Drummer

19

-Phil's pov-

I awoke. My head throbbing in pain. I tried to breathe in and out steadily to calm down and stop the pain a little. It worked a little.

Flashes of last night played in my head. It was insane. I still couldn't believe it. I tried to think of the negative possibilities: Dan was drunk too, It was a dream, I was hallucinating, etcetera. But when I felt Dan next to me on my bed sleeping soundly, I knew it was real and I was glad.

I picked up my notebook trying not to disturb Dan and I scribbled. Random thoughts, to be honest. I set it down on my nightstand and sat up. Then I felt a hand wrap around my forearm. I looked next to me and saw Dan looking up at me with sleepy eyes.

"Good morning." I said, pushing my covers off, revealing my pale torso.

"Morning." Dan said and he sat up as well and, without a moment of hesitation, planted a small kiss on my lips. I felt warm and all fuzzy. "How'd you sleep?" He asked me, standing up, making me notice his half-naked body which was only covered in black boxers and tattoos.

"I slept fine. Headache is killing me though." I said simply and Dan nodded.

"Alcohol, man." Dan pointed out.

"No kidding."

"Well, will breakfast make you feel better? I'll buy." Dan said and I nodded.

"Let me take a shower. I feel like I bathed in alcohol." I said and stood up.

"Okay, I'll change and shower when we get back." Dan informed and I nodded.

After I took my shower, I put on a white t-shirt with a black sweater over it, black jeans, and converse. I made it to the living room and saw Dan sitting there, using his phone.

"Ready." I announced and Dan looked at me and stood up.

"Nice. Let's go." Dan said, reaching out his hand as if wanting me to take it and hold it.

I put on my coat and took Dan's hand. It was warm and soft. It felt nice.

We walked out, hand-in-hand, towards the little coffee shop down the street. I felt awkward yet nice. Dan didn't say anything. I didn't say anything. I don't know what to say. What should I say?

My thoughts clouded as we entered the coffee shop and was greeted by the smell of coffee and biscuits. It was sweet and cozy. Dan said to sit down while he ordered and I hesitantly obeyed.

I sat at a red booth that looked out onto the busy street where people walked and drove to get to work. Then, as I thought this day was going well, it was ruined as I saw Becky walking over here with a girl by her side. I panicked. Dan came back with two coffees and scones and noticed my troubled look.

"What's wrong?" He asked as he sat across from me and I motioned with my head at the coffee shop's door.

He looked just as Becky and her friend entered. His eyes went from confused to utter disgusted and he playfully shivered.

"I can feel satan entering my blood." He joked and I laughed.

"I think our pal Lucifer is kinder." I remarked and he nodded in agreement.

"Let's wave at her to see her reaction." Dan suggested and I agreed.

I turned and Dan looked at her as well. Her friend pointed at us and when she turned to meet our eyes her face dropped into a frown making Dan and I laugh intensely. They left soon after without ordering anything and we just kept on laughing.

"Her face was the best thing ever." Dan said.

"Her friend looked so confused." I pointed out an Dan smiled and nodded.

After eating, drinking coffee, and talking, they decided to take a walk. They made it to a little park, which was empty due to the snow, and sat over the frozen benches.

"It's weird." Dan said and I sighed.

"What?"

"Us. It's like yesterday didn't happen." Dan said sadly and I looked down.

"Yeah. I mean I'm happy we are hanging out. Talking and stuff. But it's like the fact that we admitted to having feelings for each other and not deliberating on the topic makes me quite confused." I admitted and from the corner of my eye I saw Dan looking at me. I looked back at him and we kept staring.

"I just... I-I don't know. I mean, I never thought I'd end up liking someone so much." Dan admitted

"Me neither." I said. "I mean I'm a nerd that likes to write and you're a rocker who-"

"-likes to bang on stuff and make a lot of noise." Dan finishes and I giggle, tugging on my scarf. "Yeah, it's quite ironic... but I'm glad I ended up liking you." His last words made me melt and when I felt his glove-covered hand wrapping around mine, I couldn't wipe my goofy smile off of my face.

"I'm glad I like you too." I finally said.

We kissed for a few seconds and with that we left for his gig.

We kissed for a few seconds and with that we left for his gig

Dan was sat on his usual place: behind the drums. He looked at me as I stood in the far back with Pj and Caspar and smiled.

Chris walked into the stage and the whole place started screaming and cheering.

"Good evening, Manchester!" Chris yelled into the mic as the rest of the band got into their positions. "We're Blurry Haven and we're here to... well... entertain you, it's what a band does." Chris said simply making the whole place laugh. "But before I start singing I want our drummer, Dan Howell, to take a bow." Chris said and motioned at Dan who smiled, stood up, and bowed, as the crowd cheered. "He is going to be singing this first song which is a song by the Goo Goo Dolls." Chris announced and I looked at Dan wide-eyed.

"This is dedicated to the person I really really like... In fact... I love. I love you, Phil." Dan said to the mic next to his drum set and my mind froze.

Pj and Caspar were shaking me as I smiled in disbelief. Dan loves me. He really loves me. And I love him. I love him too much to not admit it.

Dan stood up and moved over to the piano on the side of the stage. He placed his hand on the keys and started playing, making me melt. Then when he sang my heart stopped.

"And I'd give up forever to touch you

'Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

'Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's meant to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming

Or the moment of truth in your lies

When everything feels like the movies

Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me

'Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's meant to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am."