The Human's Special Wolf

Chapter 4

Jasmine's POV

I'm laid in bed, drunk as a skunk and going over all my flaws and confirming to myself why he can't love me.

I am not beautiful enough

I am not smart enough

My skin is not perfect

I don't dress right

I'm not perfect Mia

I'm like this for hours and find myself taking myself and my next bottle of vodka in to his room

I just want to lay there and pretend like this is where I am meant to be, not Mia, but me. This is my place not hers. Ar some point I drift off and I am awoken to Joshy telling me that he loves me and has done since the moment we met but he cant be with me because he is destined to be with someone else. In my drunken haze, I ask him to explain what he means. He tells me can't explain it right now but he will tell me one day. He gets up to leave and I tell him to stay with me.

“Joshy, please don’t leave me. Stay with me and love me the way I love you. Please dont leave me" I beg him as tears flow down my flushed cheeks.

“Mia is my one and only, she is my soulmate. I wish I could love you the way you deserve to be loved Jasmine, but I can't. One day I will explain why” He goes to kiss me on my forehead but I move and attack lips. He refuses at first but i bite his bottom lip gently and he gives me easy access to his mouth and tongue.

I slide my hands down his body and undo his jeans. He tries to protest but gives in and rips my Cami top off exposing my bare breasts. He tries to stop telling me he can't cheat on Mia. I protest and tell he has only known her a day but I am in love with him and have been since day 1. He tries to protest but I smash my lips against them and we end up making love to each other until the early hours. I fall asleep snuggled in to his chest, the happiest I have ever been in my life. I finally got to be with the man of my dreams.

I wake up the next morning with a smile on my face. It didn't stay for long though once I opened my eyes and realised I was in my own bed. Was last just an amazing dream? Did I imagine it all? I drag myself to the bathroom feeling sore down below, confirming that it wasn't just a dream. I jump in the shower and get myself dressed in a cute tartan pinafore and white T-shirt ready to face Joshua and see where we go from here.

I head out to kitchen to make myself a coffee and a bacon butty. I can not get through the day unless I have at least 2 or 3 cups of coffee during breakfast. I am a serious caffeine addict and pretty sure that there is more coffee running through my veins than there is blood at this point.

As I am stood nursing my delicious cup of heaven and waiting on my bacon cooking, I reminise about all the arguments me and Joshua have had over how to make the perfect bacon butty. A bacon butty should clearly be smothered in brown sauce but Joshua thinks it should be mayonnaise. I mean, what kind of heathen puts mayo on bacon?!

I'm startled out of my daydream by someone ringing the doorbell. "I'll grab the door" I hear Joshua shout. Finally, my bacon is ready and perfectly crispy and I put my butty together. Just as I turn around to sit at the breakfast bar, Joshua is walking through the kitchen and that is when I drop my cup and plate, shattering them all over the floor along with the pieces of my broken heart because following behind Joshua is the gorgeous goddess that is Mia.

"Um, uh, I'm sorry" I stutter before running out of the kitchen and barging past Naomi as I run out of the apartment and down the street hearing the faint sounds of Naomi shouting after me.