falling for you

chapter 12

Emma pov.

the rest of the week was good, Corbin came into the bakery to see me several times. it's like we didn't have that make out session in my house his self control is beyond mine and I don't know if it's because he's gotten some lately or because I haven't or maybe he really just wants to take this slow. but does that mean he still treats me just as a friend's when no one is around?

Dylan has texted and he's been being nice, said he was just worried he'd lose me then ended up losing me anyways but is excited about the game today.

Casey and mark have been by each other's side and I just stole her away to come down to the pool with me before the game. it's not often we get time away and Miley is with her mama. I know her and mark want alone time but I also need my best friend. it was tense when we first got her as Dylan pulled me in for a hug and kisses my cheek right in front of Corbin who just looked away and hasn't actually spoken to me since we all got here. l did see that he's basically in the room across the hall, mark and Casey are on a different floor and I'm not sure where Dylan's is. I got my own room and I'm excited to see the game tonight, if isn't my first LSU game but I'll be honest if I could have tickets all season I would.

I jump in the pool to clear my head, so thankful it's still warm enough. Casey looks me over and smiles

" you look hot which one are you trying to make upset?"

I laugh

" this is just my swim suit and at the moment I don't want to think about either"

she looks at me confused and I explain to her how Corbin is acting and how I like Dylan as a friend but I really don't think we'd ever be good at being more than that. I need the heat, the passion I feel when I'm with Corbin.

she nods understanding

" well then let Corbin play his game if he wants to act like a jerk then let him. you are hot and technically single just enjoy the weekend "

I nod

" that's exactly what I'm going to do in so sick of the hot and cold "

we enjoy swim for a while before we get out to get some sun not long after the guys come in and thankfully they have drinks. and I'm greatful for my sunglasses because I can look over Corbin as he stands there acting as if I don't exist. ugh curse him for being so hot.

Dylan sits down at the end of my chair and I know he's looking over my body

" you girls about ready to get ready to head out?"

he ask I smile

" yes think I'm gonna make myself a drink before the game so I'm gonna head down to the store first "

in the middle of talking with everyone I notice Corbin walk off and I can't help but roll my eyes.

he either wants this or he doesn't it isn't fair for him to keep doing this to me.

up in my room I shower and starts getting ready. before I put on my make up all go to the store but I definitely need clothes first. as I finish pulling on my shirt there's a knock at my door.

" yes?"

I can see Corbin looking me over.

" just thought I'd save you a trip"

he says showing me the bottle of whiskey and a coke"

I nod

" well thanks I've gotta finish up "

he looks at me with his head c****d to the side

" what's wrong sunshine "

I shrug

" absolutely nothing just don't wanna be late. thanks"

I take the bottles from him and close the door. if he wants to play hot and cold two can play that game

when we got to the game we all got beers and of course I ordered myself a snack.

Dylan chuckled beside me and I looked at him ' like what'

he just smiled shaking his head

" I don't think I'll ever get used to how much you eat. I like it"

I shrug. what can I say I stay snacking I can't help it, sure it's probably the reason I can't get rid of my extra pounds but I'm not one to ever turn down food.

he puts his arm around my shoulders loosely and carries my drink and snack as we find our seats.

I stand looking over the field they really are great seats. I squeal excited.

Corbin has yet to talk to me but he did sit down beside me at least I can't see his eyes from the dark shades he's got on same as me so I can't tell what he's thinking.

" yo bro why you way over there?"

mark asks him since it's currently Corbin,me, Dylan, mark, and Casey sitting in a row

he shakes his head

" I ain't trying to be a third wheel down there"

everyone chuckles and Casey flips him off

before the game they honor our soldiers by having who ever is present stand as they sing the anthem. I could tell Corbin was a little hesitant and out of instinct I just grabbed his hand from my seat giving him a squeeze and his shoulders seemed to relax as he looked down at me smiling.

I heard Dylan clearing his throat beside me but I ignored him.

once it was over he sat down

" you okay"

he nods taking a drink and I clink my car to his

" thank you for your service"

he smiles at me but then it drops slightly and I c**k my head to the side

" you haven't signed your discharge papers have you"

I see the surprise on his face and he turns his head from me flipping his ball cap backwards

" I'm not having the conversation right now"

I'm taking back by his comment. he was literally blown up and he hasn't left yet?!

oh I'm gonna kick his ass!

" have you told your mama"

his head snaps to me

" no and you won't either. I said I'm done with this conversation"

corbins pov.

fuck! being on this trip with her hasn't been easy. all week I've been careful and haven't had much physical contact with her because that's proved to be intense. and honestly I can't go about kissing her everyday then come here and have to act like nothing has changed between us.

when she was in that small bikini at the pool I watched as that prick ran his eyes over her body. she's mine! I wanted nothing more than to throw her over my shoulder and take her back to my room.

but instead I walked away. this is becoming harder than I thought it would. so I went for a short walk and decided to grab her drink so I'd have a reason to knock on her door but to my surprise she didn't seem like she wanted me there basically closing the door in my face.

now this. f**k! for her to find out this way how stupid I am isn't what I wanted I don't even know if they'll take me back but I haven't been able to sign the damn paper work. I can't let go of who I am.

then I snapped at her, I didn't mean to but I just can't deal with this right now on top of everything else. I watched as her face changed from soft to hard behind her big sunglasses and she just nodded taking a sip of her beer and digging into her nachos.

I enjoyed the game, but I enjoyed watching her more. between her yelling about calls or her little happy dance when they score.

other than having to watch Dylan continue to try to flirt with her

once we ate and got back to the hotel I was trying to hide how pissed I was at Dylan he's been opening flirting with her and I've just kept my mouth shut because in front of mark who am I to say anything?

we ended up on the elevator with Dylan and it was beyond awkward. she yawned and he chuckled asking he'd if she was finally tired, she's been the same ball of energy I was used to all day.

we went towards the left and he went towards the right k heard he door shut as I was facing mine and I heard her trying to open hers. once I glanced down and was sure he was in his room I walked behind her and I could instantly feel her breathing change.

" you going to bed?"

" I uh definitely need a shower".

her body calling out to mine the way if always does when I'm close and I can't help but smirk she turns her body fully and I instantly put a hand firmly on her neck pushing her back against the wall as she looks up at me through her lashes

" what are you.."

she starts but I cover her mouth with mine our tongues dance together as I firmly hold her throat I can feel her racing pulse, the other holding on to her hip her hands bawled into the front of my shirt holding on.

we're brought from our passion as we hear a throat clear, still trying to get my thoughts straight I just lean my head against hers and her eyes flutter open as she flushes

" well I came to see if you wanted company but I see you already have it."

I hear Dylan's voice and em stiffens in my arms turning her head slightly to look at him

" I uh I um we were just.."

she tried to form some excuse for being in my arms, when in reality other than him knowing mark she shouldn't need a damn excuse for being in my arms, it's where she belongs.

but he cuts her off as I slightly take a step back from her body.

" don't worry ems just because I busted it doesn't mean I'm throwing the towel in yet, clearly all is fair in love and war"

with that he sends a glare my way and a wink hers and turns and leaves again.

she's still standing with her back against the wall she's now shaking her head as if trying to figure something out.

I step a little closer and she tenses. f**k.

" can I come over and talk after we've showered"

she looks me over letting out a breath before nodding and entering her room and closing the door behind her.

I sigh running my hands through my hair.

I take a quick shower and just throw on some basketball shorts and a t-shirt. I run down to the vending machine and grab her a drink and her favorite sweet snack, peanut m&ms.

I wait outside her door thinking if this is a good idea or if I should stop bothering her. i run my hands through my hair again and finally knock, I told her I was done running.

it takes a moment but she opens the door looks absolutely beautiful. her hair still wet from her shower, her face slightly sun kissed. wearing a big t-shirt and I'm really hoping a pair of shorts under it. when my eyes finally find hers she's blushes slightly playing with a piece of her hair.

...

she's sitting on her bed snacking as I sit on the edge we sit in silence for I'm not sure how long until she finally breaks it

" I just don't understand any of it"

her voice is quiet and she never looks at me I gently take her hand rubbing my thumb along her smooth knuckles as I speak

" I know I haven't been technically acting like a boyfriend or more than friends these past few days.."

she scoffs cutting me off

" no you've ignored me all day. the rest I could get past but acting like I'm not even around is what gets me.."

I cut her off squeezing her hand gently

" I know sunshine I know. I knew coming today I'd have to watch him with you, the way he can just pull you in for a hug, openly flirt with you, basically eye f**k you with me standing there."

I take a deep breath shaking my head

" it's hard not to act jealous or tell him to back off when everyone around thinks I have no reason to be. and just as I thought even after he seen me kissing you he isn't giving up and I really have no ground to fight on"

she squeezes my hand now and I look at her and she's looking me

" but there isn't a fight. it's been you corb"

her voice still a whisper

I shake my head

" knowing he's been with you. knowing he's even had that chance because I was so stupid and ran away I just can't seem to make myself believe you've picked me"

she quiet her head c****d sideways and her face confused then like a lightbulb went off she replies

" he hasn't been with me in that way Corbin."

she blushed slightly and now I'm confused

" you guys were together for a couple months.."

I trail off not knowing exactly what to say and she slightly giggles making me even more confused.

she moves a little closer to me her legs now resting on mine as she holds my hand her eyes dancing and the blush on her face

" we never got that far. not that he didn't want to and I mean I guess I tried but it wasn't there, I always thought with time maybe the sparks and passion would come."

she sighs before continuing

" your one kiss ruined me. I really thought for a while maybe I was crazy but then kissing you again I know now I'm not crazy, it's there it just isn't with him"

I know my face shows how shocked I am. I can't hide it even if I tried. I'm beyond happy to know she didn't sleep with him. maybe there's hope after all that I'm not just some fantasy. if she feels this too then I haven't just made all this up in my head, the need for her.

" I had no idea you felt it too. I really thought maybe I was the one crazy, maybe I'd worked it up in my head once I finally kissed you because trust me I did f**k sage and I was never satisfied after I always felt like something was missing lije my share knew it was right"

at the end of that she pulls her hand from me her face a little angry

" I'm sorry I know it isn't something want to hear but it's true it was means to an end. that's why the therapist thinks we need to take this slow. I don't need to jump in with my d**k doing all the thinking again"

she blushes now and I cant help but gently rub my knuckles down her smooth make up free cheek.

she's beyond beautiful and she wants me. why I may never know.

" slow"

it comes out breathy and mine hitches too as I nod slowly

" slow baby girl. trust me when I say I want nothing more than to throw you down and worship your body while I have you screaming my name"

she turns red pulling her legs to her chest and I can't help but chuckle I love her reaction to my words

" and the army?"

she ducks her head again

I sigh

" I'm sorry for snapping at you. really it's just sensitive right now. like an open wound. I'm not ready to give up my life yet. and I know it's stupid I know they may not even take me back and no mama doesn't know I haven't turned in the paperwork, mark outside of my therapist is the only one which is how I'm assuming you know"

she jumps to her feet pacing and I know I'm in for it but I know she needs to say it and get it off her chest plus she looks absolutely adorable fuming at me

she turns to me pointing a finger

" I don't understand why you would want to put your life on the line again. I mean I would need understand because I haven't been there I know but still Corbin I don't know. I can't help but know how I would feel if we were together and you got shipped back out. I don't think I could handle it "

she throws her hands up

" and your poor mama oh God she'd be so broken Corbin"

I pull her to me gently making her straddle my lap maybe not the best decision as it makes me want to kiss her so bad

" I know baby girl I know I get it but it's who I am. I don't know who I am outside of the army"

she scoffs and pushes my shoulder

* the army isn't who you are. you are so much more you just don't see it because you are angry. you could do so much you are helping Jim way more than you'll ever know "

I sigh letting everything sink in

" we are working on it I promise. my therapist says I just need to take it a day at a time and find what makes me happy outside of the army find what makes me feel whole outside of the army for work "

she nods listening

she gently kisses the side of my mouth

" I can give you time. I can give you slow. but I don't know if I can watch you do it again. I don't know if I can watch you leave "

I nod my understanding

" all I'm asking for is time baby girl. you make me happy. happier than I've ever been even in the army. so we're making progress but please don't give up on me yet and please don't expect me to go home and sign papers just yet. let me get myself in order okay?"

she nods slightly and I kiss her. it turns more heated her taste is so sweet mixed with the m&Ms she had eaten

I don't think I'll ever get enough. but squeezing her thighs I pull away gently when she moans into my mouth. if I'm not careful slow will be out the window and I'll have her screaming tonight.

I sent my head on hers as she slight pouts and I kiss her pouty lips

" I know baby girl trust me I know"

I move my hips into her letting her feel how hard I am and she gasps

" how long has it actually been"

she looks confused then she turns red

" uh since a while before my break up"

I groan. damn it! I hate slow. I have my girl I want to be able to worship her

" f**k baby girl. I'm sorry I'm so messed up. I'm sorry I can't give you what you need right now"

she shakes her head holding me close

" no. don't do that. we will figure this out."

...

we cuddle into her bed me holding her on my chest watching TV and she yawns I know it's getting late and she needs rest

" I'm gonna go baby"

she shakes her shake pouting up at me and I smirk at her

" please stay. just hold me"

she whispers and I close my eyes

" Emma I have nightmares. I don't know if it's a good idea."

she cuddles more into me holding me close

" we will be fine. just don't leave please "

I can't fight her. I can't find it in my heart to walk out that door. so we cuddle in and she soon has fallen asleep looking like an angel wrapped in my arms.