Entangled In Lace

Chapter 2: The Reality

Chapter 2

"The truth doesn't cost anything, but a lie could cost you everything." -unknown

11:30 P.M, Sunday, November 15th

I wiped my tears falling endlessly, my heart breaks so much I can't believe it. I don't expect this but I do expect something impossible.

"Sophia?" I looked behind I saw Caden with his girl, I stay firm.

"God! Sophia, let me explain?" He holds my hand and I withdraw my hand from him.

"Caden, who is she?" I turned to her and have a staring contest with her. Her eyebrows arched "What are you looking at? So cheap."

"What? Cheap huh?" I pulled her hair and slapped her pretty hard.

She put her hand on his face and doing some acting because Caden is here. "Caden, she slapped me. Ouch!"

"It's okay, Denise. Don't worry." He glared at me. "The Sophia I know won't do such things, you've changed!" My eyebrow raised.

"Wait, what? Don't you know the Caden I know wouldn't do such things like this? You're cheating on me, Caden! How insolent are you? Like, I did such a thing as horrible and disgusting?" I clenched my fist. It hurts and I want to cry but I gripped myself. I won't let myself appear weak in front of them.

"Look, I'll explain everything." He grabbed my hand again.

"I said, don't. Leave me alone!" Then, I glance one more time at the girl name Denise. I grin at her and said, "Good luck and nice catch. You two are the same. The leech and the humbug." Again I walk out there.

I've heard that Caden calls me but I can't afford to look back.

"Caden, please don't follow her. Don't leave you said you love me? She's cheap and I'm damn more pretty."

"No, But Denise…."

"What? No buts…" Those are the last words before I left there completely.

9:30 A.M, Monday, November 22th

It's been one week since that happened, I don't know what to do. I am in pain right now, it makes me feel terrified. I don't know what to do! I am confused and it gave me horrors.

Somewhat it keeps rewinding in my mind, those voices I've heard and those scenes I saw. It gives me anguish everytime it comes off on my mind. I am still flabbergasted and feel dumbfounded.

They treated me like a foolish hopeless romantic girl who did believe that there's a man that willing to love only one woman of his life. But I was wrong! Men were all the same!

I have been in my room I don't want to go downstairs. I don't feel like moving all I want is peace. I sniffed, wipe my tears and tell myself that it's alright everything is fine. I laughed at the thought pushing myself that I am gonna be fine but it's not! It never will.

Heretofore, Caden keeps coming to my house and banging the door of my room. How dare him! I don't want to see his hideous face again and his vileness.

"Sophia, let me talk!"

"Sophia please hear me out just for once."

"Please Sophia?"

"Sophia baby! Let me explain."

I shrieked, "Leave me alone Caden! I don't need you! You are stupid to come here, Caden! I don't need you and I never will be needing you! So back off and go home!"

People have different kinds of how they comfort themselves. As for me, crying and wrapping myself into the darkness of my room feels like it giving me comfort and feel the empathy of darkness with me.

My tears fell again, it rewinding in my mind, again. I'm tired of this! I wanted to rest forever. I feel like dying slowly with the pain. I feel like giving up but why just can't I?

I always ask myself why Caden did this to me. I'm not enough for me? Why he cheated on me? Do I such a toy for him now? I love Caden so much and I know he loves me too but why he did to me?

My heart is breaking into tiny pieces, and it is aching so much, and it is aching so much. I wiped my tears again. "Why it can't just stop! It keeps falling." I hissed.

3:00 P.M, Tuesday, November 27th

"Sophia, let me talk!" He grabbed my hand and I faced him.

"You are here again! You are already talking, Caden. Get off my hand and just leave me alone!"

"Please let me explain, baby."

"No need, I know what you will say." I immediately walk out and leaving him dumbfounded.

"Look, I cheated because you don't give me things that I want, Sophia." I stopped him.

"Wait, I have a shortcoming with you, seriously?" I sarcastically laugh at myself in disbelief.

"Yes, you have shortcomings with me that I found it in someone, which is Denise. I know, it is stupid to say this but I found happiness with her. But, it is your fault!"

Jesus! I can't believe what he is saying right now. I can't believe it, This isn't the Caden I know before. He has changed.

Everything is in silence. My tears are starting to fall. Then, I broke the silence within us.

"You know, I gave all to you, I did the best I could do for you. If those efforts and sacrifices were not enough for you. Then it was your loss, I gave it to you. I gave it all!" I hissed.

"But, Sophia it's not enough!"

"Asshole! Then, if it's not enough why are you here? What's your purpose in saying to me?"

"I just want to tell you that it was your fault that I did such things. And, not was my fault." I slapped him hard. "Stupid!" Then, I stride there completely.

I went home and hastily seeks for bed and lied down. I stared at the ceiling of my room and again, my tears were falling and I felt the pain.

Then, those memories we had, the happy moments, bad ones, and how we solved those. But, it was too much to handle now. I can't afford to lose myself to someone who doesn't value my worth.

"I love you, Caden but it's too much," I said while looking at the ceiling.

"Iya! Someone is looking for you!" I closed the book I read and I retorted. "Coming! Who is it?"