Chapter 32:
Chase helped me walk to the living room and get situated on the couch. She then took Jacob and Tara to their crib. Jared sounded like he was giving Lillyan a bath while Anthony was in the shower in the same bathroom so Jared could keep his eye on him. I felt horrible not being able to do much. I wasn’t used to being down for the count and unable to do simple stuff for myself let alone for the kids. It made me feel like a horrible mother that I’m unable to provide for my kids the way most mothers do. Yeah I could rely on Chase and even JAred to do the things that I couldn’t but I still felt like I should be able to do these things and because I couldn’t I was constantly beating myself up internally. I hate showing weakness especially since becoming Queen Alpha. Being weak was a
