Stop Loving

Risking my life to fly to you

"I quit, you find someone else! By the way, please give me the last month's salary, otherwise I will go crazy every day to the company squat. If you want to bully me again, please remember, I am a shandong woman, Xishi Jiangqing Fan Bingbing's hometown woman."

In the morning in the world Trade Center stairway of the office building to throw this nonsense malicious words, I went home, a dark and dark sleep.

Then, on an overcast June evening in Beijing, I hurried to the Capital Airport.

Every time I go to T3, I'm stressed. I don't know if it has something to do with T3 being so much like a big pear.

I got on the bus downstairs in the north second ring road. I was carrying a very small red suitcase, which I could take on the plane and avoid the trouble of checking luggage.

Everyone who checks in at the airport and waits for their luggage has a broken heart.

Too much business trip, I can't afford to hurt.

I fired my boss the day before the trip so I wouldn't have to wait for my luggage.

Because she refused to allow me to take my annual leave, which had been announced six months in advance, with unfounded reasons and a vicious irony.

I could no longer endure the physical assaults of a middle-aged, unhappily married woman on my face, and I felt that not only would I continue to suffer psychological trauma, but I would probably never have an o****m again, physically.

Twenty-five years of an unemployed woman is not much better than twenty-eight years of a married woman.

But I stand today, look forward to tomorrow, finally decided to drink today.

Taxi just drove to the north fourth ring day began to rain, the driver finally silently rolled up the window opened the air conditioning, my sweat got temporary liberation.

Every summer taxi in Beijing, MY heart will be looking forward to the oncoming is an active open air conditioning taxi.

I am so uncomfortable with all kinds of embarrassed personality, absolutely will not be flattering to remind the driver said: "master, you can open the air conditioning?

I default for the driver not to open the air conditioning has his unstoppable reasons, because I have tried a few times, encountered the driver smelly face even if.

The most wonderful time was in the high temperature of Nearly 40 degrees in Beijing. The teacher with big tongue said to me with a sly smile: "sister, calm mind is naturally cool", and then, he n***d ignored my justifiable requirements.

Always admit the tongue can lotus of I, have no words unexpectedly, inner billow is turbulent to almost hold in an internal injury.

In the later days, I simply let sweat in a taxi without air conditioning, but whenever I meet a taxi with air conditioning on, I think it is a gift from God.

two

As I drove to the airport expressway, the weather outside my window made me feel a sense of death by generosity.

I came to Beijing for seven years, never seen such a turbulent scene, the roadside trees in the wind messy particularly delicate and pitiful, rain is almost in 2008 economic crisis market falling speed in pouring.

I stole a sideways glance at the driver. He was a little pale.

My heart is not consciously uneasy, but I am very calm, even if it is strong.

I took my phone out of my bag, plugged in my headphones and started listening to Zeng. Listen to her sing, WHAT I love most is that angel, love to die, love to the whole world, the lights are out, and finally give you consideration.

The book says that when you have greed, you will have nostalgia for this world, and you will be afraid of losing and dying.

Greed, yes, I have greed, how can I not greed.

I want to apologize to my mom and dad, at this moment, I did not lusted after their pure and unrequited love for me, they were short but ruthless temporarily left behind.

All I can think about is Bei, wearing a white shirt, smiling like an April day, the light through his hair, falling on his shoulder, beautiful like a dream that will never wake up.

Xiao Bei, Xiao Bei, xiao Bei, about the future, I think all about you.

At this moment, he is waiting for my arrival in the distant Shenzhen, he should be leisurely eating dinner with her mother, do not know my side of the downpour, the whole city is about to be destroyed.

Thinking of this, I am very sweet, as if a mother bought a child's beloved gift, thinking of the moment he is sleeping peacefully, wake up to see the world of beauty, feel the air full of rose petals.

Women love to the depths, like a mother, men will never grow up, indeed also have to love like a mother.

three

God loved me and didn't let me die on the road.

My dishevelled wet rushed into T3, inadvertently see the reflection of the door glass reflection, I definitely like a female warrior, no sense of mission increased.

The airport is in chaos, the screens are full of red letters about delayed flights, and an annoying female voice on the radio announces that all flights are delayed indefinitely.

It was like the entrance to Noah's Ark, and headless flies were bumping around.

Sly I decisively picked up the box, go to the second floor of a Sichuan restaurant sofa sat down, in the waitress cold and passionate white eyes, leisurely point a gong bao chicken and rice bowl, sent a micro blog to inform the world I stood in the airport, and then repeatedly refreshed sit and wait for the masses to comfort.

Zeng yike sing a song of "Leo" time, weibo had dozens of general family warm warm the hearts of reply, I'm so lonely and beautiful with dear friends interaction with passion, smiling sometimes pear what of, feel oneself in the eyes of people around like a Daisy light and fragrant, very anxious to have a light behind the radiant.

An hour later, I have no heart to tweet, feel empty, as if there is something missing.

I was speechless and looked up at the sky. I wanted to say that I had acted too much, and had fallen into the endless drama of literary young women's sorrow.

Then Amy called, my best friend and, indeed, my best friend, with an unconcealed gloating in her voice.

"Joy, haven't you gone yet?"

"You're in Beijing, and you think it's raining cats and dogs on the east second Ring Road, and the weather at the airport is good enough to take off? And can we please conceal a little of our unseemly voice?"

"It is impossible. A true friend is one who punishes when he is down. What are you doing?"

"Or sitting in the sichuan restaurant, around countless people covetously with my throne, the waiter has come over to wipe the table twice. Well, I won't go after this!"

"Even if they put you up as the empress dowager, you won't leave. Don't make an issue out of it."

"The person is too familiar with boring, I see we later don't contact, or do the most familiar stranger!"

"Are you willing? Rightness, did zhao Xiaobei of your home contact you?"

"So... I think he's having dinner with his mom. I just got back from America. I have to get together." My heart suddenly for no reason "thump", finally understand I just sad drama source.

"He can read tweets while eating, doesn't he know you're stuck at the airport? At least you also go to Shenzhen to find him ah, at least have to care about it."

"Cough... He that person, careless, you are not ignorant ", my heart more and more deep, but still hit swollen face leng blunt silly elder sister, "maybe, he forgot THAT I want to find him today."

"This how can forget, you today son a day did not contact?" Amy's voice became stern.

"No...... He has been busy recently. After coming back from the United States last week, he went to Xiaomeisha with his classmates to play. We haven't been in touch much.

"Gee... You are so relieved."

"What do I have to worry about, you love novel white read ah. This love ah, just like the hand grip the sand, hold more tightly, the more quickly scattered, the last empty hands, empty sad!"

"Don't drag ancient poetry with me, I haven't read the book, can't understand! You two are still in love after three years? No, it shouldn't be three years. It should be six months. Two months a year, summer and winter."

"Why give me to compress into six months ah, whole three years good yao.

"Long-distance love for three years, I really admire you."

"The matter of your idolatry of me is not within the scope of our discussion; it will only be on your part to express it silently."

"Really did not have a trace of worship, just for your fixed - minded a little sad its misfortune anger its undisputed."

"I am pure I am beautiful I collect the fine traditional virtues of Chinese women in a suit, do you care?"

"Joy, you don't send a message? See how he reacts?" 'Amy's voice dropped suddenly, making me timid.' I feel something is wrong, though you old couples don't treat him like that. I don't need to ask questions, at least I need a normal concern. What's more, are you going across the ocean to see him?"

"There is no sea between Beijing and Shenzhen," I corrected Amy guiltily, trying to change the subject. "How about some knowledge of geography?"

"Joy! Be serious!" Amy sounded anxious. "I don't want you to be alone in the wilderness looking for a husband."

"Good good, I listen to you, hung up the phone hair."

"That I hang up, you send me immediately."

four

Amy hung up the phone with a "BIU" sound, and I was listening to the "beep, beep, beep" disconnect through headphones, like the emperor in "The Emperor's New Clothes" who was caught n***d.

Amy said I had "crossed the ocean to see him," which was not an exaggeration.

Because, THE reason why I flew to Shenzhen on June 15, just because on June 16, Xiao Bei's birthday.

More because, xiao Bei once said he wanted to travel with me.

We made an appointment as early as March that we would apply for his visa in one week after he came back from the US, and then I would go to Shenzhen to find him, and we would fly to Bangkok together.

I spent three months planning this trip as if I were studying for the college entrance exam.

I don't even have to practice breathing when I meet you, but I will try to learn something new every day during the seven days in Thailand.

It was like a little secret between little North and me that I had never told anyone, not even my closest friend Amy.

When Amy finds out, she's gonna go off on all sorts of things, calling me a s*x w***e.

How do I explain to her that there are things you can't share even with the people closest to you, that it's a kind of emotional self-respect, silly, stupid, childish, that seems to me like all the stars are in bloom?

As if spring after a storm, open the door alone to meet a falling flower.

And like the end of the world, we hug each other waiting for the moment white head.

I took out my mobile phone, carefully sent a text message to small North, I said: Small north, I arrived at the airport, Beijing heavy rain, flight delay, I do not know when to take off.

Six minutes and fifteen seconds passed, and I sat like the bad guy who had been caught. Waiting is one of the most difficult things in the world.

The short message of small north finally came back, I hurriedly picked up the mobile phone on the table, and actually entered the wrong password of the lock screen.

Small north say: it doesn't matter, how late I go to the airport to pick you up, you get on the plane before give me text message.

I looked at that text message, smile like baotu spring general unstoppable surge up, the airport filled with cold air combined with rain moisture, I sucked into the nose, but full of love fragrance.

Then, in the midst of the uproar, I heard the announcement of boarding.

The announcer said, dear passenger, your flight ZH9822 is about to begin boarding.

I handily picked up the luggage, with all the happiness in my life, started, ready to board.