Whispers In Shadows

13

"They are getting bigger," Dashiel said as he was massaging both of my boobs.

We were in his apartment–thankfully, he was living here alone, no one will disturb us--as we do things.

I rolled my eyes. "Should I say, thank you for kneading my boobs. They are getting bigger now," I said sarcastically.

Dashiel shrugged before diving on one of my breasts and sucked on the top of my breast. His other hand is still kneading my other boob.

I was laying on his bed as he was hovering over me.

Ever since he learned touching my boob, this guy won't stop doing it again and again.

There were times that he would suddenly appear in front of me when his siblings were away and he would pull me in his car just to make out until he was sucking on my boobs.

Apparently, we are still in this phase. Second base? I'm not sure.

No matter how hard this guy is having a boner, he still wouldn't do it to me. He was seriously waiting for me to turn eighteen. But with the way he was getting addicted to my boobs, I can't imagine what more if he tried doing 'it'.

I heard it feels different, it was addictively good.

God.

I couldn't imagine it but I'm excited.

"I'm turning eighteen next week, baby." I said as he was still sucking on me.

He let go of my boob and looked up to me. "I know, baby." He said, licking his lips.

"We can do it finally," I said.

His brows creased. "Why do you want to do it so badly?" He asked.

Looking straight in his eyes, I said, "Because it is with you I'm going to do it."

Dashiel reached for my lips and kissed me. "I can still wait until marriage, you know." He said.

My eyes widened in surprise from hearing that from him.

I know he loves me, but it never crossed to my head that he was already looking that far for both of us.

Marriage.

I honestly don't believe in that... Ugh! I don't want to think about it yet. That's at least a decade from now.

Not wanting to contradict his words, I cupped his face and kissed him lustfully. I even pushed him down until it was me who's hovering over him.

"Let me please you this time," I said.

He tried to stop me, thinking I'm going to force him to do that thing.

I shook my head.

"Don't worry, I won't force you on something you don't want to do yet," I said teasingly.

But this guy just pulled me to kiss. We kissed. I was giving back the same intensity he's giving me.

After a while, I started raining kisses on his face; from his lips down to his cheek, jaw and down to his neck.

"What are you doing?" He asked when my hands flew to the zipper of his pants.

I chuckled. "Chill, baby. I won't put this inside my vagina." I said and his brow furrowed immediately.

I just shrugged and busied myself in his thing.

I pulled down his pants together with his boxers, letting his thing sprung free.

I gasped on the sight I witnessed. "God. You're huge, baby!" I said..

Shyly, he tried to cover it but I stopped him, wrapping it with my hand.

"Let me handle this," I said as I stroked my hand up and down.

"Dammit!" He blurted, biting his lips hard and looking up, covering his eyes with his arm and his Adam's apple moving up and down.

I smirked and fastened my stroke.

"What are you doing?" He asked upon seeing me leaning down to his erection.

"I'm going to suck it, baby." I answered, still stroking him.

His eyes widened. "What? No!" He said and immediately pulled me until our eyes were at the same level. "I won't let you do that. You don't have to, alright?" He said.

"Bu-."

"No, buts, Maria Alexandria. I didn't make you my girlfriend just to have a blowjob, understand? I love you. And this, I know this shouldn't be happening but whatever happens after this, I am so willing to take responsibility for it." He said.

I bit my lips after hearing what he said.

God.

You have blessed me more than I deserved!

"Do you understand, baby?" He clarifies.

I nodded and hugged him. "Understood," I answered.

Our routine was like that, sneaking out to meet. We would either roam around the mall--of the next city so we can avoid being seen together by some people we know or know us--or we will just hang out in his dorm to watch movies that always end up making out.

My relationship with Dashiel was very simple, we may not like other couples who can flaunt their relationship in public but we are content with it. We are happy in our own world.

"Are you sure this is how you want to celebrate your birthday?" Papa Ae asked.

We are preparing for the swimming trip he organized as a celebration of my eighteen birthday.

I was so firm on having a simple celebration though Papa tried to persuade me a lot of times to have a big party. But this is what I really want, to celebrate it simply like the previous years because for me, my birthday is something we should not celebrate for it was also the day when my nanay died.

My mom died giving birth to me.

"Yes, papa. This is what I want," I answered.

He sighed.

Papa knows my reason so he didn't force it anymore. He just helped me prepare with everything and when we were done, we drove straight to the venue.

We will be there for two days and a night. It will be a small and simple celebration where we will just eat and swim and my guests are Dashiel's family, Keith and Lucia only.

"Happy Birthday, A!" Dionne greeted me upon seeing me. She hugged and kissed me on both of my cheeks. "Here," she then handed me a gift.

I rolled my eyes. "I said, you don't have to give me anything," I said.

"It's your eighteen birthday, A! I was already disappointed that you won't have a party so please, don't make me annoyed by not accepting my gift," she answered.

I shook my head.

"Happy Birthday," Keith greeted as well, hugging and kissing me on my cheeks too. She also handed me a gift and she immediately motioned me to say nothing about it.

I did.

Lucia came next. She greeted me too and handed me her gift. She was shy handing it to me so I decided to not say anything.

Then, Dan. He just shrugged and handed me his gifts, yes gifts. He has two gifts for me.

"I'm not sure what you want so I bought two. I hope you would like one, though." He said before stepping back.

He didn't even greet me!

I just ignored it when Ninang Sierra stepped in. She hugged me and kissed me on my cheeks. She also greeted me and handed me a big paper bag which she said was her gift and by the looks of it, I already know it's expensive.

Oh, my god!

Then, I looked at him, my boyfriend, Dashiel. He was just standing at the side, watching everyone as they can publicly touch me while he can't.

I smiled at him when our eyes met. He did too and mouthed, 'happy birthday, baby.' I nodded and replied, 'thank you and I love you.'

The celebration began with lunch, they had so much to talk about that we took an hour and a half eating. After the lunch, we all went to our rooms--Dione, Keith, Lucia and I will be sharing one room. Dan and Dylan will be in one room while Papa and Ninang Sierra will be in separate rooms. We also have rooms assigned for our house help that we also bring with us during this weekend vacation--I would rather call that a vacation than a birthday celebration.

"Let's take a picture," Dionne said after we all changed into our swimsuits.

She was wearing a two piece red bikini, K's on a plain white one piece like Lucia who's on her black. While I was on my mustard two piece high waisted asymmetrical swimsuit.

We took a lot of pictures, group and solo. Dan had to knock on our door for us to come out.

Dan was whistling seeing the three of us but immediately grimaced when it was his sister in front of him.

"Yuck," he said.

Dionne immediately punched him and clung her arms to Keith. Lucia walked beside me.

We all headed to the pool area and there, we spent four hours swimming and playing. I was tired when the night came.

"Let the party begin!" Dan announced upon entering our room with buckets of beer in his hands.

I was shocked to see him but the girls seemed excited.

I knew they planned it all!

"We will be scolded!" I said.

"Don't be a killjoy, Alexa. It's your birthday, let's have fun!" Dan said.

And just like that, the drinking session began. And thought they would stop after finishing the buckets Dan brought but I was wrong!

They ordered another two until we were all drunk.

Lucia was already sleeping with Dionne in one bed while Keith's on the other one, Dan lay beside her.

I kicked him.

"That's my space, idiot. Go back to your room!" I said but he just shrugged.

"I can't walk anymore, Alexa. Let me sleep here!" He said.

"Where am I going to sleep then?" I asked, pulling him up but he is too heavy to even move by me.

He pointed at the couch. "Just sleep there for now, please. Let me lay here," he said before wrapping his arms around Keith's waist, pulling her closer to him. He also snuggled on her neck.

I just shook my head.

I walked to the couch and was ready to lay there when my phone beep.

It was a call from Dashiel.

"Hey, baby." I said.

"Happy Birthday," he said.

I pouted. "It's past midnight already. It's not my birthday anymore," I said.

"I was calling you earlier. You're not answering," he said.

"I was drinking with your siblings and our friends," I said.

"Drinking?"

"Yeah. Dan brought buckets of beer!"

"Damn. That's why he's not here," he said and I nodded.

"Yeah. He's here. He actually kicked me out of my bed and told me to sleep on the couch," I said.

"Don't let him sleep there."

"He's already asleep, baby. He won't wake up because he's too drunk," I said.

"Dammit! I'll get him there," he said.

But an idea got into my head.

I waited for him to come into our room and when I heard a knock on our door, immediately went and opened it. I stepped out and faced him, closing the door behind me.

"I'll get him," he said. He was about to open the door but it was locked. He turned to me.

"Let him there," I said and held his hand. "I'm eighteen now, baby." I said.

Beer must have gotten into my head.

I was shameless again.

"What?" He asked, confused.

I stepped closer to him until we were a few inches away from each other.

"I said, I'm eighteen now. So, we can do it now," I said.

But then, he shook his head. "You're drunk, baby. Let me get Dan so you can sleep now," he said.

Stubbornly, I shook my head. "I thought we will do it when I'm of legal age. I'm eighteen now, baby."

"But you're drunk."

"I'm not drunk because if I am, I won't be standing here. I'm probably knocked down asleep now," he said.

But he shook his head. "No, Alexandria." He said firmly.

His tone of speech stunned me. It was firm with finality and I realized that I was already forcing myself to him.

I stepped backwards, removing my hold on him. I smiled, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to force myself on you." I said.

I took out my keys from my pocket and opened the door wide.

"Get your brother now so we can all sleep," I said, smiling without humor.

I felt hurt but I can't blame him.

I'm being pathetic for forcing him to do things that he wasn't interested in.

God, you're so dumb, Maria Alexandria.

Dashiel must sense my disappointment that he tried to hold me but stepped backwards again. Shaking my head.

"Get your brother now, Dashiel. I'm sleepy already," I said and walked towards the be