Whispers In Shadows

08

I felt guilty.

It was our first day as a couple but I already screwed it.

Hindi ko alam. Masaya naman ako na kami na, na sa wakas, masusuklian n'ya ang maramdaman ko. But the thought of telling our family about our relationship, I don't think I can do that yet.

We grew up together and I knew this would be an issue for both of our family. I can't imagine Papa Ae's opinion about it and Ninang Sierra, I don't know. I'm scared.

"What's wrong with you, Alexa? Kanina pa ako salita ng salita pero 'di ka naman nakikinig." Dionne said, we are in my room and she's been telling me about her day.

I shook my head. "Ah. Nothing." I denied. "I'm just a bit sleepy."

"Oh. You're sleepy na?" Dionne asked.

I nodded again.

"Okay, then. You can sleep na, I'll just see you again tomorrow." She bid. She get up from my bed and kissed me on the cheek before leaving me alone.

I thought I would be at ease and will be able to sleep now that I'm alone but I was wrong. Instead, I got more bothered by what happened earlier.

"Oh, God." I muttered.

It's been hours and I haven't seen him since then. Ni hindi rin ito sumabay sa amin kanina para sa dinner.

Uneasy, I tried to get up and ride in my wheelchair. Thankfully, it wasn't that hard for me to move anymore.

I went out of my room, determine to see him. The whole living room was quiet now that everyone's already in their rooms. Pasalamat na rin ako dahil kung nagkataon, baka bumalik din agad ako sa loob ng kwarto.

"You can do this, Alexa." I told myself as I put my feet down the floor.

I have been practicing to walk again on my therapy sessions and thankfully, I'm improving progressively. In a few more sessions I'll be back to my normal.

"One step at a time," I told myself again, taking a step up to the stairs.

I was holding on the railings as I climbed the stairs and when I reached the top, I proudly smiled at myself.

I didn't know I'll be this happy by just climbing the stairs.

"Few more steps," I said again and with the help of the wall in the hallway, I walked until I reached his door.

I immediately but carefully knocked, avoiding to make loud noise. He opened it after my fifth knock.

"Let me in," I immediately said, looking behind me if there's someone that will see me.

I took a step forward and he immediately held me, guiding me as I walked.

"You walked up here?" He asked, leading me to sit on his bed.

"Obviously," I answered sarcastically, making myself comfortable on my seat.

He arched his brow. "Why are you here, anyway?" He then asked as he sat on his computer chair in front of me.

I felt uneasy immediately, gone is the courage I had earlier.

"I...uhm...I just wanted to check on you," I said, stuttering.

"Why?" He asked.

"You didn't eat your dinner," I answered.

I watched as his brow stayed arched as he crossed his arms to his chest. "I did. I had it delivered here instead," he answered.

"Oh. I see," I said, nodding.

"Is that all?"

I shook my head. "I wanted to say sorry for my action earlier," I said honestly.

"You're sorry?" He said and pushed his chair near me.

I nodded again. "I'm sorry I acted that way. I was just surprised when Dionne went in. I don't know how I will react and that's my initial reaction. I know I disappoint you but please know that I didn't mean that," I said, reaching for his hand and caressing it.

"I was not disappointed. I was hurt," he said.

I pouted. "Don't make me feel guiltier. You can't be hurt by that, I know you." I said.

"You know me, huh?" He said, pulling himself closer to me. "I was hurt, baby. I felt like you're not proud of me to even tell my sister that I'm now your boyfriend," he said.

I shook my head. "I didn't mean it that way," I said.

"Hmm..."

"It's not that I'm not proud of you, okay? You know how long I have been crushing on you. It's just that I'm not comfortable telling anyone yet. I'm afraid that they will disagree with us," I said.

"Why not?"

I shrugged. "Dash, we grew up together. Sure, your father is best friend to my biological father and your mom to my Papa Ae. But that doesn't guarantee that they will accept us having this relationship. And for sure, they are dreaming for someone far from who I am for you," I said.

But instead of saying something, Dashiel pulled me, making me sit on his lap.

I flinched in pain. "That hurts!" I said, slapping his shoulder.

My pelvis ache from the sudden movements. Akala ata nito porket nakalakad na ako ay maayos na ang sitwasyon ko.

"I'm sorry," he said, putting his hands on my waist and massaging it gently.

"I just tried walking up here, Dashiel. But that doesn't mean I'm fully recovered, Okay? Please take that into consideration," I said.

"I'm sorry. I just wanted to hug you," he said as he snake his arms around me.

I heard him taking a deep sigh after. "Do you want us to be a secret?" He asked.

I leaned on him and nodded. "I'm not ready to tell anyone yet. But I understand if you won't agree on that," I said.

"I don't like the idea of hiding us, but if that's what you want, then, I'm cool on it." He said.

"Are you sure?" I clarified.

He nodded. "Let's do it your way."

I smiled and put my arms around his shoulder. "Let's be discreet for now and when we're ready, we will tell them." I said.

He nodded and hugged me tighter. "I love you."

"I love you too," I answered and leaned on him more.

I stayed in his room for more than an hour and if he didn't see me yawning, we wouldn't notice the time.

"Let's go back to your room," he said.

I nodded though I wanted to stay more. Gusto ko sanang i-suggest na doon na lang ako sa kwarto n'ya matutulog kaso ayaw ko namang isipin n'yang ang aggressive ko masyado.

Unang araw palang, makikitulog na agad sa kwarto? Nasobrahan sa landi, Alexa?

"I didn't know you could walk already," he said as we climbed down the stairs, he was carrying me in his arms.

"I can't do it properly yet. I just tried to see you though it hurts a bit on my back." I answered.

"You should have called me instead," he said.

"How? I don't have your number and we're not even friends on Facebook." I said.

"I'll give you my number and add you on f*******:," he said.

I laughed. "May makikita ba ako sa f*******: mo? Baka puro shared posts about some science experiments lang laman ng f*******: mo ah?" I teased.

He arched his brow. "Would you rather see posts about other girls on my timeline?" He said instead.

I glared on him. "Subukan mo." I said.

It was his turn to laugh. "I don't have interest in other girls. I already have my eyes set on you," he said. "Open the door please," he added.

I did what he asked me. I pushed my door open and we went in. He put me on my bed and motioned me to lay. But instead, I grabbed my phone from my night stand and handed it to him.

"Put in your number, please?" I said, smiling brightly.

He took it and registered his number. He handed it back to me afterwards and I almost jumped in laughter seeing what name he put on it.

"My baby?" I blurted.

"I'm your baby, right?" He said.

I laugh more. "You're so corny," I commented but didn't disagree. I put back my phone on my nightstand. "I didn't know you're this 'sweet'." I teased.

"You don't know me that well yet, then." He answered, sitting beside me. "I still have more things I want to do for you, baby."

I squinted my eyes. "Hmm...I will be looking forward to that, Mr. Dela Torre." I said.

He smiled. "You should sleep now," he said instead, motioning me to lay down again, I did and let him tucked me in.

"Good night, Dri." He then said, planting a soft kiss on my forehead.

I closed my eyes and smiled as I feel his lips. I want to pull him and tell him to lay down beside me, but again, I don't want to sound clingy or aggressive. Unang araw palang namin at kailangan kong maging mahinhin sa harap n'ya, kahit kunwari lang.

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"Good night," I replied, touching his cheek.

He smiled and said, "Thank you for this day, baby. You make me so happy."

"Ditto. I'm so happy that you finally confessed," I replied.

He snorted and pinched my nose. "Matulog ka na nga," he said.

"I want to kiss you," I confessed.

And this guy licked his lip before biting it. "Stop teasing me," he said.

I giggled. "I'm not teasing you," I said and touched his lower lip. "It's so red," I said. "I want to taste it." I added.

"Dri..." He called out.

I smiled more. "Let's kiss, please, baby?" I plead.

And before he could react, I pulled him to me and crashed my lips to him for a short kiss.

"Naughty," ani n'ya.

I laughed again. "You're my first kiss," I said.

He didn't say anything, he was just looking at me intently and when I was about to say something, he leaned on me and crashed his lips to mine again.

Isang halik tapos isa pa ulit hanggang sa ang papatak-patak ay naging malalim at matagal na halik.

He was kissing me softly as his thumb caressed my cheeks.

"Mahal kita," ani n'ya pagkatapos ng isa pang mahabang halik, he was still leaning on me, his forehead on mine.

I smiled again and encircled my arms around his shoulder. "Mahal din kita," sagot ko.