After leaving Sabella to go do her witchy things I try to get Emily to show herself. I know she's with me, she's the extra weight, the heaviness I've felt since her death. In all these years I've always assumed it was the guilt that our friendship got her killed that weighed on my. I never would have thought the feeling was the weight of her actual soul being attached to me. f*****g Sara. After an hour I give up simply saying to thin air that whenever she's ready to talk to show herself. With that I make my way up to my room. It's still early for me to attempt sleep but after Da and his episode and then the disaster with Ella and Emily I'm worn out. After washing up and changing I throw myself on my bed and grab a pillow holding it to my chest. I was right about not being able to sleep pro
