In Love and Betrayal

Entering his office in midday, gave me the element of surprise since most of his employees are out for lunch. So here I am, nearing his office when I heard voices coming from the inside. I stopped and tried to listen since I dont want to interrupt if it is an on-going meeting.. "Davin, its been 4 years, what is your plan? our child is getting older and has been asking me when will you stay with us forever?" Silence..only my strong and rapid heartbeat is all i can hear..I dont know what I am feeling right now. My husband of 5 years and Boyfriend of 4 has been having an affair behind my back and now, he has a CHILD?? A CHILD!!! I waited and waited for his response, it feels like forever when I heard his voice saying "Sasha, I know..but I cant leave Leigh, I dont know but I both love you and I cant just let her or you go..I am sorry" "Everyone knows Davin!! You cant keep doing this to us!! You have to decide now, its us or her! Choose!!!" Wow, just wow! cant let me and her go?? and everyone knows?? am I in some kind of soap opera? I just laugh silently. Am I this stupid not to see the signs? those late night hours, those pity looks, those phone calls that did not come through and that particular lilac smell that somehow I manage to smell in his clothes and car for a long time now. I dont even have the energy to cry, no I wont cry. Afterall these years, years I spent faithfully loving him,setting aside everything for him and now this. Yes I am stupid, but I am not helpless and I decided to stop being stupid from this moment. I feel sick..the thought of him with another woman sickens me to my core and with that thought and not wanting to hear from those despicable people, I left.