Sinful Desire

A Price to Pay

A PRICE TO PAY

I withdraw some money from the hospital ATM to get some clothes as I couldn’t afford to return home knowing the fact seeing my daughter would likely put me back in that very spot of temptation. Though I knew my Elena would be hurt by my actions, I decided to stay far away from them both for it was better off leaving without them than coming back home only to find myself desiring Clara sexually. Two days passed I have failed to return home, Elena had earlier called me when she woke up seeing me not in the bed, I had told her I was at the office, now she kept calling seeing I was making no attempt of returning home. She grew worried as well as Clara who also kept calling me, I brought my self to the decision of switching off my phone. At the late hour of the evening I found Elena standing at the nurse counter waiting to see me, I looked closely to see who the lady in a short red gown was, it was Clara, she had come to the hospital with Elena, quickly I ran to hide in my office, locking the door from the inside. Nurse Tina approached my office trying to have access but found my door locked. She returns to Elena to inform her I might had left. While locked in my office hiding from my own daughter, I recalled the dream I had in which we made love passionately. I shook my head and pushed the thoughts out of my mind, reminding myself of how wrong it was and how I could never act on those feelings. I couldn’t let myself be tempted like that, not when it could destroy everything and everyone I loved.

As the night wore on, I stayed locked in my office, avoiding any contact with Elena and Clara. I knew it was wrong to hide, but I just couldn’t face them, not yet. I needed time to sort through my emotions and figure out how to move forward.

The next morning, I found a note from Nurse Tina telling me that Elena and Clara had left, but would be back later to check on me. I knew I couldn’t keep avoiding them forever, but I just wasn’t ready yet.

Days turned into weeks, and I continued to stay away, keeping my distance from Elena and Clara. It was a painful separation, but I knew it was what was best for everyone. I needed to focus on getting myself back on track and overcoming my personal demons. Every one in the hospital began to get concerned about my refusal of not getting back home, due to the continuous arrival of Elena at the hospital, I couldn’t take it anymore than to return home after being absent for six weeks.

Arriving home I found Elena eyes red as one whom have been crying, Clara sat beside her on the couch consoling her about my disappearance, I walked to her as she refused lifting her head to behold my face, Clara in her own anger refused saying a word to me, instead she lifts Elena up and took her to our room. I felt speechless for I knew my absence had hurt them so much they now despise me. I sat at the couch unable to hold my feelings, there again I cried out my emotions, I had no intention of leaving my wife for six weeks as I had earlier left her for six years but the desires I have for Clara pushed me to stay away, now my actions have hurt both Elena my wife and Clara my daughter. It was a difficult time for me, trying to find the right words to say and make things right again. I knew apologies wouldn’t be enough, I needed to prove my commitment to my family.

The next day, while Elena was at work, I went to the store and bought some flowers and her favorite chocolate. When she returned home, I gave them to her and apologized sincerely for my actions. I promised her that I would never stay away from her and our daughter. I lied to her of my addiction in treating patients took the best out of me just as I did while I was out of the country. With time, Elena forgave me but it took a while for Clara to come around. I had hurt her deeply by leaving her again. I knew nothing I would say will change how she felt towards me, I decided to give in to little of my desire for her by treating her like the princess I have called her when she was tender. As the days went by Clara treated me with silence, I tried to be a father to her but my action in staying away had played a bigger part in making her neglect me. I tried showering her with gifts as I had earlier done with Elena. Clara was a different case, she barely let gifts and sweet words buy back her affection. I knew I had to break the silence treatment she was giving to me. I thought deeply on what I ought to do to make her see me again as her father.

Early in the morning before she exist her room, I lay wait for her facing the shut door to her room on my knees. She opens her door seeing me on my kneels waiting for her.

Clara: Father, what are you doing?

John: Waiting for your forgiveness.

Clara: Father please get up before mom catches you kneeling before me.

John: I won’t until you forgive me.

Clara: Alright, get up please.

John: Does that mean I have been forgiven.

Clara: Yes I have Father.

John: Thank you, Clara. Your forgiveness means a lot to me. I’m truly sorry for my actions and for staying away from you. I want to make things right and be the father you deserve.

Clara: It’s not just about gifts or words, Father. It’s about being there for me, understanding me, and showing me that you care. I’ve felt neglected, and it hurt. I need to see consistent effort from you.

John: I understand, Clara. From now on, I promise to be more present in your life. I want to listen to you, support you, and be involved in your interests. Let’s spend more quality time together, doing things that you enjoy.

Clara: That would be nice, Father. I miss our father-daughter bonding moments. But it will take time for me to fully trust you again.

John: I completely understand, Clara. Rebuilding trust takes time and effort, and I’m willing to do whatever it takes. Just know that I love you and I want to be a better father to you. I’m here for you, always.

Clara: Thank you for apologizing and for being willing to change. I believe in second chances, Father. Let’s work on our relationship and make it stronger.

John: I’m grateful for your forgiveness.

Clara embraces me as I could feel the warmness of her breast pressed against my chest, I let go of her so I may not quickly loose myself to the darkness that dwells inside of me yearning for her. I knew I had to give in little to the desires within me that I may not loose the relationship I ought to have build with my daughter within the years I have been away. I exist her presence so she may dress up for school. Getting back to Elena, she inquired to know where I was, I told her of my visit to Clara apologizing for my actions in staying away from her.

Elena: Oh!, you really did hurt us by refusing to return home. Beside you haven’t been to the hospital for days now.

John: Yes I haven’t because I thought it wise to settle with my daughter before leaving for work.

Elena: That’s true love, now tell me are you going to be at work today?.

John: I will be away by 9pm, I have been handling all medical duty through the help of my assistant, I received a call from Doctor Patrick about two female interns in the hospital, they need my signature before they can begin their training, I also will have to be around in ensuring they learn the ways of an experience doctor like me.

Elena: I hope you aren’t going to bury yourself in your line of work with another intention of no coming home?

John: Nah, not after what I have been through begging our daughter to forgive me. I shall return home, I assure you.

Elena: Very well then, I will be going for a one week trip to finalize a business deal with my boss, I won’t be around to say my farewell to Clara.

John: Don’t tell me you are leaving today?

Elena: Yes I’m , am sorry I didn’t tell you, I just found out early today while I returned from the office.

Elena wasn’t able to prepare breakfast for I and Clara, I left the room to do just that. While I was in the kitchen preparing toasted bread and fried eggs with pancakes, Clara walks in all dressed up for school, she froze in shock seeing it was I in the kitchen.

Clara: Dad!, you in the kitchen instead of mom, where is mom?

John: Mom is preparing for a business trip, she should be out any moment from now, come sit and eat so I can drop you at school.

Clara looked slightly perplexed, but she understood the situation and took a seat at the dining table.

Clara: Okay, Dad. But I hope Mom’s business trip isn’t too long. I’ll miss her.

John: I’m sure she’ll be back before you know it, sweetheart. She just needs to take care of some important work. Now, enjoy your breakfast, and we’ll head to school once you’re done.

John quickly finished preparing the meal and served it to Clara, who began eating eagerly. As they sat at the table, John couldn’t help but notice the surprise on Clara’s face when she had seen him in the kitchen. He decided to address her curiosity.

John: You seem surprised to find me in the kitchen, Clara. Well, I wanted to make sure you had a good breakfast before school since Mom couldn’t do it today. I may not be as skilled as her, but I can manage some basic cooking.

Clara smiled and nodded, appreciating her father’s effort.

Clara: It’s nice of you, Dad. I know Mom is usually the one who takes care of breakfast, but it’s good to see you trying. Besides, it’s a nice change once in a while.

John chuckled, grateful for his daughter’s understanding.

John: Thanks, Clara. Sometimes we have to step up and help each other out, especially when Mom is occupied with work. Shouldn’t we?

Clara nodded, finishing up her meal.

Clara: We definitely do, Dad. Thanks for making breakfast today. I’m ready to go to school now.

I smiled, pleased with my daughter’s positive response.

John: Great! Finish up, and I’ll grab my keys. We’ll be on our way in no time.

After Clara finished her breakfast, I dropped her off at school. We shared a warm goodbye, I reassured her that I would be there to pick her up in the afternoon. As Clara walked into the school building, I couldn’t help but watch Clara walk away as I stare helplessly at her walking further away from me. As I drove down to the hospital, i arrived and requested the two interns’ request form. The form was provided, and I signed it, giving my approval for their training in the hospital. Afterward, I approached Nurse Tina, a red-haired nurse in her mid-30s, and asked her to call the interns to be present for a quick meeting at the hospital. Few hours later both interns were present as they walked down to my office. I being occupied with the forms in my desk barely looked at their faces when they stepped into my office.

Ellen: Hello Sir, you sent for me.

John: Is your second with you here in the office?

Stella: I’m here as well sir.

I lifted my head to look at them both, seeing how beautiful they were, their beauty can not be compared to that of Clara, I requested to know why they have choose this hospital to work as interns

John: Hello again, Ellen and Stella. I apologize for not properly acknowledging your presence earlier. It’s been a busy day, and I appreciate your understanding.

Ellen: No problem, Doctor. We understand.

Stella: Yes, of course, It’s alright, sir.

John: Thank you. Now, as you’ve briefly discussed before with my assistant, I’d like to know more about each of you and your reasons for choosing this hospital for your internships. Let’s start with you, Ellen.

Ellen: As I mentioned earlier in my form, I chose this hospital because of its reputation for providing excellent patient care. I believe that working here will allow me to learn from experienced doctors like yourself and gain valuable practical experience in various medical fields. I also appreciate the emphasis this hospital places on research and innovation in healthcare.

John: Thank you for sharing, Ellen. Your enthusiasm for learning and dedication to patient care are admirable. Now, Stella, what made you choose this hospital?

Stella: I’ve always been drawn to surgery, and I wanted to train in a hospital known for its expertise in this field. This hospital has a renowned surgical department with skilled surgeons and advanced technology. I believe that being a part of this team will provide me with invaluable experiences and help me become a competent and skilled surgeon.

John: Excellent, Stella Surgical skills require both precision and expertise, and I’m glad you chose this hospital to further develop those skills.

John: Thank you for sharing your reasons for choosing this hospital. I’m impressed by your dedication and commitment to your specialties. I believe this hospital will provide you with valuable learning opportunities, and I’ll do my best to guide you throughout your internships. If you have any questions or need assistance, feel free to approach me or any of the senior doctors here. Welcome to the team, Ellen and Stella.

After addressing Ellen and Stella I took them around the hospital so they can get used to the system and how we operate here, while walking round the hospital, we began hearing moaning in the equipment room, I knew at that time no one goes to the room to get any equipment, I opened the door only to find Nurse Sarah and Doctor Mantis having s*x. They startled at the sight of me, I looked at the faces of Ellen and Stella as I could tell from their faces they didn’t seem surprised.

John: Why will you both be doing this now when you know you ought to be working?

Mantis: I’m sorry chief, we are done for the day.

John: You should no better than to do this in your car or at your place.

Sarah: Forgive us Chief, we were just talking and then we got lost in the moment.

John: Very well then, this two ladies with me who have witness for the very first time that this hospital doctors and nurses have s*x in equipment room are our new interns. They will be with us for two years.

Sarah: It nice meeting you ladies, I’m sorry we had to meet this way.

I gave Sarah a smile seeing how sorry she was, her love life with Doctor Mantis seems to take full control over her, as both of them often forget they are medical experts. I turned to Ellen and Stella with the intention to draw their attention to the primary reason of being in the hospital so they may not think the hospital accept s****l conduct.

John: Ellen, Stella, I apologize for the inappropriate behavior you witnessed just now. It’s important to maintain professionalism in the workplace, and what you saw is not a reflection of our hospital’s standards. Please understand that this incident is not common or acceptable behavior among our staff.

Ellen: (Nods) We understand, Chief. It was unexpected, but we’ll try to focus on our training.

Stella: Yes, we’re here to learn and contribute to the hospital. We won’t let this incident affect our perception of the entire staff.

John: That’s the right attitude. I assure you that such incidents are not tolerated, and we will address this matter internally. As interns, your primary focus should be on observing and learning from the medical professionals here.

Ellen: We appreciate your understanding, Chief. We’ll do our best to make the most of this opportunity.

Stella: Absolutely, Chief. We’re eager to contribute and gain valuable experience during our time here.

John: I’m glad to hear that. Let’s continue our tour and get you acquainted with the hospital’s operations and protocols. If you have any questions or concerns along the way, don’t hesitate to let me know. Remember, we value professionalism and patient care above all else.

Ellen and Stella: Thank you, Chief. We’ll keep that in mind and make the most of our training here.

After giving Ellen and Stella the tour, I reached for my phone to check the time for I am not a man of wrist watch, seeing the time, I drove quickly to Clara school that I may pick her up. Getting to her school. I waited patiently for Clara outside her school, I observed her talking with a blonde teenager who appeared to be around the same age as her. They seemed to be engaged in a friendly conversation, and I couldn’t help but notice the smiles on both of their faces. It was heartwarming to see Clara interacting positively with her peers.

As their conversation came to an end, Clara and the blonde teenager bid farewell to each other. Clara turned and noticed I was waiting for her, and her face lit up with joy. She quickly made her way towards me, her backpack slung over one shoulder.

“Hey, Dad!” Clara greeted me, a wide grin on her face. “Sorry for making you wait. This is my new friend, Stella. We just met today, but I already like her a lot!”

I returned Clara’s smile and extended a hand towards Jane. “Nice to meet you, Jane. I’m Clara’s dad. Thank you for keeping her company.”

Jane shook my hand warmly and replied, “It’s my pleasure, sir. Clara is awesome, and we had a great time getting to know each other. I hope we can hang out again soon!”

I nodded appreciatively and said, “That sounds wonderful. It’s always great to see Clara making new friends. Why don’t you both exchange contact information so you can stay in touch?”

Clara and Jane exchanged their contact details, promising to reach out to each other. I felt a sense of satisfaction knowing that Clara had found a new friend who made her happy and my desires for Clara was dormant

With Clara by my side, I walked back to the car, ready to drive home. As I got in and started the engine, Clara couldn’t contain her excitement.

“Dad, can Jane come over this weekend? We could have a movie night or maybe go to the park!” Clara suggested eagerly.

I glanced at Clara in the rearview mirror, her eyes shining with anticipation. “Of course, Clara. Let’s talk to Jane’s parents and arrange something. It’ll be a fantastic weekend for all of us.”

As I drove away from the school, feeling grateful for the smiles on Clara’s face and the new friendship she had found in Jane, I arrived home to find Clara insisting on cooking for herself. She reassured me that she would be fine without me being around for the next couple of hours. However, I had a pressing responsibility at the hospital to treat a very ill patient whose life was of great importance to the hospital.

Considering the urgency of the situation, I made the difficult decision to prioritize my patient’s needs and return to the hospital. Although it might have been challenging to leave Clara behind, she understood the importance of my role in saving lives and providing medical care.

Before leaving, I made sure that Clara had everything she needed to be comfortable during my absence.

With a heavy heart, I said my goodbyes and headed back to the hospital,

Arriving at the hospital, I prepared myself mentally for the critical work ahead. My patient’s life depended on my skills, knowledge, and dedication. With a renewed sense of purpose, I focused on providing the best care possible, hoping for a positive outcome for both my patient and Clara, who had become an important part of my life, as well as feeling grateful that the darkness which once came out of it hole to consume me with lust for Clara had returned, at least that I thought.

I returned back home to spend more quality time with my daughter who have grown in becoming a beautiful teenager, I couldn’t help but show her so much love a father ought to show his daughter and not that of a sinful desire which crawled out of its hole. Each day for us were so memorable that she didn’t feel the absence of her mother, As the weekend approached, I reached out to Jane’s parents and arranged a get-together. We agreed that Jane would come over to our house on Saturday afternoon for a movie night and some fun activities. Clara couldn’t contain her excitement and eagerly prepared for the weekend.

On Saturday, the doorbell rang, and Clara rushed to open it, revealing Jane standing there with a beaming smile. They greeted each other with excitement and quickly began chatting animatedly about their plans for the day.

We started the movie night with a selection of their favorite films, complete with popcorn and snacks. Laughter and giggles filled the living room as they enjoyed the movies together, occasionally exchanging comments and sharing their thoughts on the storyline.

After the movie marathon, we decided to make the most of the beautiful weather and headed to the nearby park. The girls ran around, playing on the swings, climbing on the jungle gym, and engaging in friendly races. Their energy and enthusiasm were contagious, and it was heartwarming to see them having so much fun.

As the sun began to set, we returned home. The girls settled down in Clara’s room, exchanging stories and dreams. Their bond grew stronger with each passing moment, and it was evident that they had formed a genuine connection.

In the evening, we ordered some delicious food for dinner, and the girls chatted excitedly about their day while we enjoyed our meal together. It was a lively and joyful atmosphere, filled with laughter and endless conversations.

As the night drew to a close, Clara and Jane exchanged heartfelt goodbyes, promising to meet again soon. Jane’s parents arrived to pick her up, and we expressed our gratitude for their daughter’s wonderful company.

Clara and I waved goodbye from the doorstep, watching as Jane’s car disappeared into the distance. Clara turned to me, a contented smile on her face, and said, “Dad, today was amazing. Jane is an incredible friend, and I’m so grateful for her.”

I hugged Clara tightly, feeling a surge of happiness and pride. “I’m glad you had a great time, Clara. True friendships are precious, and I’m thrilled that you and Jane have found each other.”

With hearts full of joy and cherished memories of the day, we stepped back into our home, knowing that Clara had not only found a new friend but also experienced the beauty of companionship and the importance of genuine connections in life. Later on that night as I slept on my bed I fell into the darkness which I thought had been gone few days ago since the departure of my wife for a business trip, with my eyes short and I laying on the bed I felt the sound of my door opening as one walks in climbing my bed, slowly I open my eyes only to see it is Clara on her night gown crawling to me on my bed, she places her lips against mine as she moves her hand to my d**k, the touch of her lips against mine And the sensation of her hand on my d**k quickly awakened my desires. However, as quickly as the thoughts came, my mind snapped back to reality, as I realized it was just a dream. Shaken, I got out of bed and walked over to the window, looking out at the moonlit night. Though the dream had been unsettling, it had also brought up feelings I had thought would never rise again. I walked out of the room to the sitting room, switched on the TV and played a porn video to which I masturbate on to relief me of the desires that burns within me. Unaware I was that the sounds of the moaning from the TV reached the room of Clara, she stepped out quietly trying to avoid her feet being heard, getting to the sitting room she found I with my eyes shut m**********g to the sound of the moan. Opening my eyes I found her gazing at me , quickly she ran away like a child who knew she had done something bad. I switched off the TV and retired back to my room in a worst state than before. I felt ashamed and embarrassed that Clara had caught me in the act. It was a moment that I wished had never happened and I felt stupid for not being more careful. I tried to ignore the way her presence had affected me, but my mind kept racing with thoughts of her. I knew that it was wrong and that I needed to push those feelings aside, but as much as I tried, I couldn’t seem to control my desires.

The next few days were awkward and tense between us. Whenever we were in the same room, I could feel her eyes on me, but I couldn’t bring myself to look at her. We went about our business like nothing had happened, but it was clear that something had changed.

Then, one day, Clara came to my room. She was hesitant at first, but she finally mustered up the courage to speak. “I’m sorry,” she said softly. “I shouldn’t have intruded like that.”

I nodded, not knowing what else to say.

“But,” she continued, “I couldn’t help but notice that you were watching that video. I know it may be uncomfortable, but I want you to know that there’s nothing wrong with having those desires. It’s natural.”

I was surprised by her words. I had never heard her talk about s*x so openly before. But at the same time, there was something comforting about her words. It was as if a weight had been lifted off of me.

“Thank you,” I said, feeling a bit more at ease. “I was feeling so ashamed and embarrassed.”

She smiled gently. “There’s no need to be. We’re all human beings with natural urges and desires. It’s nothing to be ashamed of.”

From that day on, everything changed between us. We started to talk more openly about s*x and our desires, and I found myself feeling more comfortable with my own feelings. In a way, Clara had given me the permission I needed to explore my own desires and to feel okay about them.