falling for you

chapter 13

Corbin pov.

we've had a good day, just exploring the girls shopping and me actually speaking with Emma. Dylan hasn't stopped openly flirting, and I don't think he's said anything to mark about seeing us last night so I honestly think he's using it to get closer to her in the moments I can't.

at one point he had his arm slung I over her shoulder as they smiled for a picture Casey was taking. it took everything in me not to say something stupid.

we had lunch then we started walking down the shopping strip again, it's a beautiful day out so it's a great day for it. my leg had started to bother me and I didn't want to slow them down so I quietly made an left while they went right and found a bench by the water. just letting my leg rest. taking in the beauty around me.

my mind slips to last night and this morning, sleeping next to her holding her I didn't have any nightmares. I'm not sure if it was a one time deal or if it's something my body needs. I hadn't meant to actually fall asleep, but waking up next to her snuggled into my chest was like heaven.

she looked so beautiful just waking up, then I couldn't help but laugh at the thought of us having to scatter around and hurry to get me out of her room because Casey had called, apparently mark was looking for me and they were ready to head out. guess we both slept better than expected.

before she pushed me out her door she laid a sweet little kiss on my lips which has had me smiling all day.

I brought from my thoughts when I feel a hand slide across my shoulders and sunshine sits down beside me

" penny for your thoughts"

I chuckle at her and look at her.

simply beautiful her hair down I don't think she has any make up on smiling.

" just resting my leg and enjoying the view"

she takes my hand

" you could've told us we would've waited with you "

I shake my head

" don't want to slow y'all down I just needed a minute. your fan hasn't noticed your gone yet?"

I say nodding my head towards the shops and she chuckles

" you know he told me he isn't gonna say anything to mark. says he doesn't want to upset me"

she replies shrugging and I just sigh shaking my head. I'm sure he has more reason than that but I'm not gonna voice my opinion.

she grabs my hand squeezing

" how about a dip in the pool this evening? it'll help relax your leg"

I don't really trust myself in a pool with her, and her in a bikini. it'd be hard to keep my thoughts PG so I'm not exactly sure how relaxing it'll be, plus I know she's seen my chest but I'm just not sure how I feel about it just yet. everything is like a whirlwind with her and I can't seem to catch up.

she squeezes my hand again catching my attention as she smiles

" you'll be fine. we're swimming tonight"

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Emma pov.

the day has been great, I was happy to get to have some girl time with Casey and just relax. we all ended up getting a few new things and it was good to actually be around Corbin without him freezing me out. Dylan hasn't let up with his small gestures but after he told me he wasn't gonna spill the beans to my brother yet I was a little more comfortable around him. I know he's just being nice, and I know it wasn't fair to him how things ended. I'm just not sure we would've ever gotten the spark I was wanting and I don't know how to explain that to him without hurting his feelings.

Casey and mark have retired for the night which means my brother in currently doing my best friend

( gag) but I'm happy they are happy.

I told Corbin I'd knock when I was ready to go swimming, I needed a minute to get myself together.

I pulled on my swim suit and a cover up over it and knocked on his door sipping my drink as I waited for him.

when he pulled the door he smiled but it didn't reach his eyes.

" ready?'"

I way he'd as his eyes looked around and he breathed out

" sunshine I'm just really not up for swimming"

I scorched my brows

" whynt?"

he sighed Shaking his head

" Emma I'm just not going swimming. I'll talk with you later"

with that he closed the door in my face and I stood there staring at it, I was confused and I little hurt that he'd just closed the door in my face. shaking my head and pulling myself from his door I headed towards the pool, I didn't have anything else to do tonight other than watch TV since Casey was with Mark.

when I hit the pool I set my things down and took a seat myself sipping my drink pulling my shades down watching a couple kids swimming.

my mind kept going back to Corbin I didn't know what was wrong or what I'd done.

I laid back enjoy the last bit of sun that was out.

" hey em"

I hear beside me and turn my head to see Dylan in his swim trunks smiling at me. I smiled back

" hey Dylan"

he held his cup up as he laid back in his chair so I laid back in mine, listening to the sound of the kids splashing around.

" how'd you end up all alone?"

I signed shaking my head then turning it towards him as I shrugged

" he wasn't feeling swimming"

he nodded, looked around

" well wanna go swim?"

I looked around then back at him.

" I think I'm just gonna enjoy the sun for a bit"

he c****d his head to the side biting his lip but nodded.

I laid back down closing my eyes behind my shades trying to relax.

then put of no where I felt hands coming underneath my body and I knew I was being lifted.

"ah" I gasped and I heard Dylan laugh as he picked me up.

" put me down you i***t"

I said while laughing and hitting his chest.

he just laughed and the next the I knew my body was falling into the water. when I came up I glared at him laugh in as I swam to the side of the pool.

he looked down at me.

" how the water?"

I rolled my eyes and grabbed his out stretched hand brace my feet on the edge of the pool under the water and Making him Fall in with me.

once he came up he splashed me and I splashed back. we were laughing as I ducked his head under the water.

Corbin.

I wanted nothing more than to go to the pool with her. but going to the pool with her meant getting in the water, which meant taking my shirt off. I knew she'd seen part of my chest a while back but I wasn't ready for this. my mind was racing with the what ifs and I just couldn't do it. I didn't mean to be rude and slam the door in her face. God it hurt me to do it.

I laid on the bed playing over ever possible out come of her seeing me. my scared body, my broken body. at this point I didn't know what was worse my broken mind or my body. I couldn't make myself see an outcome where she accepted it. where she was acting happy and could enjoy the pool with me without a thousands questions.

my there and I had been over this countlessly times, I knew a lot of it was in my head but at the same time it was my head yelling me I wasn't good enounce for her.

fuck!

I had enjoyed our day together, I had enjoyed the fact that she understood we couldn't just come out and tell the world just yet, I kind of like things being out little secret for now. like she said we could see where things went before telling everyone. but at the same time I just couldn't put myself beside her, I couldn't place her Being happy with how f****d up I am. I don't want to bring her down with me. I wanted her to always be sunshine in my eyes, I didn't want that smile or happiness that seemed to follow her every where she went to darken.

I finally pulled myself fromm my bed and and made my way down to the pool area, I wanted to talk with her apologize for being an ass.

when I final hit the outdoors area the doors opened and I took a deep breath and started towards the pool, if I over thought this and longer I'd chicken out and she at least deserved and apology.

I rounded the corner and heard her laugher, coming in sight of the pool I saw her and Dylan in the pool Together and my heart sank.

I know she had told me last night that she didn't feel things for him in that way, but looking at the two of them, hearing her laughter and watching them be so free it hurt.

he could make her happy where I could only Continue to bring her down, he could be free to date her and show her off to the world like she deserves where I was basically begging her to just see me behind closed doors.

I looked her over once more before turning and walking back to my room.

once there I packed my things and headed back home. I was once against a coward, I didn't want to face her. I didn't want to have to try to explain things. honestly I just wanted her to forget about me, I wanted her to forget about whatever this could've been and be happy with someone who deserved her.

I knew in the back of my mind I still needed to fix myself and I had no idea how long that would take.