How he got excited when his costars would allow him to be brutal with them but once he got his release, he would cater to them. Almost lovingly. But it wouldn’t last when it was over. The costar would thank him for his time, offer a second round for the road and be on their way. The act would be over and they weren’t embarrassed to show it. But the evidence would be written on his face. The longing in his eyes stayed. Damien was 34 years old and being in the industry since 21 made him tougher. He built a wall within himself, never letting anyone in only Janice because only she knew what he wanted. She was his protégé and friend, nothing more. She introduced him to the many females and males that could satisfy his curiosity and create this being within him. Becoming a Dominant. Over time Damien became inpatient and bored. He had been through all the women that could coat his hungry and need. He tried the fresh ones and the older ones and sometimes tried the passionate ones. But in the end none could fulfill him. In the end he felt as if it had something to do with him. It wasn’t the partners, it was him. Something had to be wrong with him. So he made it his mission to find her among the crowd of faces. Hoping she would come up in one of his films to make his life easier. But he knew that would be next to impossible.